My Angelic System

Chapter 172 Rage And Anger

As Kye stood under the warm cascading water, he allowed his thoughts to drift. The events of the past few days had left him feeling more bewildered and uncertain than ever before. The revelation about his unique energy composition, the mysterious entity from his dream, and the potential danger he posed to those around him weighed heavily on his mind.

He ran a hand through his wet hair, letting the water wash away the sweat and grime of the day. The rhythmic sound of the shower served as a soothing backdrop to his contemplation.

'Am I a danger to others?' Kye wondered. He couldn't shake the fear that his existence, with its dual nature of holy and demonic energies, was a ticking time bomb. The thought of harming those he cared about was unbearable. 'Or am I too weak to control both energies? Do I need to evolve again?'

The steam-filled bathroom seemed to close in around him as Kye pondered these unsettling questions. He knew that his current state of being was unlike anything ever recorded. An angelic-demonic hybrid, with powers he couldn't fully comprehend, let alone control.

Kye's hand clenched into a fist as he turned off the shower, the sound of running water abruptly silenced. Droplets dripped from his hair and rolled down his chiseled chest as he stepped out onto the bathroom tiles.

'Couldn't I have normal parents like everyone else?' He clenched his fist more and more, turning his palm white.

'Kye, even though it's understandable that you think like this,' Lightbringer chimed in to calm Kye. 'Your parents sacrificed a lot to have you.'

'Did they?' Kye snarled at Lightbringer. 'Where are they, then? What are they doing? They're just making my life harder than anything else!' He would have yelled if Lightbringer was in front of him right now.

Kye's frustration and anger boiled over, and he couldn't help but vent his emotions. He felt like a pawn in some grand, inexplicable game, and the absence of his parents weighed heavily on him.

'Kye, I understand your anger,' Lightbringer said in a soothing tone. 'But there are a lot of reasons for their absence. You can't blame them for not being with you as they are doing their best for you in their own way.'

'I-... I know. But I can't help it!' Kye punched a wall to vent out his anger. The sound of Kye's fist hitting the wall reverberated through the room. He stood there for a moment, his knuckles throbbing from the impact. Lightbringer could sense the torment and fear that churned within him. 'I'm scared, Lightbringer. I'm scared of myself now. I'm scared of hurting my friends. I know that I'm stronger than them. Can you imagine if my demonic self takes control over me, and he hurts them? Can you imagine that!'

'I understand your fear, Kye,' Lightbringer replied solemnly. 'But remember, your friends care about you deeply. They've seen you at your best, and they'll stand by you at your worst. You're not alone in this struggle.'

'But I'm clearly not myself when this happens,' Kye muttered, his voice filled with frustration. He paced back and forth in his room, his thoughts racing. 'I need to understand what triggers these episodes. Is it anger, frustration, or something else entirely?'

Lightbringer floated beside him, a comforting presence. 'We'll figure it out together, Kye. We won't let this darkness control you. And please, don't complain about your parents. As I said earlier, they are doing a lot for you. Sure they aren't directly with you and can't help you, but that doesn't mean they aren't watching over you. Trust me, Kye, they love you a lot.'

Kye stood there for several minutes. While he would have liked to prove him otherwise, he couldn't as Lightbringer most likely knew more than him in that regard. Nonetheless, it was also true that they weren't here when he needed them the most.

However, more problems would most likely arise if he were to meet his parents. After all, Uriel was somehow always watching over him, even though she had been silent for a while. So if she were to see an angel in par in terms of ranks as the king of hell, then things would get really problematic for him.

But still, it would have been nice to feel a parent's warmth during such times. He had lost his adopted ones a while ago, and although he wouldn't feel very good to consider two new individuals as his parents, it would be a lie to say that he would hate it.

As Kye contemplated his unique situation and the absence of his parents, he couldn't help but feel a mixture of emotions. His anger had subsided, replaced by a deep sense of longing and vulnerability. He missed the warmth of a parental figure in his life, someone who could guide him through the challenges he faced.

Lightbringer continued to hover nearby, offering silent support. It was clear that the sword genuinely cared for Kye and was determined to help him navigate his complex existence, even though it most likely knew everything about him.

Kye finally sighed and turned to face Lightbringer. "I appreciate your help, Lightbringer. I know you're trying to help me understand and control my powers, but it's hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting a battle on two fronts, one against my own nature and the other against the unknown forces that seem to be watching me. So I'm sorry for being so harsh to you. I know that you want to help me, so please forgive me, Lightbringer."

Lightbringer nodded in understanding. "Don't worry, Kye. I know how hard it is for you. It's a daunting journey, but remember that you're not alone. Look around you. There are Aria and Ras who are trying their best to help you despite them being busy. And even though your parents are not here physically, their love and sacrifice for you are real. Trust in that love, and it will give you strength."