Loving Madeline

Chapter 91 - My Heart Is Broken

Madeline's POV

"Are you okay?" Gina asked me after my tears subsided, and I am watching the garden while my mind is totally in chaos. Mindy already left us, but she told me to come to her office when I am ready to talk with her.

"No, I am not okay, Gina; how can I tell Hunter about her? He even keeps her things in the house, he fell in love with me thinking Rebecca was dead, and now that she is here alive waiting for him to get her, it means I should stay away from my husband. I love him, Gina, but I can't live my life being with him living with him every day knowing the love of his life is here suffering under Clark's Divenson's cruelty." I replied.

"If I were in your shoes, I would be in the same dilemma, I know you have a pure heart and soul, Madeline, but this thing that happens is beyond your control. The decision is in your hands, you can pretend you don't know anything and let your guilt eat you up, or you will do the most humane thing, and it means you have to break your own heart." Gina said, and I know I don't have a choice but to help Rebecca. She is held prisoner in this place.

"Yeah, and I know I have to face this life, first thing firsts. I need to tell Hunter everything even if I know he will file a divorce, and I think it is better this way that we don't have a child yet because it would make things complicated, and I know I need to do the right thing, Gina." I replied.

"Can you do it?" She asked.

"Do you think I have a choice? I need to stay away from Hunter, Gina. I need to forget him." I responded.

"We don't know yet, and she had been out from his life for ten years. Do you think the feelings are still there? Maybe her memories haunted him because he blamed himself for her death, and now that she is alive, he will be free from his nightmares." Gina declared.

"Gina, you have seen the secret room, and it was full of Rebecca's stuff; I already had a hard time making him love me when he thought she was dead, how much more when she is very much alive. I don't have any hatred towards Rebecca, and I could never imagine how much she suffered under the heartlessness of Mr. Clark Divenson." I said, and Gina heavily sighed as if she was the one carrying the big problem. 

"I think we should go back to Mindy's office," I said, and Gina nodded at me, and we walked to the main building without talking to each other.

"How are you, Mrs. Divenson?" Mindy asked me, and I can see the concern on her face.

"I am not going to force you to help us, Madeline, you are Hunter's wife, and as per Lucinda, you were so worried about Hunter's nightmares because he blamed himself for the fake death of Rebecca; do you think you can help Rebecca? You can only help her through your husband." She declared, and I nodded at her.

"When I asked Lucinda for help, I never thought I would discover something this deep, and I will find a secret that will not only ruin my relationship with my husband but his relationship with his father. I only want to discover Clark Divenson's involvement with Rebecca's death, but I never expected he faked her death." I said.

"Madeline, money can do wonders and miracles, and the impossible will make possible," Mindy replied, and I agree with her.

"So, do you think you can help her?" Mindy asked.

"What is her mental status?" I asked.

"Well, Rebecca developed some anxiety disorders and depression because of the accident. And I think your husband is the only one who can help Rebecca to return to her usual self, and she can have a normal life again; that is why she needs talk therapy. She is harmless. There are times she feels so nervous and scared and has shortness of breath." Mindy continued to explain, but my mind is somewhere else.

"So, when can you come back?" Mindy said.

"Maybe after two days, I need to finish some reports, but don't worry, I will help her," I replied.

"You know, she told me about their love story, and I pity her, Clark is abusive, and I want him to be put behind bars, but he has the power and money, and all we need is his son, and we all know only Hunter can fight his father. I am sorry, Maddie. I don't want to ruin your beautiful relationship with your husband." Mindy said.

"Me too. I felt sorry, but what can I do? I came late in his life, and we have to face life's challenges, and I hate that I have to undergo this kind of situation where I need to choose between my happiness and saving someone's life. I guess I'd rather take the pain because Rebecca has suffered enough. I want her to be happy, too, since she was Hunter's first love, and whatever I do, I could never compete with her. I know how much Hunter loved her." I said, and I can see the tears that welled up in Mindy's eyes, and I saw them trickled down her face.

"Don't cry for me, Mindy, and this situation is no longer new to me. All my life, I was battling for my happiness, but it seems my life has been designed to be like this, but I still believe there will always be light after darkness." I said.

"Oh, Madeline, you are the most courageous woman that I have ever met, you are still so young, but your disposition in life is extraordinary. I am pleased to meet someone like you because no one is ready to give up their husband in the name of love." 

"Hunter has never been mine, the one who owned his heart was Rebecca, and I was happy that I met him in my lifetime, and he made me a different woman after I met him, and I will forever be grateful for all the things he had done for me," I said.

"Madeline, don't give up that easily, you don't know what would be Hunter's reactions, and I think you will only concede when it is time, but for now, you can still win this battle. I know I can't change your mind about helping Rebecca because I know deep in my heart it would be unfair to her, she was only a victim, and like you, her only mistake she fell in love with the handsome CEO of the Divenson empire." Gina said, and deep in my heart, I was thinking about the same thing, but I don't want to hope and become frustrated in the end because I saw it in my own eyes when my husband dreamt about her, he was begging her to stay, and it would be more painful if I have to witness it in person.

"Thank you, Mindy. I hope to see you again soon." I said as I got up because I want to get out of this place.

"I should be the one thanking you, Maddie." She said, and she offered me her hand, and I shook and squeezed her palm.

I am just glad Gina is driving my car, and my best friend is with me at this point in my life. Everything was perfect for Hunter and me, we were both happy, and I never thought this would happen to us. I can tell my husband is beginning to love me, and it made me cry again because deep in my heart, I don't want to lose Hunter. 

It broke my heart when I canceled our dinner, I was excited to have dinner with my husband and Gina and Cal, but knowing that Rebecca is alive, I don't know how to face my husband without looking so guilty and sad. Guilty that I couldn't tell him right away that I found his first love and inform him that Rebecca is having a hard time. And I am sad in the sense that deep inside my heart, I know things will never be the same again between my husband and me.

"Do you think I am a terrible person, Gina?" I asked her, and she looked at me sideways, and she returned her focus on the road before she speaks.

"Of course not, and why do you ask?" She asked me.

"Because I should tell Hunter tonight what we have discovered, but I am selfish because I still want to spend more time with him, and I hate myself, but I can't tell him yet, not for now at least." I said.

"Madeline, you have all the right because you are his wife, and Rebecca was only his ex." She responded.

"Yeah, but we all know if she is still alive, he will never marry me, and I will never get the chance to know him." I said.

"Yeah, and you're virginity is still intact." She added.

"Hey, I never regretted giving him my virginity, Gina." I said.

"I know. I want you to laugh. I know it was the best thing you will never forget about your husband. Stop being lonely, Maddie, and I think you have to fight for his love." She responded, and I felt my face blushed as I remember our latest sexual escapade. I know how we love to be with each other and to explore each other's bodies, and I felt so sad that I am going to miss him so much, the way he calls my name, cook breakfast for me, and all about Hunter.. But there is a part of me that wants to fight and hoping my husband will never give up on me.