Debut or Die

Chapter 264

Episode 264

I put my hand on the table.

It was a small table placed in a hotel room to match the assortment, but in front of it was a camera as huge as the table.

said the crew behind the camera.

“please introduce yourself.”

“yes. hello. This is Testa’s Bakmundae.”

I nodded at the camera. And said it with a faint smile.

“I am now… We are participating in Testa’s second concert tour.”

And I’m also involved in making a concert documentary.

this is what i’m doing now

‘Actually, I film a lot of concert behind-the-scenes.’

It gives you a sense of familiarity with each idol, and the behind-the-scenes story of the concert you watched is interesting.

However, it is rare to produce a documentary separately. It is encouraging that it was launched in front of the general public rather than treated as a product that only fans can see.

It means that the production has left a mark on the flow of popular music to the extent that it has popular significance.

‘In other words, it’s like a symbol with a different class.’

For example, VTIC must have already released three or four documentaries of their own.

So, everyone acknowledged that this was an act of knocking on the threshold of the heavenly realm.

However, whether everyone liked it was a different matter.

-… wouldn’t it be uncomfortable? You’re going to have a camera attached to you for months.

-Well, I heard that you are coming in appropriately under consultation.

-Sometimes I worry that the related content won’t be interesting because I don’t have a very interesting daily life… .

-Ay, the experts will take care of editing for you~ You don’t have to be too thirsty for fun. It’s a documentary, not a variety show! would you do it nicely?

In the end, with the majority and appropriate persuasion, the documentary went into filming, and so far there have been no problems.

‘a little… It seems too attached.’

For example, something like this.

“Which part of the tour is the most uncomfortable?”

“Hmm, maybe it’s like adjusting to jet lag or figuring out a new venue… It is an environmental factor.”

“Ah, I think you can. Then some more… How is it in terms of heart?”

“Well, mentally… .”

I can feel the desire to film raw things from the production team.

Attempts to reduce the sense of distance from my inner world can be seen with each camera.

If you lower your tension with a simple question and then come up with a refined answer, you will slowly change your direction so that your true intentions are revealed.

It was different from the entertainment production crew that pursued stimulation.

Of course, in this case, it is enough to give a more ‘sincere-sounding’ answer.

“I think it’s because it’s hard to bear that the audience can’t fully enjoy the concert due to factors beyond my control.”

As I thought briefly, I left a blank and answered again.

“So I think that’s the most sensitive and nerve-wracking thing. The perfection of the concert.”

In this way, you will feel satisfied that you have discovered the personality of the respondent.

Sure enough, the crew nodded and moved on to the next question.

“Then what does the concert mean to Testa?”

“Anyway, the closest thing to meeting the fans is… … .”

Even after that, I think I gave a good answer worthy of a documentary. An edited version would be plausible.

* * *

“Thank you.”

The interview lasted about an hour. And it ended with the crew leaving to visit the next hitter.

“… … .”

I lay down on the bed.

On the contrary, the tour itself is more leisurely than the active period.

Now that it’s time, I’m given a hotel room during the tour. And between concerts, it’s because I have quite a long time to rest recklessly to recover my stamina.

“It is quiet.”

I closed my eyes. It was even a little awkward, probably because I had been living among such noisy people for several years.

“… … .”

Just before useless thoughts come crashing in.

Suddenly, the production team’s question I just heard rang in my head.

-What does a concert mean?

Then there is a scene that comes to mind.

The first concert of this tour.

A concert at Gocheok Dome in Seoul after a long time.

-Waaaaaaa!!

cry. flame. Heat.

and pure concentration.

If this huge psychological uplift and overwhelming feeling is the essence of a concert, the non-face-to-face donation concert could just be called a filming.

It was so ebb and flow that I felt the density as if I was in the sea.

the air is different.

Concerts are a good source of income for the company, but from the standpoint of performers, there was no transcendental space.

If you do it right, there are more rewards than burdens. And this group has been around for such a long time.

“after.”

… It’s fortunate that the documentary crew didn’t stick around from Seoul.

‘Because everyone went home crying.’

I would never have been able to do an interview like that.

-Dream as blue as day!! Big!

The guys who sang their debut song with their shoulders in the dorm were drunken themselves. It is obvious that complaints would have come in if the soundproofing was not good.

‘Ryu Cheng-wu cut the request well.’

I briefly acknowledged the leader’s credit. And while checking the schedule for the next W live, I fell asleep right away.

… Remembering that there are 34 hours left until the next concert.

‘Soon.’

Since it is in the US, the venue is smaller than in Korea, but the concert has not changed. There will be a similar density of pleasure.

And after the hotel chipper time and rehearsals, the concert started again.

[Hello LA!]

[Wooooow!]

Yeah. The concert was still a special experience and I enjoyed it.

However, I need to further revise my impression of the documentary crew.

‘These guys are too much.’

“Mr. Moondae, are you okay?”

“… it’s okay.”

I took off my oxygenator and stood up. Then, the camera hurriedly catches up and another production crew hurriedly writes something in the back.

It wasn’t very meaningful.

‘Do you make a story?’

However, it would be faster to find an idol who does not use a respirator, but if you pay attention to ‘passion’ with this, you will only come up with a boring picture.

‘VTIC has already eaten all of the beef bones.’

But after the concert, I caught up on the situation in a restarted interview.

“Mr. Moondae, have you ever felt any aftereffects after a car accident?”

