You're My Only Star

Chapter 76 - Lu Xun's Apology

Lu Xun was surprised to hear Song Xing Xing's words.

Although he knew that Song Xing Xing liked him, this was the first time that she had spoken about it to him.

Lu Xun never thought that his intention to help her would make him a cruel person. Moreover… this was the first time that he heard about drawing a line when you help someone.

In the beginning, it was her cousin who had asked him to look after her. Therefore, Lu Xun had always thought that he should pay more attention to her. He helped her when he saw that she was in trouble and he would worry about her whenever he saw her.

He reasoned that everything he did was because of Song Yi's request. He reasoned that he only viewed her as his little sister.

But was that really the case?

He was the one who did not want her to bother him with her feeling. However, when she started to draw away and avoided him, Lu Xun started to feel uncomfortable.

Before this, Song Xing Xing would often look at him with a little sparkle in her eyes. She was very lively and full of life. Perhaps because of that, his eyes would always follow her around.

These days, she no longer looked at him the same way. Whenever he was around, Song Xing Xing would rather lower her head and pretended that she did not see him.

For a while, Lu Xun found that he was confused with his heart.

In the end, what exactly did he want?

Or perhaps, he already knew what he wanted.

It was just that… his previous love story did not go as well as he thought it would. He had a good impression of her, but he forced himself to push everything away. He was just scared that the same story would repeat itself.

Therefore, when he sensed her feelings, his first reaction was to push her away.

Seeing that the man did not respond to her, Song Xing Xing suppressed the sting in her eyes and turned around. She had already given her piece. Since he did not want her to like him, then he should stop being attentive to her.

With him appearing in front of her whenever she least expecting it, Song Xing Xing was not confident that she would be able to stop liking him.

How can you forget a person if that person kept appearing in front of you?

She had never confessed properly about her feelings, but the man still knew about it.

He was cruel to her but it was still difficult for her to let go of her feelings for him. After all, when Song Xing Xing realized that she liked him, she was very excited. She had intended to give her all without holding back.

Now that she had to stop liking him, Song Xing Xing thought that it would be very difficult to reverse her feelings towards him.

Who asked him to be her first love? Who asked her to be this inexperienced?

Song Xing Xing felt as if she was wronged.

The next time she fell in love, she has to learn to control her feelings well so that she would not get hurt.

Anyway, with Lu Xun, it's better if she kept her distance until she was sure that she can let him go. Even if she cannot forget him, she needed to learn to control her feelings. Even if she still had feelings for him, she cannot let him bully her like this. She still had her pride and dignity.

Just as she was about to reach the bus stop, someone grabbed her hand, forcing her to turn around.

Song Xing Xing was about to beat that person when she realized that it was Lu Xun. Her movement halted and her heart jumped when she saw his face again. For a while, she could not understand what else did this man wanted from her.

The two continued to stare at each other for a long time.

Just before Song Xing Xing could tug her hand away from him, Lu Xun had broken the silence.

"Song Xing Xing, I'm sorry."

Her eyes widened. Song Xing Xing thought that perhaps she had misheard things. Looking at his face, Song Xing Xing did not think that her ears were playing tricks on her.

"President Lu, why are you apologizing to me?"

Lu Xun found that it was difficult to answer this question.

He hasn't figured out his thought or why he would feel unhappy when this girl had stopped looking at him the way she used to do. He just knew that when he saw her retreating, he wanted to stop her from leaving.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't give you hope and force you to kill it," Lu Xun said. His voice was a little hoarse. "I'm sorry that I was too cruel to you."

His apology did not make her feel happy. Instead, this apology only made an ache spread through her heart.

She would rather let him retreat slowly and the two of them could forget everything that did not happen.

"Then, would you stop being nice to me?" Song Xing Xing forced a smile. "I don't need your apology. It's better if you just treat me like the rest of your employees. Or like the person you passed by on the street. Can you do that?"

Song Xing Xing suddenly felt very tired. She did not want to deal with this matter at this time. Why was it difficult and tiring to like someone?

"Lu Xun, this is the first time that I liked someone," Song Xing Xing continued. "If you keep appearing in front of me and try to act kindly to me, I won't know how to turn off my feelings." She placed her hand at her heart. "Right here… it's hurting. I don't like this feeling."

"Then, you don't have to turn off your feelings."

Song Xing Xing pursed her lips. Her eyes were looking at him in confusion.

What did he say?

If she did not turn off her feelings, then what? She already knew that the man did not have the intention to return her feelings anyway. Even if she continued to like him, everything would be pointless, wouldn't they? She would only torture herself when she like someone who did not like her back.

Why must he continue to play with her heart?

Who did he think he is?

Song Xing Xing had the urge to kick him in the crotch and run away. However, this thought quickly disappeared when she heard his next words.

"Song Xing Xing, I think I might like you." In his eyes were a different kind of emotion that he himself could not understand. "Can you.... give me a chance to make things right?"