Her Husband is My Lover

Chapter 217 - Get Out...

Suddenly, Xavier relalised what he was doing and stopped in mid way and moved away from Valentina making her frown.

"Xavier..." Valentina said as she looked at him. Xavier shook his head and steeped away from her. 

"What happened?" Valentina asked.

"Umm... I... I am sorry..." Xavier apologized making Valantina frown.

"What?" Valentina asked.

"I am sorry... I shouldn't do that... I am just... I couldn't control myself..." Xavier Answered as he took a deep breath.

"And who said to you to control yourself?" Valentina asked making Xavier take a deep breath.

"I... I... I just... I am... Um.... Can we talk later?" Xavier asked making Valentina frown at him.

"What do you mean, Xavier? What happened to you? I am seeing you from last few minutes... You are behaving differently..." Valentina said making Xavier sigh.

"Val... Just try to understand and get out from here..." Xavier yelled making Valantina flinch and she was totally taken a back with his yell as she didn't expect him to yell at him... But he did... She sighed as she thought that he was not in a mood but he kissed her and now, suddey what happened to him? 

She sighed and buttoned her shirt... With anger raising inside her. She seriously think that there is something wrong with Him... So, she just sighed and walked towards the door. 

She opened the door and walked out of the room closing the door beind her back making Xavier sigh. 

"What did I do just now?" Xavier asked himself as he sighed.

"I shouldn't have shouted at her..." Xavier said to himself. 

He took a deep breath and just walked inside the restroom. 

He removed his clothes and just stood under the warm shower thinking about what he did just now and what he was about to do with Valentina just now... And he has no idea what he was doing... And why he was doing all these... He just couldn't control himself and just kissed back the love of his life... 

He wantef her in his life for sure but not like this... He doesn't want to cheat on her... But he betrayed and married another woman... When he loves someone... Still, she trusted him... He broke every promise he did with her... 

But still, she trusted him... She trusted him with all her heart that made Xavier cry... Because her love is something that is just so precious for him... That love he can never get from anyone... But Only from Valentina... He has been blessed with an amazing love... But, God has snactched it away from him as he gave that love to him... 

It just so hard for him... He is craving for the love in his life too... But he just couldn't get the love in his life righg now... But only can fe Valantina... But he does want to give her any hopes by showing her his hopes... And once, she tries to keep hopes on him... Then it will be really hard for him to make her let go... He can never do that... But he should if he ever break her heart again and he is sure, he will...

If not today, then he will break her tomorrow... Or else, some other day... But he is sure that he will again break her heart... Very soon... He doesn't want to do that... But maybe until then, he wants to make her his? Make her wants to call his? He wants to make love to her as her husband. He wants to love her as a husband loves his wife. And wants to have his life with his children's with her... But looks like, things doesn't at all go as they both expected... never? 

He doesn't want to live his life on guiltyness... If one day, everything is out... The truth that they are holding on to from all these past years, will she accept him? Or let him go? Even though, she loves him to death? 

Would there be any value for this love if she let him go in the future if she gets to know the truth? Will she forget that she fought so badly for this love that she wanted in her life? 

Will she regret loving him? All these questions were making Xavier's Brain a mess... 

He doesn't at all want to think about any of these things and just wanted to spend some time with his mother... Maybe, he might can get some suggestions from her... As she was with him no matter what! 

But now... Valentina is here... He didn't at all expected it... But she is here... And she already sends shivers to his body and made him lose himself on her. 

He sighed as he thought about Valentina...

"She deserves a better person in life than me..." Xavier said to himself as tears rolled in his eyes.

"My love... Should I have to let her go?" Xavier asked.

"If I do... Then would she be happy?" Xavier asked.

"What of she regret loving me? I can't live on this earth of she did... I will hate myself to death... If she does... She is the only hope in my life... She is the only one I love right now... She is someone... Who made me believe in me..." Xavier said as he took a deep breath. 

"She loves me for who I am... She never judged me... Heck, she never pointed out my mistakes... She didn't at all questions me for even marrying Rose... Because she knows that I will tell her the truth one day... But... Maybe, I am trying to keep the truth away from her for this life time..." Xavier said as he took a deep breath. 

"But... She is my love... I will keep loving her forever... Keeping aside about all these things... She will still love me for who I am... I am sure about this... She is mine... She will be only mine." Xavier said as he sighed with a smile on his face.

"Valentina is only mine." Xavier said with a smile but a tear falls down from his eyes but got wiped off in the shower.