“… ? Traffic Accident… . um no I am well.”

They started asking about my physical condition.

‘Ah, I see.’

It seemed like he wanted to hold on to the concept of ‘a perfectionist idol who does his best even though his body hurts’.

It’s fun to put in a narrative rather than dry facts just because it’s a documentary, so it’s good to try… .

‘It’s a scam.’

I was the one who was judged cured even by modern medical standards.

There are a lot of violent movements in this album, so I even stretched my muscles, so it’s deceiving to tell the story that way.

I am strong beyond measure.

‘It’s about the level of using a lie detector if you install it with this.’

The bottom line is to get an interview about ‘anxiety after a car accident’. I added a bit more assertiveness.

“I was greedy to show my fans a good image quickly to cause concern, but I am completely healthy now.”

Then, a subtle silence passed between the production crew.

what is this.

“Mr. Moondae. It seemed like you were moving beyond your limit during the concert.”

“… me?”

Were you at a different concert than me?

“yes. Same with the oxygen mask. Members say so too.”

“The members?”

what is this sound.

In the meantime, these bastards are holding me in a panic and having a good time. Is it that much fun?

“After the accident, I can see that Mr. Mundae is having a harder time than before, but he says it hurts because he doesn’t show it as much as he can every time.”

“… … .”

In an instant, the evidence passes through my head.

-you… I’m already in a state of stamina due to the aftereffects.

-He was seriously injured and lying down for too long must have affected his condition.

“You seem to feel a lot of pressure physically, but you want me to expect more from you.”

No, the corner I leaned on was Bacchus.

And even without it, I’m fine now, but the members were comparing me to now, remembering me in the days when I was constantly receiving ‘Bacchus’.

In fact, I forgot that I had unrealistically good stamina before that.

And contrary to my promise, I put ‘Mission Constitution’ in the vacancy of ‘Bacchus’ and put an end to the heyday of physical strength that can’t be returned… .

In addition, the system leaves and you can no longer get a draw.

‘It’s ruined.’

It’s an outsider.

I held back my drool and barely opened my mouth.

“… I didn’t expect the members to say that.”

Don’t laugh because you’re not impressed.

But I have to use that misunderstanding.

I paused for a moment, then answered slowly.

“I was hurt the most. So the members put a lot of thought into it. I think it’s probably from a similar context this time… Just thank you.”

… It’s also half sincere.

So stop talking about friendship stories between members and give up stories about overcoming injuries.

But these guys didn’t give up.

“here!”

“Are you okay?”

“… okay.”

‘under… .’

First of all, I persistently filmed myself on the backstage. In particular, it was clearly intended to prefer the appearance of being supported or breathing.

‘It must have been completely plugged in.’

I thought about giving a serious warning a few times, but gave up.

‘Do whatever you want.’

Looking at it, I thought it would be interesting to pick the documentary itself based on facts because it captures the interesting points well.

It just seemed like it would inadvertently plant a distorted fantasy about me in the public, but what… done.

‘The fighting spirit of an injury is a common behind-the-scenes story.’

Yes, it could be that this job originally started with deception and ended with deception… . Do it right for the money.

‘It looks like rumors of aftereffects from members are spreading all over the world… .’

I gave up everything and focused on the concert.

However, it seems that there are also those who did not.

“Stop! stop!”

“… !”

A slightly longer VCR playing time before the encore. Suddenly, a loud noise came from backstage.

It was the voice of one of the least sensitive of us.

“Eugene?”

“Are you Cha Yoo-jin?”

The guys who were on standby after changing their costumes ran at once, embarrassed by the unexpected situation.

It was a bit like that because the camera was chasing it, but anyway, the contract even included the disposal of the film in the clause.

‘Checking the situation comes first.’

And when I turned around the hallway, I saw the place where the sound came from.

It was a small backstage room, mainly for managing muscle cramps and joint pain.

Cha Yoo-jin had a patch attached to her shoulder to see if she was receiving emergency care, but there was something more urgent than that.

It was because Cha Yoo-jin was in a confrontation with the documentary crew.

“… Eugene?”

Cha Yu-jin looked back, but soon stared straight ahead again.

To be precise, the production team beyond the cameraman.

“Don’t do that. I don’t like it.”

“yes yes. sorry.”

“Go away. Don’t come in here.”

And resolutely sent the production team out.

“… … wait a minute.”

I also sent the camera that followed me outside. It was a bit intrusive to film even a closed door until the end, but Cha Yoo-jin came first.

As soon as Ryu Cheng-wu confirmed that the door was closed, he turned off the microphone and spoke to Yu-jin Cha.

“Yujin. You have a camera. If I have something to say, it won’t be late even if the camera is lowered after the concert.”

“… … .”

“Even if there are complaints, let’s talk about it after a concert. 4 minutes until our encore… No, only three minutes left.”

“… OK. all right.”

Cha Yoo-jin didn’t look very happy, but she nodded. I’m not the type of guy who’s in a bad mood on stage, so the encore will be fine.

‘I heard that documentary guys are overdoing it.’

Still, I didn’t know that Cha Yu-jin would do this.

I don’t know what the hell made him react like this. Still, the production team seemed to keep the line.

I held my breath and opened the door. Immediately the camera popped in.

… This time, I was also a bit intrusive. That passion might be the cause.

‘I’ll have to talk to you as soon as it’s over.’

But before the concert was even over, I was blown away again.