Her Husband is My Lover

Chapter 112 - Life Is So Precious!

"Valentina..." Jason said as he looked at her. He saw a tear fall down from her eyes but she again hugged him tightly and buried her face in his neck. He closed his eyes and caressed her hair as he felt her tears on her neck. 

"Valentina..." Jason said as he caressed her hair and she shook her head in his neck.

"Please... Let me be like this for a few minutes..." Valentina replied making Jason take a deep breath but nodded his head.

Valentina silently cried in his arms without letting a sound out... As she knows that her mother might hear her and Jason made her feel good... She felt peace in his arms as she cried in his arms.

They both don't have any idea what to do... But they just hugged each other at that moment and hold on to each other. It's not about love. But it's something else for them... They don't even have any idea what about it... They both don't want to name it love. Because Valentina always does this... She felt good in Jason's arms to cry it out... It might be about anything... Valentina does cry out in Jason's arms and so, Jason doesn't want to think of it as love... That she is doing it newly... From the day, Jason and Valentina became good friends, she always shares her hard things with Jason and so, he knows her very well on what intentions she hugged him right now. This is making Jason hard but he knows that he shouldn't jump to conclusions and make Valentina knows about what he is feeling right now... But he is sure that she didn't hug him with the intention of love but as a friend who is close to her and was with her in every moment from the past few years. He took a deep breath and hugged he ignore tightly keeping away his love intentions away... And hugged as her true friends... It was really hard for him to hug her after whatever happened between them... The day when they both became together, he wanted to tell Valentina that if he does this he doesn't want to let her go away him but he couldn't tell her that when he knows that she loves Xavier... At that moment, he wanted her... He doesn't care about with what intentions he has sex with her but at that moment, he wanted her badly... He couldn't resist her... And they both spend the night together... But he very well knows that Valentina will talk about that night again with him... And he knows that he is not at all ready to talk with her about the night. He sighed knowing that thinking about all the things, will only make him more worried about their relationship. So, he shook his head as if taking away all the thoughts away from his head and closed his eyes. 

He let Valentina cry and after he felt her calming down... He slowly moved away taking her face in his hands.

He looked into her eyes and wiped her tears away. He kissed her forehead and smiled at her.

She just kept looking into his eyes as he smiled at her. 

"Why don't you ask, for what I am crying for?" Valentina asked making him smile small.

"I know, today was a hard day for you... Giving your mom a chance is so hard for you and calling her mom after so many years, is so hard... I can understand everything... All this will be so overwhelming but... Believe me. Whatever happened today is the best... Today is the best day in your life... The love you craved from your mother for all these years is near you today... You forgave her... And gave her a chance in the life for the first time... Don't you think, whatever you did today was the best thing ever in your life?" Jason asked making Valentina look into his eyes.

"Val... Don't you think, whatever you did today was the best thing ever in your life?" Jason asked and Valentina took a deep breath.

"I do..." Valentina answered making Jason smile brightly.

"Yes... It's the best thing I ever did in my life... But..." Valentina stopped in mid-sentence looking at Jason making him frown.

"But what?" Jason asked making Valentina shrugged.

"I don't know... I still feel lonely somewhere..." Valentina answered as a tear falls down from her eyes.

"Val..." Valentina cut off Jason in mid-sentence.

"No, Jason... I do feel lonely... I wanted my mom... My whole life... I craved for her love... I wanted her to take me near and feed me... I wanted her to look after me... But... Not when I am 27 years old..." Valentina said as another falls down from her eyes but she wiped it soon. 

"27 years... I don't know... How I have grown up... Without anyone's love and support in my life..." Valentina said making Jason take a deep breath.

"As I reached 18... Xavier came into my life... Until then... I have none to look after me... Do you know how it feels when your house servants look after you as a slave of the your own house?" Valentina asked making Jason sigh.

"Val... You need to forget everything and move on... I know it's hard..." Valentina cut off Jason in mid-sentence.

"Yes... It's hard for me... No one has any idea... How I feel and what I feel? No one even doesn't care if I have eaten or got sick and how was i am living my life..." Valentina said.

"Suddenly, my mom... Showed up in my life telling me that she loves me... Where was the love all these years?" Valentina asked making Jason take a deep breath.

"Val... You know the reason right? Don't you? You talked with her today... She should tell you everything... Didn't she?" Jason asked and Valentina nodded her head.

"Yes... She did... She does tell me everything... But... It's still hard to believe everything... All these whatever going on in my life... I feel sick of them... I want to go move on... Move on from every single thing... I want to have a peaceful life too... With the people loving around me... I want them to know what my value is... I want them to know how much they mean to me... But it's getting hard... To keep people around you who love you more than anything... Is love is so much to ask in life?" Valentina asked and Jason shook his head in no.

Jason cupped her face and wiped her tears away from her eyes.

"No... No, Valentina... No! Love is what you want... And many people in your life love you as you are... They want to be around you loving you but... You are just not letting them in... I know you don't trust them enough to keep them near you... But trust me... There will be some time when you know the value of their love... Their love would mean you a lot... But... It's you who needs to find it and keep it near you or else... There are high chances of flossing that precious love... You have many people around you... To love you. You just gave them a chance too but all these negative thoughts might kill you in giving that love you want to give you from the past few years... Whatever I telling you right now might not understand you right now... But surely, you will one day... I am sure... You will not forget it... But still, you need to keep that in the mind that... Without giving a chance... None can show you what you mean to them and today, you gave a person a chance... Try to see the love in that person but not the hate you saw you when you were a child... I can understand, it's so hard to get seen by the slave from your own servants... But now, it's not the time for revenge... It's about spreading the love... Just give that love... And that love will return you in any way." Jason replied as he looked into her eyes. 

"I don't know, Jason..." Jason cut off Valentina in mid-sentence.

"Val, I am not forcing you for anything... I know you so well... Whatever happened today is so hard to believe it... But this is life... It's not you who plans everything in life... Even though if you plan your life... Life throws at you some difficulties at you... You need to go accordingly to how life takes you too... There is no step back in this... You can't do anything... Just go with the flow of your life... It's all about situations that come into your life... You need to understand them and you should believe yourself. Take a step with a bright smile... You will be happy with your life but not with negative thoughts... If you do with negative thoughts, you will only feel insecure and feel only negativity around you!" Jason said.