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Chapter 52: I Wont Let You Control Me Anymore!
Chapter 52: I Wont Let You Control Me Anymore!
Chapter 52: I Won't Let You Control Me Anymore!
Benladann POV
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It was as if I had been drowning in an endless sea of darkness.
Everything felt dull.
There was nothing but the void, emptiness.
Nothing but me.
And so, I slept.
And slept…
And slept more…
I don't know how long I slept.
My body seemed to no longer belong to me, and it was as if I was devoid of anything…
I slept within the darkness, despair and fear faded away, and there was simply… nothing.
I had become empty…
For I don't know how long, it continued to be like this.
Sometimes, fragments, strange memories of blue-skinned people would flash through my mind.
Who were these people?
I don't know…
I only know that whenever I remembered them, I felt a warmth within my empty heart.
There was something… that I needed to remember.
There were people… I wanted to remember.
Aside from Miranda… I was someone else.
But no matter how hard I searched, no matter how hard I had dived into the sea of darkness… I could not find the answers I looked for.
But… there was something not right…
I continued to look for it…
I wanted… to know…
But the darkness continued to block my path.
I had begun to despair once more…
But every time I remembered those fragments of memories I saw, some strange new strength surged into my heart.
What was this sensation? This warmth, this comfort…
Who were these people to me?
I wish… I could remember…
I want to remember…
I want to remember who were these people!
Why…?
Why… do I love them so much?
I continued to delve into the darkness… I continued for… god knows how long…
But it always blocked my path.
I despaired… and despaired…
But the memories brought strength into my heart.
My mind was filled with twisted memories, and emotions bubbling in and out.
But there was something that always made me felt calm… them.
But it began to hurt.
The darkness became envious and angered, and it began to pierce me with needles.
It was so painful…
Hundreds, no, thousands of needles were constantly piercing my very spirit, trying to wear me down.
The piercing pain was so horrendous I wished I could die many times.
Just kill me already… Why must you keep me here? Trapped and despaired? Only to make you feel better?
What do you want from me?
"Family"
Ah…
"Don't you remember? We wanted a family, and we are here, both of us! You don't need any other people than me! We are twins, we are family, and we don't need anyone else!"
My same voice spoke to me, with a different tone…
She said… we were family.
But… I don't want to be your family.
"Eh?"
Let me go…
"What did you said?!"
Let me go! I have… I have a family! I know I have a family! Let me go! I don't want to be the family of a horrible mold! I hate you! I hate you!
"Eh?! H-How can you say that?! After all, we had gone through… Y-You... You dare raise your voice against me?!"
Yes… I am sick of you… I am sick of being controlled by you! I am sick of… all of you!
I am sick of pretending… that I like you! I hate you!
Go away!
"No… Miranda…. You're such an ungrateful sister! After all, I have helped you… Do you treat me like this?! T-This… OKAY THEN! I will have to just cage you down again!"
What? No! Let me goooo!
"Sorry… but this is how things are! Until you learn to respect your sister!"
Stop! STOOOOP!
As I was caged into even deeper darkness, a sudden flash of bright light came out of nowhere.
It was as if fate itself had intervened as if the heavens had pitied me… something, like a miracle.
Such… light.
I wanted to escape this… I didn't want to be with her anymore.
She only thinks of herself, she's selfish, and only wants me for herself…
She is even locking the memories that make me happy…
How can she be a good sister?
I quickly dived through the darkness and tried to grasp the light.
But every time I tried to do so, the darkness grasped my feet and pulled me down.
"YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE!"
No! Shut up! You're… you're not even my sister!
"W-What?!"
You're just an alien thing! A mold! You just copied my mind!
I already remember everything… you're not even real! I don't even have a sister!
"H-How can you say that, Miranda?!"
LET ME GO!
I quickly move through the darkness and punch the reflection of my own self, as she flies away.
"Aggh…! How can you… how dare you hit me?!"
I ignore her cries as I keep diving, extending my hand into the light.
Please… someone… save me!
Please…!
However, I am once more grasped by the tentacles of darkness, as she pulls me down once more.
"Unnnnggghharraaagghh! MIRANDAAAA…! YOU ARE MINE! MINE! MINE! MINE!"
My reflection suddenly twists and shapeshifts, as it becomes a grotesque monster made of black mold, roaring with many mouths and eyes, trying to eat me!
No… NO, NO, NO!
You're just an illusion! You're not real!
"GRAAAAAAAAAH!"
I quickly kick, punch, and attack the monster, it is enormous, and it could eat me, but when I brace myself and try to fight, it somehow works.
"Uugh…! Aggh…! W-WHYYYY?!"
I keep remembering that warmth, those people that always made me happy, and it brings me strength, a surging, overflowing strength like anything I have ever felt!
I grab the light, and then I use it to hit her!
FLAAASH!
"UNNNGGRRRYYYAAAAAAHHHH…! STOP! IT BURNS! IT BUUUUUURRRNNNSSSS!"
I am sorry… But this is what I had to do!
In fact… I should have done this… long ago…
You're… but a reflection of my past!
I am not Miranda anymore…
"NOOO! WAIT! DON'T… SAY THAT!"
My name is…
"UNNGH…! WAIT!"
My name is Benladann!
FLASH!
Suddenly, I am covered in pure and white light, and I dissipate and burn the darkness, my reflection turns into dust and disappears, as I am dragged into the sky.
And from the sky, a little claw emerges and grasps my hand.
The claw had blue, crystal-like scales.
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