Against Heaven's Will

Chapter 163 Love or Pain?

When her lips dropped onto his own, Golden Queen couldn’t help but feel her body tense up. It was definitely something she shouldn’t do but she did it anyway just to prove her point.

His own lips were as soft as usual, matching her length perfectly. If that was the end of the test, Xuefeng would definitely score full points. Too bad, it was just a start.

"What are you doing?" Xuefeng questioned confused as he grabbed her shoulders and pulled her away. "Are you still dreaming? I’m not your husband."

"I’m not. I’m just testing something," Golden Queen replied in defense.

"Testing something? By kissing me?" Xuefeng argued but Golden Queen shrugged, explaining honestly.

"Yes. I want to know if I actually love you or if it’s my brain that is getting confused."

It was the first time she saw Xuefeng so shocked as if he was questioning himself if he heard her right.

"What...?"

"You heard me," Golden Queen didn’t repeat herself as she grabbed his wrists. "Now, please cooperate with me so it doesn’t take too long."

She didn’t give him time to react as she pulled his arms away and pinned him to the bed. She gave him a smile and lowered for another kiss. He didn’t try to dodge her, which she took full advantage of.

Mhmm...

It didn’t take much for her to moan softly, their noses rubbing and their lips mushing together. When Xuefeng finally responded to her kisses, the sensation simply exploded.

She slowly let go of his wrists and wrapped herself around his head instead, melting into his lips with pure pleasure. She didn’t have to force herself, nor did she have to pretend she enjoyed it. She went full natural and her reaction wasn’t staged either.

’I guess I do enjoy kissing him...’ Golden Queen muttered in her mind, beginning to analyze the situation when their tongues finally met, sliding and teasing. Her mind made an unambiguous decision to put the analysis to the side for a moment.

She swallowed and sucked, stimulating her inner playfulness when Xuefeng took the lead by grabbing her neck.

’Ah! He even chokes me!’ She exclaimed when her body shuddered as Xuefeng squeezed her neck, easily cutting her blood flow.

His other hand gathered her hair from their faces before grasping it behind her head. Just this much ignited the spark in her heart, causing her body to tingle.

How did he know exactly what she liked at every moment?

’This man...’

She sometimes wondered if he could read her mind but then, he bit on her tongue, forcing her to pull it back as his teeth pinched it. She didn’t even know she liked it till now.

’Why am I getting hot just from kissing him...?’ Golden Queen asked herself but deep down she already knew the answer. She just didn’t want to admit it just yet.

Even her body acted on its own, pressing against him and rubbing at full length. She was ready to risk it all when the scene turned upside down.

Literally.

Xuefeng slid his palm down onto her back and rolled on the bed, getting on top of her. She didn’t mind the change, thinking he would continue but Xuefeng pulled away instead.

"Alright, that’s enough," Xuefeng decided. "Are you happy?"

How could such a short session satisfy her? She immediately wrapped her legs around his waist and lifted herself on his neck to continue but after a few deep exchanges, he stopped her again.

"What has gotten into you? This is not like you," Xuefeng commented as he pinned her down but all he got was an unhappy stare from her.

"Can you tell me what was that?" Xuefeng asked again.

"I told you, I was testing," Golden Queen admitted innocently. "You are not going to release me?"

"I won’t till you explain yourself. What did you mean by testing if you love me?" Xuefeng interrogated. "I know you like to joke around but this joke is definitely over the line. If you want us to keep the good relationship we have, please don’t do that again. Tell me you are joking."

Golden Queen snickered.

How could she tell him if she didn’t know herself? Her body and mind wanted every inch of him but everything else was leading in the opposite direction. Why did this have to happen to her?

"Do you really think you can keep me pinned down?" Golden Queen asked, hiding the battle in her mind behind a smile.

Bzzzt!

Golden Lightning burst from her fingers, causing his body to twitch. At the same time he let go of her, she grasped his wrists and flipped the roles again. Now she was at the top, deciding what went on.

"Okay, I know you like pain but I’m not a fan so I would appreciate it if you don’t do that," Xuefeng pleaded calmly.

"You say you are not a fan but you didn’t even react. A normal person would scream their lungs out," Golden Queen bantered.

"It is only because I have been through a lot of pain already and I slowly became immune to it. That doesn’t change the fact that it still hurts," Xuefeng admitted and stopped her games. "Can you stop playing and finally tell me what’s going on? Our case is not a joking matter. Many lives are on the line."

