His Majesty's Devious Sin

Chapter 153 - Everything In My Power

"Adeline!" Elias exasperated. "How much do I have to beg to get you to say yes?"

Elias had never felt so desperate in his entire life. Everything wasn't going according to plan. He had never pleaded to this extent, begged this painfully, and for all of his efforts to go to waste, he didn't know how to respond. He was confident and cunning, the world was his playground, and the kingdom was his toy.

Elias had everything in this world. He had his entire world in his arms right now, but he was going to lose it in just a few months.

"I'm terrified of losing you, Adeline. Do not do this to yourself—"

Adeline spun around. Something inside of her snapped, and all of her emotions poured out. 

"I'm scared as well!" she shrieked at him, shoving him off of her. She wrapped her arms around her body, shrinking herself against the wall. The water sloshed down her body, warm and relieving, but it only added to her cold sweat.

Her heart was racing from adrenaline, her eyes trembling. "Do you think I'm not scared of dying? Do you think I want to leave you? Do you think I want to die?!"

Her voice cracked towards the end. Adeline screamed so loud that her throat hurted. She couldn't control her angry tears. "I'm so terrified Elias. So terrified of the future, of the things that can happen, and what we couldn't prevent."

Adeline's lips trembled as she viciously wiped her tears away. She had never cried more in her entire life than in the past week. 

"I'm scared of what happens when I close my eyes forever, scared of leaving this world, scared of your treatment towards the child, and scared of losing you. Why can't you understand that?" Adeline demanded. 

Adeline stormed towards him and began to hit his chest, unable to control herself anymore.

"Do you think you're the only one suffering? Do you think you're the only one in pain? I am also hurting from the decisions I made!" Adeline sobbed out, leaning her forehead against his muscular chest.

"I am not invincible Elias, I am human and I feel emotions too. All I want is your support. Is that so hard to ask?" Adeline whispered, her knees giving out from underneath her. 

Adeline buried her face in her hands, wishing he didn't see her in such a depressive state.

"I'm scared of losing you, Elias," she whispered. "But I'm also terrified of losing our baby."

Elias's face completely went blank. For a split moment, his determination wavered. He had pushed his wishes onto her, for he had her best intention in mind. But her best intentions weren't his to make.

Wordlessly, Elias turned the water off and grabbed a towel. He wrapped it tightly around her trembling body. He didn't respond as he effortlessly picked her up, bridal style. She buried her face into his neck, her arms instantly wrapping around him.

"Sleep will do you well," Elias quietly said. 

His voice lacked emotion, for Elias didn't know what to think and how to react in times like this. But his protective side kicked in. And he was never weak to tears. She could cry him an ocean to wash him away, and he wouldn't budge. He wished he could be that kind of man, but he just wasn't.

When Elias settled her into the bed, she settled herself under the blankets. He headed for the closet and grabbed one of his shirts and a boxer for himself. He slipped on the boxer and headed for her.

"You need to get dressed, or you'll catch a cold." Elias sat by the edge of the bed, waiting for Adeline to respond. She didn't.

Adeline remained curled in a ball, tightly hugging her knees. She buried her face into the pillow, her sobs quiet and powerful. It shook her entire body, as she could not stop her tears any longer.

Everything hurt. Her heart, her chest, her lungs, her head. And it wasn't because of the baby. Adeline was beginning to realize the one that caused her the greatest pain was not the child, but Elias. 

"If you're sick, our baby will be unhealthy," Elias softly said. At this, she stirred a bit. He grabbed the blankets and pulled them away from her.

"Come now, don't be stubborn, darling." Elias turned her over and she reluctantly sat up.

Adeline frowned onto the bed, unable to lift her head. She raised her arms as he slipped his shirt over her. 

"See what not eating has done to you?" Elias reprimanded, pulling at her cheek in hopes she'll cheer up. "This shirt fits tight on me, but it's like a dress to you."

Adeline didn't bother saying anything. Her voice was hoarse from yelling at him. She knew it was the first time he had referred to the child as "our baby." But she couldn't find it in herself to be happy about it. She felt as if the phrase was choked out of his throat, and her cries were the hands pressing into his neck.

"I love you, so, so much, darling." Elias wrapped his arms tightly around her body and pulled her onto his lap. 

Adeline straddled him, her head lying limply on his shoulders. He felt the quiet fan of her breath on his neck, tickling his skin, and arousing him.

"Enough to ruin all that is good in this world, to have a final goodbye with you," Elias whispered. He buried his face into her hair, breathing in her natural scent. An overwhelming sense of relief washed over him, despite how wet her hair was.

"Our time together may not be long, but I will not waste it," Elias whispered. 

Elias kissed the side of her head. He painfully squeezed his eyes shut, and embraced her tighter. He felt her bones dig into his muscle, jagged from her lack of meals. He had been neglecting her for far too long.

"Let's spend the next nine months together in peace, my sweet girl. I will do everything in my power to find a way. You will not die on my watch." 

Adeline finally moved. She quietly nodded her head, her body shaking from her final sob. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and hid her face into the crook of his neck. His skin was cold, but his embrace was warm. In his arms, she felt the most comfortable and loved. In his arms, she felt safe and adored. 

"I love you so much, Elias, it can't be put into words," Adeline weakly whispered. 

Adeline swallowed the lump in her throat and leaned her entire body into the embrace. She felt the quake of his chest when he softly chuckled, the sound broken and pained.

"That is my line, darling."

"It will always be mine," she mumbled.

Elias simply smiled. He kissed the side of her head, savoring his final moments with her. There has to be a solution. There has to be a way. He would scale the entire library if he must, but he would find a solution to keep her alive. If he had to burn the world to the ground, he would. Amongst the ashes, all he needed was her. All he wanted was her.