I Love Destroying Worlds' Plot [BL]

Chapter 782

782 14.58 Last Violet Star – Death Valley (2)

The three disciples were being watched by Hei Anjing and Yun Xiajie from the sidelines. Watching Yun Anjie take control right away, they kept an eye on their surroundings. He offered a precise order that played to the strengths of his colleagues while maximizing their variety of skills and capabilities.

Hei Anjing remarked, “Our child is pretty intelligent. A’Xia, you have trained him well.”

Yun Xiajie gives him a kind gaze while nodding. Evidently missed what he had just said and was willing to agree to anything.

“We should proceed. Yang and Yue will look out for these disciples,” Hei Anjing said, “I’ve scanned the valley. There’s a buried formation in the middle of this area. As expected, this region is so fishy.”

“I’ll follow you wherever you go,” Yun Xiajie stated.

Telepathically communicating orders to Zhi Yang and Zhi Yue, the couple then departed to explore more of the territory. The three infants were so preoccupied with their current conflict that they weren’t even aware of the two’s departure. As soon as the two systems in their humanoid shape came down from the sky, Yun Xiajie and Hei Anjing vanished.

“Is it okay to let them travel there on their own?” Zhi Yue questioned.

“No need to worry about the lords-they may be amnesic, but nobody in this realm is stronger than them, so go ahead and play as you wish,” Zhi Yang advised. “Keep your attention on the children. We are ordered to keep them safe at all costs.”

“Hai, Hai”

.....

With their fingers intertwined, Hei Anjing and Yun Xiajie are freely strolling into the center of Death Valley. Hei Anjing was aware that as soon as he walked ahead, the ice covering the ground would spread and open up a way for him. The zombies all stopped moving and bowed down in front of the couple. The two would move on as though they were unaware of the living corpses who were bending before them in respect.

Never once did Yun Xiajie’s gaze stray from the image of his sweetheart. Hei Anjing was actually pulling him the entire way. The latter would undoubtedly catch his attention and occasionally turn to look at him, giving him the attention Yun Xiajie happily desired.

But he was really doubting everything in his heart. He was overjoyed to see him return because he had been waiting for him all this time. Asking him to kill him at the time and he hated him a little, but he knew he hated himself more for being helpless. Particularly when he taunts him, he enjoys his flamboyant and fun attitude. When he plots in secret from others, he loves to smirk. He is so emotionally charged that even a cold heart was stirred by him.

However, before him stands a Jing’er whose beauty is unmatched by everything compared to the past. He is so powerful and skilled that his strength and cultivation cannot even be compared to how he possessed previously. But unlike his face, which was previously filled with emotion, this visage in his recollections is now emotionless. Yun Xiajie began to have doubts because he is unable to see anything.

He has doubts about whether this person is actually the man he loves or if this person really feels the same way about him.

He was filled with inquiries.

What transpired following his death?

Why didn’t he visit him sooner?

Why did he become this way?

And still more unanswered questions...

But instead of asking, he chooses to simply stare at this man who resembles the one from his recollections while also being quite different from him. Searching for the remnants of his recollections.

“You keep staring at me, A’Xia. Is there anything worrying you?” Hei Anjing questioned.

Yun Xiajie inquired, “Um, am I your Dao Companion?”

Without hesitation, Hei Anjing answered, “Yes.”

“Then... Are you certain that you still love me even without your recollections of the past?” asked Yun Xiajie. When he asks this inquiry, his eyes express hesitation and concern.

Hei Anjing hesitates to respond to what he initially believed after observing Chun Hongyun- Jun’s face which is sporting a sorrowful smile. He wanted to respond that because he lacked the necessary emotions to support the relationship in the Dao Companionship, he was unable to comprehend its meaning. He responded truthfully as a result.

Hei Anjing responds, “Right now, for some reason, my emotions and feelings are sealed. Even the memories of the man I love only play in my head like some sort of movie. There are different kinds of expressions and emotions, such as happiness, sadness, anger, yearning, love, and more, but sadly I couldn’t understand them.”

“If you ask me right now if I like or love you, I won’t know since I have no feelings, A’Xia.”

These sincere words are from his heart. He felt sorrow and shame for his beloved. Uncertain of his motivation, he felt responsible for this for some reason. His heart ached just watching his lover change from someone who was merely chilly on the outside, playful yet warm on the inside, to someone who is expressionless. He should not have asked that question just now.

His sweetheart unexpectedly gave him a hug, when Yun Xiajie was about to say something to divert the conversation. He is still willing to offer him a hug even though it feels a little stiff and his present Jing’er isn’t used to this level of closeness. Just like that situation on the boat, he also didn’t know the reason why Hei Anjing would suddenly kiss him.

All Hei Anjing could say was, “I don’t know about anything. All I know is that it is very pleasant to be by your side. I feel safe that I leave myself unguarded. It was as if... As if you are my everything. At least I think this is true.”

“I realize you’ve been waiting for a while, but what if I don’t come back to the version of myself you love the best from the past?”

“A’Xia, are you going to leave me?”

That sound that emitted from those red lips was monotonous and chilly. As if Hei Anjing was reciting words he reads from his memory like a script. Even though his visage is emotionless, only his eyes occasionally display wavering. The tone of voice in each sentence varies relatively marginally. But Yun Xiajie saw those minute adjustments as evidence of Hei Anjing’s feelings for him.

