Love Worth Fighting For

Chapter 195

195 Decays

Christian has been sitting in his study for almost two hours, the words of doctor Caitlyn examining Elena running through his head.

“Twenty weeks, the fetus is healthy, the mother should consume more healthy and nutritious food.”

The sacred words from doctor Caitlyn continue to annoy Christian, the tiredness of the busy life in New York instantly disappears when he finds out that a small creature is growing inside Elena. Right now Christian is overcome with a strange feeling he has never known before, a feeling that made Christian almost fall when he got out of the car two hours ago.

“It’s three in the morning, sir. You should rest,” Kainer said carefully.

Christian turns to Kainer who is still standing where he is. “What do I do now, Kainer? Elena’s pregnancy has really made things worse.”

“Would you like to get rid of the baby, sir?”

A chill immediately enveloped Kainer and he immediately regretted asking such a question.

“S..sorry sir, I didn’t mean to...”

“I’m not an irresponsible coward, Kainer,” Christian says coldly. “I wasn’t taught that.”

.....

Kainer swallowed his saliva. “Sorry young master.”

“I can’t possibly kill an innocent person, let alone a baby without sin, a baby whose body isn’t even fully formed yet.” Christian’s voice sounded heavy when he spoke, it seemed so clear that Christian was currently in such great confusion.

“Then are you going to marry Elena?”

Christian clenched his fists on the table at the same time. “No way, I can’t marry a woman who has ruined my family... I can’t marry a woman who made my mother cry for years. I really can’t think right now, my brain is blank.”

“For now, it’s better if we keep the news of Elena’s pregnancy a secret from everyone, Sir. Especially from Mr. Jack, Mr. Jack is a person who hates Elena very much. I am worried for the safety of Elena and the baby if Mr. Jack finds out that Elena is currently pregnant. “Kainer said seriously, Kainer still clearly remembers how angry Jack was when his men convinced that the masked girl called Suri was Elena.

“Yeah, for now that’s the most important thing.”

A smile instantly spread across Kainer’s face, the words that had just left Christian’s lips were the wisest words Kainer had heard after the tension that had been going on for almost a month.

Christian leans back against the back of the chair and says, “The baby’s safety is my top priority right now.”

***

Just like Christian who is in a dilemma, a similar confusion is hitting Elena. knowing that there was a twenty-week-old fetus in her body made Elena unable to sleep, various questions were now running through Elena’s head.

How could she not realize that she was pregnant, how could she not feel any changes in the early days of her pregnancy and how could she not feel a new life inside of her.

Elena slowly touched her stomach. “Forgive me, honey. I’m sorry. Mommy really really stupid.”

“You are not stupid, Miss.”

Elena, who was lamenting her confusion, immediately turned towards the door, where Romaria was already standing with a tray filled with Elena’s favorite tea and cinnamon rolls. Romaria, who was worried about Elena because she hadn’t eaten anything since returning from doctor Caitlyn’s office four hours ago, chose to get up in the middle of the night and bring Elena some food.

“Romaria...”

Romaria smiled, the woman slowly stepped in towards Elena who was still sitting on the sofa, her favorite place.

After placing the tray she brought on the table, Romaria then took Elena’s hand and squeezed it gently. “You’ve never been pregnant, so it’s only natural that you don’t realize you’re pregnant right now. Especially with all the trouble that’s been going on.”

“Is my baby going to be alright, Romaria?He’s twenty weeks old and my stomach hasn’t shown any significant changes yet.” Elena’s eyes filled with tears as she spoke. “I’m afraid that my baby won’t grow well, Romaria.”

Romana shook her head. “Don’t think anything of it, Miss. Your baby will surely grow up to be a healthy, smart and strong child just like this great mother.”

“Romaria...”

“Now you eat. You haven’t eaten anything since returning from Doctor Caitlyn’s office, you must be hungry,” Romaria said softly as she glanced at the cinnamon roll on the table.

“I’m not hungry, I’m not...”

“You’re pregnant right now, Miss. There’s one more life to feed, you don’t want your baby to starve in there, do you?”

Elena’s facial expression turned to panic. “Could my child starve?”

“Of course, hasn’t the doctor asked you to watch your diet, huh?”

Elena nodded quickly. “Y..yes, the doctor asked me to pay attention to the food I eat.”

“Well then,” said Romaria with a big smile. “Tomorrow morning I will ask Bertha to prepare a delicious meal for you.”

“Sure, give it to me,” Elena said quickly, pointing at the cinnamon roll that smelled so tempting.

Without being ordered twice, Romaria immediately took the cinnamon roll from the table and gave it to Elena. “Careful it’s still hot, miss.”

