I Quit Being The Villain

Chapter 33 Past Memories?

"W-Why did you tie Lin Fan to a chair?"

Chang Wen blurted out shyly as she looked over.

"Why? Because this lustful piece of shit deserves to suffer through hell."

Gu Xia answered as he added his Qi into the rope, making sure Lin Fan couldn't break it.

"Um... W-W-What d-did he do...?"

Chang Wen could barely speak properly as she stuttered, even her voice went higher and lower in terms of sound.

Gu Xia stopped adding his Qi and turned around, he faced Chang Wan showing his empty eyes.

"!?"

Chang Wen slightly jumped back like a scared cat.

Even though Gu Xia didn't utter a word... She could see his eyes were truly blackened.

It was like nothing was present in his eyes... Only darkness...

This made the innocent young heroine curious.

And, for some reason she felt slightly guilty... Although she doesn't know why... She feels that she had done something to him which caused him great pain.

"Mister Gu... I don't know why you're acting like this... But I want to help you heal!"

She spoke in determination and with a hint of innocence.

With both eyebrows raised and a slightly curved frown, Gu Xia placed his right hand gently on his face as he slowly shook his head.

"Not possible. No one can heal me from what I've been through."

"T-"

Chang Wen wanted to speak but when she saw his gaze, she closed her mouth and looked sadly downward toward the floor.

She lightly clenched her hands and closed her eyes.

'I need to save him... I feel like I had done something to add to his pain... I must get rid of this guilt and try and salvage his kind soul.'

After some time thinking inside her head... She spoke again.

"Mister Gu, I want to save you from the darkness and bring you over to the light!"

Hearing this, Gu Xia touched his head and began to rub it.

He was truly astonished at how she was acting right now...

,m Your not a fucking saint!

He wanted to yell it out loud... But he decided it would be pointless.

A minute slowly went by and after that 60 seconds, he looked directly into Chang Wen's blue eyes.

"You said you wanted to bring me over to the light, right?"

Gu Xia asked in a serious voice.

Chang Wen wasted no time in nodding her head.

"Of course! I feel some type of guilt telling me I've done something to cause you pain."

Gu Xia's ears perked up and his eyes slightly widened.

He was in complete disbelief that she felt some type of guilt.

"W-Why do you feel guilty?"

He needed to know.

Chang Wen looked dejected as she answered his question.

"I-I don't know... I just have this feeling of guilt consuming my heart every time I see your empty eyes."

She took a deep breath and continued her words:

"This might sound strange... But... I feel like I've seen you before..."

Gu Xia showed a bewildered face.

[Is she getting her past memories back?]

[Then what about the other heroines?]

Being so shocked, he forgot he was talking about the heroines inside his head... Meaning they could hear his inner voice.

Realizing what he just did, he wanted to shoot himself because of his huge error.

"Fuck..."

Gu Xia whispered under his breath.

Chang Wen who of course heard his inner voice trembled slightly.

"P-Past memories!?"

Gu Xia sighed when he heard her scared voice.

Chang Wen took a step back with a pale face.

For some reason her eyes wandered over to the unconscious Lin Fan.

It was then, she felt the emotion of hate...

For herself to feel hate...

It was shocking.

Her eyes wandered slightly to Gu Xia's red blood eyes, it was then she felt a huge amount of guilt.

Feeling a raging headache she looked back at Lin Fan...

Again, she felt a huge amount of hate.

Again, she looked over at Gu Xia.

The result was the same from a mere couple of seconds ago.

She felt guilt.

Her heart began to thump violently in pain, inside her chest she felt a sudden beating.

She felt like she wanted to cry and beg for forgiveness from Gu Xia...

She didn't know why she wanted to...

There was this sadness inside her heart that was begging her to apologize to Gu Xia.

Without realizing it, small tears dripped down her white cheeks.

Biting her lip to try and make these sad emotions disappear, she crouched on the floor and held her blue hair with both of her hands.

Gu Xia had already walked over and was now looking down at her.

"Do you remember your past memories...?"

His words were icy and by the tone of his voice you could tell he was not looking for a lie.

Chang Wen slightly looked up where she met his eyes then spoke in a pained voice.

"I-I don't remember, It's beyond blurry and every time I try and think about it a headache that is extremely painful appears as if it's stopping me."

She decided to be honest.

Gu Xia didn't respond to her words and instead kept asking questions.

"When did you feel a sensation of guilt?"

Chang Wen's eyes slightly trembled and she couldn't keep eye contact with Gu Xia anymore, so she looked toward the ground.

"W-When I looked into your eyes..."

"Really?"

"Yes... And when I looked into Lin Fan's eyes I felt a surge of hate appear in my heart-."

"Continue speaking..."

"I... I don't know why... But when I see you and Lin Fan together I feel like my past memories are trying to resurface."

"Really?"

Gu Xia raised his right brow as he looked over at Lin Fan who was still tied to a chair.

Chang Wen slightly nodded her head as she stood back up.

"Yes, when I was just with Lin Fan I didn't feel anything besides his lustful gaze on my... Maiden places..."

"But... When you were present and I looked over at Lin Fan, I felt a sudden disgust, hate, and sour emotion toward him... There was also resentment."

Gu Xia was silent for a second until he opened his mouth.

"I see... So you're saying that when Lin Fan and myself are in the same room, you start feeling certain emotions that appear inside your heart."

He sighed and continued speaking:

"You also feel that your past memories are locked behind a blurry wall... Correct?"

Chang Wen was silent, she didn't even look him in the eyes.

The guilt was too much for her to handle...

Gu Xia noticed this and didn't mind, it was clear that her answer was, "yes."

Shrugging his shoulders, he turned around and walked back toward the unconscious Lin Fan.

But as he strolled toward Lin Fan, he spoke to Chang Wen.

"Although I am not entirely sure how you are able to tell that you have past memories."

Gu Xia stopped walking when he arrived behind the chair Lin Fan was tied to and turned around to face Chang Wen who was slightly shaking.

"I can say for sure, that when you see myself and Lin Fan together you start feeling your past memories resurface."