Chapter 441
Chapter 441
[I know that from one to ten there are only questions.]
Not only do you hear it with your ears, but it also resonates in your head.
[However, I couldn’t do everything for the conversation.]
Even though he’s not louder than me or shouting, my body vibrates every time I spit out a word. I know it doesn’t matter if I release my prayer posture because it’s already a space that is disconnected from my body, but I can’t do that because I feel like I’m about to collapse as soon as I loosen the posture.
[You should know better that your consciousness is being cut just by facing me and hearing my voice.] Very slowly, you got up
from your chair and took a step towards me, narrowing the distance as if gravity were doubling. all. Even though there is no intention of threatening me in all of those actions, I have no choice but to shrink on my own just by facing them.
That’s why it’s a divinity.
A figure that cannot but desperately feel the existence of a transcendental being that mortals can never handle.
[So, ask only what you think you need right now.]
Lady Epaga looked at me as I was shaken by enduring that divinity, and her gaze was extremely gentle.
There is not even a trace of God’s arrogance. The gaze filled with only mercy and affection like Hahae only contains consideration for me.
Contrary to the sloppy posture he showed at first…
[Uh huh.]
Kuh hmm.
Thanks to that, I was able to collect my mind as much as possible and ask the most fundamental questions.
“Why did I reincarnate in another world?”
[…It’s because your death wasn’t an accident.]
Even though she was able to read her thoughts and answer in advance, Epaga-sama didn’t do that like the first time. It was as if they respected the very act of letting my doubts come out of my mouth.
[This is a very long story. All I can tell you right away is… that the existence of this world was involved in your death. I was late trying to stop this, and I did everything I could to save your soul.]
What the hell did that son of a robber do in this world?
The reason I was able to live with my previous life as a previous life was because I thought it was a bittersweet ending to a filthy unlucky life.
But, as it turns out, that’s where the problem comes from. Did my parents even die unjustly because of that?
It wasn’t a story that I could understand at all, but I couldn’t even speak, so Epaga-sama looked at me with a more compassionate gaze.
It was a look with many meanings. A gaze with a clear meaning so that you can understand what it means without having to explain it in words.
[I will definitely tell you everything when the road becomes a little more solid. I promise you.]
So please don’t be buried in the past now.
That was right. Because there were a lot of unfair things in this life.
“Is it because of me that my parents and village were attacked?”
[It’s my fault.]
Again, it was an unexpected answer. Epaga-sama was silent for a while as if she was cheating, then continued to explain.
[I had no intention of making you a hero. That’s because, like her status as a saint, she has the power to bind fate. I just wanted to present a little bit of a comfortable life as a minimum compensation for the absurd death of my previous life.]
Contrary to my expectations, I thought that the gods would make judgments and take actions far from mortal emotions. Showing a human response, Lady Epaga carefully crouched down in front of me.
For some reason, I felt sadness in the two eyes that were burning with no pupils, just scattering light.
[However, in order to do so, I had to borrow the power of an artifact I gifted to my children in the past, rather than using my divine power. It’s because divine power isn’t something you can control the strength of if you want to. According to the original arrangement, you should have been born as a demon.]
As soon as I thought that I might have lived a life where I couldn’t even turn my head at will, even Epaga-sama, who was immersed in sadness, tilted her head as if it were ridiculous, but is there anything special? Thoughts don’t flow by themselves. It was like a divine power that couldn’t control the strength and weakness, so it was irresistible.
[That’s right. Anyway… Contrary to my original plan, I found out belatedly that all connections with my artifacts on the ground were severed. I noticed that it was an anomaly because it couldn’t be done simply by sealing it, but not only the relics but also the ‘road’ itself for communication had problems. However, it was not that I could neglect your soul, the existence of the other world, until the problem was resolved.]
“So…”
[Yes. With the power of the only intact holy relic, I reincarnated you in the nearest village. Eldmia Egaro, son of Ethan Egar and Avisher Ruina. Because of your past as an ordinary but adventurous person, even if you have some extraordinary abilities, unlike ordinary farmers, you are a child of knowledgeable people who can make your talent bloom without problems.] I had no choice but to do that, but it wasn’t like that
.
After saying that, Lady Epaga frowned in deep regret and continued her words.
[I didn’t know my children would. For some reason, the Demon King’s army was looking for my traces and cutting off the connection with me. Through the relics of a temple forgotten in the flow of time in the corner of the land of the human race, he was persistent enough to notice even a brief use of his power and move.] On the eighth year like that, the Demon King’s army succeeded in tracking down our village and devastated it
. relics were recovered.
It was an event that would not have happened unless I was reincarnated.
[I was complacent.]
That’s why Epaga was blaming herself.
“If it hadn’t been for that, I would have ended up dead.”
My answer is fixed.
There may be many things to ask and many things to argue about, but I am not here to blame others.
“How can I blame you for showing mercy to give me one more chance that wasn’t there in the first place. I just feel grateful for Epaga-sama’s grace.”
I didn’t even have to say it, and even though I didn’t even have to wait until I said it, I spoke and Lady Epaga listened. I tried to joke in my shaving spirit.
“Since you can read my thoughts, don’t you know what I’m saying at times like this?”
[Yeah, that was a sharp expression. I’m so fucking sorry.]
I laughed too as I saw Epaga burst out laughing as if she was dumbfounded.
It’s not that there is no regret. It’s not that I’m not angry. However, the destination of this anger is so obvious that I just don’t want to vent my anger.
So I calmed myself as much as possible and continued with the question.
“Why did they do that?”
[I think he wanted the power of a hero. As soon as I checked the artifact, I realized that I had already exerted my influence, so it must have taken the action of erasing your hometown from the map.
” Because the plan to do it will be ruined. That’s a reasonable enough guess.
So, for the first time in a long time, something that made me cry came to a boil.
It was only for such an uncertain reason that they all had no choice but to die.
“Is that why you sealed the divinity inside me?”
[To be precise, the mana was also sealed. The fact that the seal was loosened due to an encounter with a human mage was a variable far beyond my expectations. If your growth had been a little faster… or if your house had been a little closer to the village, I think you would have died on the spot as well.]
“A variable… is it?”
[There may be a possibility that God is omnipotent, but there is no possibility that he is omniscient. Children may think that they know everything because there is an oracle. That’s another story.]
It’s such a bland feeling. There are too many people who died to be thankful for being lucky… but it’s not a situation to be depressed.
However, as Esmuer said, there was no reason to waste my limited time worrying about what I could do later, so I decided to ask what might be the last question, hoping that my spirit, which seemed to be cut off at any moment, would endure a little longer.
“What do you want me to do?”
If Epaga-sama’s words are true, in the end, all of this is a by-product of coincidence, not predetermined fate. As I didn’t wait for an opportunity like this to come, I thought that Epaga-sama would also want something besides answering my question, so I asked this question.
And I will do my best to make Epaga’s wish come true, unless he tells me not to take revenge. I gave you a chance to live again, but wouldn’t you be able to do that much?
[I hope you continue to walk your own path.]
However, Lady Epaga’s answer was synonymous with saying that there is nothing to wish for.
[No, it’s different. I’m not telling you to go your own way because I don’t want anything, but I want you to leave God’s will and move towards what you want to do.]
“…Can I know the reason?”
It was much more dangerous than I thought, but fortunately, I was able to hear the last reply from Lady Epaga with a gentle smile.
[That’s why we became envious of the world you lived in.]
My eyes opened.
In a way, it was similar to the conversation with the Spirit, but the fatigue was much more serious.
As soon as I opened my eyes, I fell forward without any resistance, and the saintess who was watching was frightened and came running.