After rebirth, I rejected the rich yandere lady

Chapter 185: Chapter 119 Yao Mingyue: Let's Start Over._3

Xu Musen spoke with great patience, as childhood friends, as families who were closer than blood relatives.

Xu Musen still hoped that Yao Mingyue would truly realize her own problems, otherwise, her future issues would only grow larger.

Aunt Liu only had one daughter, and if something happened to Yao Mingyue, Aunt Liu's last psychological support might just collapse.

This was not what Xu Musen wanted to see.

"But do you give me a chance?"

Yao Mingyue lifted her head, clutching a bottle of alcohol, "You once told me to experience what it feels like to truly like someone, but what about you? You spend every day with that girl, avoiding me whenever you see me. Have you ever given me a chance to properly like you?"

She swung the bottle, but the alcohol seemed like half a bottle of vinegar, its sour taste making it all the more unbearable.

"Xu Musen, what's so good about her? Whatever she can give you, I can give you too. Why can't you continue to be good to me?"

Xu Musen silently took a sip of alcohol, "It's respect, understanding, freedom, that carefree purity."

"She loves to eat snacks, but she always lets me have a bite first.

She would come over in the sun to bring me mung bean soup, insist on helping me upstairs to check on me if she thought I was suffering from heatstroke.

I ask her to sign something, and she'd unconditionally trust me.

The milk tea shop I gave her, yet she hands over all the money she earns to me..."

Xu Musen listed one thing after another, but each one was like a knife stabbing into Yao Mingyue's heart.

"I can do all these things, too!"

"You're different."

Xu Musen shook his head, "To me, you're not like someone who likes me but like someone who likes a toy. You'd carefully wipe and maintain me every day, not allowing anyone to hurt me, but you'd never ask what I truly want or whether I am happy or not, because our relationship has always been unequal."

Right, toys are meant to make people happy, who cares whether a toy is happy or not?"

Xu Musen laughed, the bottle in his hand now empty, his tone light, but for Yao Mingyue, it was as if waves were crashing in her heart.

In this moment, her heart echoed with his self-mocking words.

She couldn't argue, because for all these years, she had been accustomed to Xu Musen's pampering.

Yao Mingyue's affection for Xu Musen was indeed like that for a favorite toy; she would care for him in every possible way, not allowing him to get hurt, giving him whatever he wanted, and she'd rather lock him up in her safe.

But she had never once asked Xu Musen what he really liked or what kind of life he truly wanted.

This was a one-sided emotion.

"I..."

Yao Mingyue opened her mouth, but no sound came out.

She had realized something, but... it seemed a little too late.

Xu Musen opened another bottle of alcohol and spoke, "That's why I have feelings for her, because her kindness to me is simply wanting to be kind, without any pressure on me.

Nowadays, many people misunderstand feelings, always thinking they need to establish a relationship and a status before they can continue being nice to someone.

Just like how people now want to get married, they must have a house, claiming it to be the basic guarantee of happiness.

But a house only secures a living, without emotional support, a haven can become a source of storms and strife.

At that time, a house is no longer a home, but a cage that binds two people together."

So-called status should be a natural turning point, a castle built together by two people to witness their love, not a cage that confines them."

Xu Musen took a gulp of alcohol.

In fact, in his previous life, he had been like a canary locked in a cage, meticulously cared for by Yao Mingyue, but never free.

She loved his singing but overlooked that he too had feathers yearning for freedom.

Yao Mingyue clutched the bottle, her heart sour, tears sparkling in her eyes as she looked at Xu Musen.

"I know… but I really can't live without you, Xu Musen, you promised before, you'd always be with me, you can't like someone else..."

Yao Mingyue's hand clutched his sleeve; she really panicked now.

Because today Xu Musen laid everything bare before her.

The sharp knife of truth cuts the deepest.

"I haven't fallen for someone else, because I feel that I have never really understood how to like someone."

Xu Musen looked at Yao Mingyue, his gaze softening a bit, looking at her, but in a daze, he saw more than ten years ago.

On that stormy night, she wore the new dress her father had bought her, waiting outside the operating room, distraught.

When the doctor announced the result.

She cried until she could no longer shed tears. Xu Musen held her in his arms, and from that moment on.

The fates of both were tightly bound together.

Having lost her father while still a child, faced with her family's bankruptcy crisis, her mother had to leave her alone for long periods to keep the company going.

Yao Mingyue lived alone in an empty room, unimaginable mental pressure for a child.

So, Yao Mingyue feared loss, the scars in her heart leading to her obsessive possessive mentality.

The arrival of Xu Musen became her last pillar of support.

At first, Yao Mingyue saw him as a dependency, as her final support.