They stared at each other in silence for a few seconds before she leaned down, hovering right above his face. Their lips and noses grazed against each other while their eyes locked in a battle of stares.

"What if I’m not joking...?" Golden Queen whispered, her voice as quiet as a mouse. "What if I really love you?"

"Then I will say that I don’t believe you," Xuefeng replied simply. "Miss Golden I know wouldn’t do such a mistake."

As a response, Golden Queen closed the gap and bit him on the lip, pulling on it with her teeth.

"What if she doesn’t consider it as a mistake? What if she thinks it’s a good opportunity for her?"

Xuefeng paused at her questions.

"So you are not joking?"

"No, I’m not. From all the requirements I have, you passed all over them. Not only that, you even topped my husband in every category as well. You know exactly what I want and when I want. I don’t know if what I feel right now is love but it is definitely something I want to explore," "Now tell me, what do I do?"

"Nothing," "I’m sorry, but we can’t love each other. No matter how great and beautiful you are, I’m not going to risk my wives’ lives like this."

She already expected such an answer but it still hurt to hear it come from his mouth. Her smile slowly faded away and she pulled away, cuddling into his neck as if to hide.

’I hate myself...’ Golden Queen muttered in her mind. ’Why did I even tell him about it...?’

"Hey..." Xuefeng hummed into her ear but she didn’t react. She was too confused with herself to talk with him.

Her grasp didn’t have much strength left, so he escaped her lock easily and hugged her tightly.

"I didn’t want to hurt you, but I’m always honest in the matters of love," Xuefeng began, his thumb caressing her side. "You are probably confused about what to do but let me tell you something. You have an amazing husband who loves you and would do anything for you. Why don’t you recall all the reasons why you decided to partner with him?"

Golden Queen thought deeply but only got more depressed, realizing it wasn’t anything special.

"Would you believe me if I said that I accepted him only because everyone else was trash compared to him?" Golden Queen questioned. "I didn’t like anyone and he was the only one who seemed normal and treated me with respect. I wasn’t really head over heels for him but I eventually accepted him since there wasn’t anyone better."

"Well... I believe you, but you still spent years of a happy life together. You even have a daughter with him. Just because there is a man out there who is comparable to your husband, doesn’t mean you should forget every moment of your life with him and ditch him," Xuefeng explained warmly. "Maybe I’m not a good example but I would never do that."

"Tsk," Golden Queen snickered at his words. "That’s because you can just get another wife and no one will complain. I can’t do that. You men would never agree to it."

Xuefeng smiled awkwardly.

"That’s true. I would never agree for my women to have another man," Xuefeng admitted. "How about you spend some time and rethink everything? Making rash decisions is not really good."

Golden Queen sighed.

"Fine, but you have to stay with me for a little bit longer. I enjoy hugging you," she demanded, but Xuefeng picked her up and suddenly sat up with her.

"I think it would be better if you think about it alone. My wives are still waiting for me," Xuefeng suggested as he patted her thighs, signaling for her to chop down.

"I hate you," she uttered unhappily and slid to the side, moving to the edge of the bed.

He smiled at that and stood up, picking up his clothes. Watching him put on his pants, she really didn’t want him to go this fast.

"What happened with you at the arena when you added another Elemental Stone to your bracelet?" Golden Queen asked casually.

"Oh, the Elemental Bracelet was just telling me the location of the next Elemental Stone," Xuefeng replied casually as he put on his shirt. "It’s a Lightning Stone this time."

"Oh! Where is it?" Golden Queen wondered curiously.

"Well, I can’t tell you where but I can tell you that the person that has it is really powerful," Xuefeng said as he put everything on and headed towards the door.

"How did you know that?" She called out before he left.

He gazed back at her and added awkwardly, "Her Lightning hurts even more than yours. See you later."

He didn’t give her much to work with and simply left, forcing her to watch his back as the door closed.

Her mind couldn’t help but return to her mother’s scene and recalled one last question she asked at that time.

"Mom, what if there are more than one that I love?"

She remembered her mom’s giggle and the answer clearly.

"If you are really in such a situation and you love them both equally, just pick the younger man. If he is strong enough to rival you while being much younger than the older man, his future will be much brighter."