“Jing’er, I...”

Just as Yun Xiajie was going to end this conversation. Warmth started to fall on his arms abruptly. Hei Anjing was clutching him when he suddenly pushed him off, and the shock caused him to confront his expressionless silver eyes, which were still as clear and pure as before. The only difference is the uncontrollable tears that are streaming down his face.

Hei Anjing doesn’t often cry. He rarely gets upset enough to weep, not because he dislikes crying, but because very little things make him cry. He cried for the first time during their voyage until he finally ran across his missing half, encountering a Ye Xiajie who possessed memories as opposed to a soul shard. He wept for the second time out of intense gladness. Because their love had produced results, Hei Anjing, and Ye Xiajie. He and his beloved had a child together. When Ye Xiajie questions his love, he sobbed for the third time.

Finally, this time cried for the fourth time because of the fear that this man might leave his side. The heart had just started beating once again after meeting Chun Hongyun-Jun. Every time the thought occurred to him-because he is an emotionless being, after all-that the man who provided him warmth may abruptly leave his side, it was painful. He was so frightened by the mere thought of him that tears began to pour from his eyes.

Hei Anjing confusedly touched his tears after observing Chun Hongyun-unexpected Jun’s expression of amazement and the dampness on his cheeks. As a God who stood above all others, looking down at everyone as ants below his feet adding up his lost emotions, Hei Anjing was extremely bewildered at this moment.

Stunned Hei Anjing mumbled, “Ha? What is this? Tears? But I don’t know why I am crying...”

Yun Xiajie was in awe. He knows a very prideful and haughty Hei Anjing. Rarely does he allow one within his field of vision. In his view, strangers are no different from the stones by the road.

He loves his family, but that love is only possible due to their close bond. He had friends, but he never treated them as equals, only as people who were somewhat similar to him. Only slightly preferable to those strangers he would never care about.

Zhi Yue and Zhi Yang gave him an explanation for his beloved’s lack of feeling, but he was aware that they were keeping other information from him. He made the decision to refrain from asking because he could tell anytime he tried that they wouldn’t tell him anything. He wanted to ask Hei Anjing, but he was worried that he also wouldn’t spill some secrets.

Yun Xiajie didn’t inquire, but he couldn’t help but wonder about Hei Anjing’s feelings for feelings after seeing an impassive lover every time he got up and went to sleep at night. There was a distance between them now that they had been apart for so long. Anxiety and misgivings began to grow in Chun Hongyun-Jun’s heart as a result of the current circumstance, in which Hei Anjing had forgotten how to express his emotions. That results in the existing situation.

But as I saw those tears fall on that expressionless face, all of my worries and uncertainties vanished. Guilt and regret took their place instead. Yun Xiejie was now feeling worse. He extended a hand in an effort to tenderly wipe his loved one’s tears away. Regret slowly seeps into every fiber of his existence. He couldn’t help but feel the desire to murder the past version of himself from just a few minutes before.

Yun Xiajie tries to wipe away his beloved’s tears repeatedly, but they only keep falling.

Chun Hongyun-Jun said, “Jing’er, please stop crying. Seeing your tears makes my heart feel as if I’m dying. I’m sorry. I promise I won’t ever leave.” And yet Hei Anjing’s tears still keep falling.

Hei Anjing asked, “Stop? How to stop tears from falling? I don’t know how.”

His expression right now is both innocent and pathetic. It was difficult to know how to act when one’s emotions and sensations were suddenly re-experienced after being gone for years. Suddenly, Yun Xiajie had an idea about how to stop him from crying. He merely needs to make Hei Anjing feel something in contrast to sadness considering that he is already feeling it. He was abruptly pulled over his beloved. Hei Anjing’s veil was suddenly lifted, and he collapsed into its warm embrace. His cerise lips were assaulted by such an unexpected force and object before he could react.

Mmm!

Hei Anjing was silently hugged by Yun Xiajie, who then bowed his head and intensified their kiss.

Occasionally biting, likewise suckling. Hei Anjing could feel a tongue that was bigger than his playing with his tongue and furiously entwining it with his.

Ahmm~

Hei Anjing became aware of his unexpected change in emotions. His entire being began to center on Yun Xiajie’s motion on his lips, which was a fierce attack. His heart was filled with tenderness, ferocity, and yearning in place of the grief that had been there before.

Gasp!

As soon as Hei Anjing realized he was out of breath, he wanted to push Yun Xiajie away. He noticed Yun Xiajie’s eyes abruptly darkening in color and straightening their irises. He quickly understands what is going on. Hei Anjing dragged his lover away by the hair and then put his face to his neck while dangerously narrowing his phoenix-shaped eyes. His waist was immediately tightly encircled by arms that seemed to be clinging to him for dear life. Unable to leave, he let this man cage him in his embrace.

When Chun Hongyun-Jun performed such actions, his tears immediately stopped. Yun Xiajie could have been thrown a long distance by Hei Anjing, but he was reluctant to utilize his strength against his sweetheart.

While being forcefully pulled away by his lover, Yun Xiajie muttered, “I won’t leave. Jing’er, I will be by your side. I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to make you cry.” Thinking that Hei Anjing was upset at the unexpected kiss, his hands around Hei Anjing’s waist tightened.