Elena nodded slowly. Using both hands, Elena split the still warm cinnamon roll in half and enjoyed it carefully, although she had previously refused but in the end Elena looked so devoured by the not-too-sweet pastry. Seeing Elena finish the cake she made this afternoon with several other maids made Romaria smile widely. After finding out that Elena was pregnant, Romaria promised to pay more attention to Elena.

When Elena was wiping her lips with a handkerchief from the remnants of cinnamon roll sugar, she was suddenly surprised by the appearance of Christian who appeared unexpectedly. Romaria, who realized that Elena and Christian needed a lot of time alone, immediately left Elena’s room without orders. Romaria is smart enough to read the situation.

“Hungry?” Christian asks quietly.

Elena smiled a little. “Yes.”

“What do you eat?”

“Cinnamon roll,” Elena replied curtly.

Christian frowns. “Is it enough to fill your stomach with a cake like that?”

“Enough, I even feel very full right now.”

“Good.”

Elena pursed her lips, after a month of being in a heated situation, only this time Elena felt that the Christian she knew was back. No more hurtful words escaped the man’s lips.

“It’s almost morning, why don’t you sleep?” Elena asked innocently, she forgot that she herself couldn’t sleep tonight either.

“There’s something I want to talk to you about,” Christian replies curtly.

Elena immediately patted the side of the empty sofa next to her gently. “Sit down then, talking standing up is uncomfortable.”

Damn it!

The innocent gaze that Elena gives at this time really makes Christian’s chest feel tight, the defense that Christian made is slowly cracking. With his heart beating very fast, Christian walks towards Elena and sits beside Elena without turning to look at Elena who is smiling at him. Stop Elena, don’t do that!

“What do you want to talk about?” Elena asked quietly, after all the atrocities Christian had committed over the past month Elena could still speak so softly.

Christian who is making up his mind doesn’t immediately answer Elena’s question, he is figuring out ways to talk to Elena. Knowing the fact that Elena is pregnant makes Christian so nervous.

Elena, who had been reading Christian’s body language, took a deep breath, trying to stop herself from crying. “Do you want me to abort this baby?”

Christian’s head darts at Elena uncontrollably.

“But I want this baby, Christ.” Elena continued her words with teary eyes.

Fuck..Christian who couldn’t hold himself back then grabbed Elena’s body and hugged her tightly, Elena who didn’t expect to get the hug she missed so much could only stand still with tears dripping down harder.

Christian just let go of his embrace after his mood felt better, with teary eyes Christian looked at Elena who was also looking at him with longing. “I want this baby, I don’t want to kill a living creature.”

“Is that true?” asks Elena in surprise, not expecting to hear Christian speak like that.

Without breaking his eye contact with Elena, Christian slowly touches Elena’s stomach very carefully. “This child is innocent, he came when all this chaos had not yet happened.”

Elena, who misses Christian so much then squeezes the hand of the father of the baby gently. “I don’t know if you can trust me anymore or not, Christ. To be clear, I’m completely innocent. I’ve never been to that hotel or dressed like that.”

“Elena,” Christian growls warningly.

“For God’s sake, Christ. By God I swear,” Elena said quickly, as fast as her hands were holding Christian from leaving the sofa. “If only my parents were still alive I could take you to ask them directly, but since both of my parents are dead I have no more witnesses to defend me. But I swear, Christ... I really didn’t do that, I never even met with your sister before you took me to Geneva then.”

Realizing that Elena is currently pregnant, Christian is no longer as rude as before. Christian carefully releases himself from Elena and immediately gets up from the sofa, Christian is controlling his emotions so they don’t explode. Christian doesn’t want to hurt Elena and the baby, doctor Caitlyn’s message to keep Elena’s womb is so deep in her head.

“What else do I have to do to get you to trust me, Christ? Do I have to swear on this baby’s name so you can believe me if I don’t get involved...”

“Don’t talk nonsense, Elena!” Christian who had his back to Elena, shouted loudly. “Don’t bring the child into our conversation.”

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to bring this child into our conversation,” Elena said hoarsely with her head down, her hands again feeling her stomach at the same time. “I just don’t know how to convince you, I don’t know how to explain if I’m not lying.”

Seeing Elena like that made Christian’s chest hurt even more, suddenly Christian grabbed Elena’s left arm and forced her to stand up. Because Elena wasn’t ready, she almost fell. Luckily Christian’s footing is strong, so things that are not desirable do not happen. Elena is held back by Christian’s burly body.

“I don’t know Elena,” Christian says hoarsely. “I would love to believe you but the evidence that Ronin and my father’s men found was so clear.”

Elena lowered her head slowly, tears rolling down her cheeks again. “Then what should I do to make you believe me, Christ?”

Christian shakes his head slowly. “Don’t ask me, Elena... I don’t know.”