Loving Madeline

Chapter 129 - Crying My Heart Out

Madeline's POV

I got out of Gina's car, and I moved closer to the cliff where I can't almost see what is in the bottom because of the depth of the ravine. And I couldn't help myself, and I get down on my knees, and I started to cry, and I let out the loudest scream that I have ever had.

"Hunter Divenson! I hate you!" I shouted.

"I despise you! And I hate myself for loving you this much!!!!" I added, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw my best friend not so far away watching me. I know I am so tired of hurting, and deep inside me I don't want to drag Gina into this, I hate that all my life she had witnessed all my pain, and I felt guilty because I want to show my friend that I am strong, but the feelings that I have inside is too much for me to bear. 

I feel so grateful that she brought me here because I release all the frustrations and the pains that I felt inside. I know the pain will never go away, but at least I can tell that I feel better after I shouted so many times. Being married to Hunter is the most beautiful thing that ever happened in my life. I can't deny that he provided me everything that I need and all the things that I don't even need. He has been a good husband to me, but he can never let go of Rebecca, his first love. 

And I hate to think that we are dealing with the same ordeal because it was also hard for me to let him go. After all, he is my first love and my only love. I know this time I need to let him go if I love him because I always believe that if you love someone, you have to set him free no matter how it will wreck you because you can never have a happy life being with someone who already fallen out of love with you. And I don't think I will still be pleased with him knowing that his heart only belongs to her. That would be so unfair to my husband and me.

Gina didn't stop me from crying until I couldn't cry anymore, my heart aches, my eyes swell, and my voice rasped, and I don't know how long I stayed kneeling on the ground until I can feel the pebbles hurt my knees, and I slowly got up and walked back to her car. Gina remained silent until we reached the city center again, and if before I was mesmerized by the busy metropolis today, I felt like I haven't seen this place before. It feels like my heart will never stop from suffering, and I want to forget even for once so that I can have a peaceful sleep, and I hope tonight, being so exhausted from the pain, I can have a rest.

"Are you sure, Maddie? I don't want to leave you alone here." Gina said after I checked in, and I felt glad when she listened to me, and we are at the border between the City of Archois and the next town on the north side, and I think Hunter can't find me, besides I am confident he won't be looking for me at the moment. I am sure he was planning on how to discard me from his life, but since he was such a gentleman, he will continue to sleep beside me, make love with me even though Hunter was thinking all about her, and it pained me so much knowing he was suffering because of me.

"Gina, you don't need to worry about me. You have done enough for today and since yesterday. I know you have been absent from your work and I am sure your parents are looking for you. And please check your bank account later because I will transfer some amount that you can use." I said.

"Hey, Madeline, you are my best friend, and do you think I will be happy if you will be compensating me? I spend time with you because you are my best friend and I love you. You don't need to pay me being with you, and what kind of friend I am to you if I accept the money, please, Maddie, don't do that. I am begging you." She said, and I shook my head.

"Who told you I am going to compensate you with your time with me? Don't be silly, Gina. I know you need money to buy medicine for your mom. So, I want to help your mom because it pains me knowing that she is suffering right now. Do you know how much I suffered when my mom was on the brink of her death, and I can do nothing about it? I was dying inside, Gina." I said.

"We don't have any money to support her needs, and we were poor enough to bring her to the hospital. And now that I have money from Hunter, at least I can make use of it, and I can do something better out of his money. And you don't have to worry about anything because ever since I became his wife, I have a monthly allowance from the time I arrive at the Divenson mansion." I said.

"And I don't need to tell you how much I have in my bank account because I don't want you to faint right now. I have married a big shot, so you don't have to worry about money. And I don't care if I'm going to lose Hunter's money because I want to forget my husband totally, including the things that he had given me. I want to start fresh and have a new life." I added.

"So, I am begging you, Gina, to take the money and help your mom. And if you need to bring her to the hospital, let me know, and I will be there to pay for the expenses. And just for your information, I didn't only put the money in the bank, I am also wise, and you know that. I put up some investments, and I felt so happy that I earned every month, and I think it would be enough for now to sustain all the things that I needed." I said to her, and it was her turn to cry.

"Oh, Madeline, thank you so much. I don't know what to do anymore. I have spent all my savings, and even if I am working almost most of my time to help my dad support my mom's medication, it wouldn't be enough. And you know how much I want to finish my education, but since what happened to my mom, I didn't graduate together with you." She replied.

"You are welcome, Gina. I am planning to ask you to go back to school. I will be the one to pay for your tuition fee, and you don't need to worry. You don't have to pay me back, but I am sure you will not agree. So, I have a proposition for you, I will pay for your college education, and then after you graduate, you have to pay me back every payday, and I don't care how much it's all up to you because if I have it my way I will not ask you to pay me back." I said, and she cries harder.

"You don't need to do that, Madeline. I am not your responsibility. Don't worry. I will do everything I can so that I can finish my studies." She responded, and I hold her shoulders and looked at her in the eyes.

"Gina, you are the only family that I have, and for me, you are my sister and my best friend. And I will do anything for you. You have always been there for me all through these years since I was younger. So, please don't turn down my offer because it will make me so happy to help your family. Do you think I can take it to watch you suffered and let your dream vanished? I am aware of how much it cost to finish a college education here in our country, Gina." I said.

"And if you still consider me as your best friend, then you have to accept my help, Gina, lower your pride for once, besides, if our situation has been reversed, I am sure you will do the same for me." I said, and she smiled.

"Of course." She responded.

"So, that it means, yes?" I asked her, and she slowly nodded her head, and my smile broadens as I tightly hugged her.

Gina left me in my room, and I get out and buy some facial tissue from the convenience store. And when I got back, I started crying again, and I know Gina was right. I will spend my night crying in bed with facial tissue all over the floor of my hotel room.. How can I make the pain go away? And if there is only a pain reliever for a broken heart, I could have taken a triple dose to make the pain go away, and I was crying my heart out until I fall asleep.