My Ex Next Door

Chapter 120 120: Confession Part 2

"I told you before. This is not going to work" Nathan blamed him.

Anders chuckled bitterly and leaned against the kitchen counter.

"I know and I was not hoping for anything to happen between us. I was only helping her" he replied.

Nathan shook his head and stood next to him.

"You've been in Selena's side since I can remember. I watched her grew up in distance and I know that you've been on her side every time your father brings you here" Nathan started.

Nathan paused and reached the vodka Selena left earlier. When he drank it, his face wrinkled after the bitter taste ran to his throat.

Then he continued.

"You're the only person who stays on her side because no one wanted to play with her. You beat up the kids who bullied her in the nursery. You make sure she gets her food in time. Bring her to school and worry about her." Nathan stated while his eyes were focused at the wall.

He emitted a long sighed and continued.

"You can lie to her about your feeling but, not to me. I understand if you want to leave and I will explain everything to Evan but, I hope you can tell her your feelings" Anders was shocked to hear those words.

Ander's turned to Nathan with his eyes widened in surprise.

"I can't. I don't want to confuse her feeling." He replied.

Nathan chuckled, "Confusion is good. At least she will have a second thought about Kirby."

Anders narrowed his eyes in suspicion. "Wait, are you saying this so Selena will break up with Kirby?"

Nathan shrugged a shoulder and replied calmly, "yes, but also I've seen you two together and I know that your relationship was more than just friends. My daughter is stupid and her eyes are focused at Kirby so she doesn't it know yet but, I think she loves you."

Anders went silent, speechless by what he heard.

"I said I think she loves you" Nathan stated once again.

Anders looked at him in confusion, "I heard that and I am still processing it" he stuttered.

Nathan chuckled while his head shook in amusement. He lifted the bottle and drank it once again.

"I am older than you but, I know young people nowadays used the term OMG when they are speechless," Nathan spoke.

All of Nathan's words were making his heart to pulverize. He gulped repeatedly and stared at him

"And honestly, I prefer you to be my son in law than Kirby. You take care of everything here, you're a hard-worker while my daughter is a lazy bum. So, you two are perfect for each other." Nathan gave the vodka he had in his hand to him and walked away but, before he left the kitchen he turned his back and stared at him in deep eyes.

"Before you leave. Tell her your feelings."

He was left alone in the kitchen once again but, unlike earlier his heart was beating so fast as if he just finished a race.

Even though Nathan told him that there's a possibility that Selena loves him. He just couldn't accept it. He knows that whether he confesses or not, Selena will choose Kirby.

He sighed and walked out of the kitchen using the back door. He sat on the wooden bench next to the mini zoo of the Villa with vodka in his hand.

He kept on thinking about Nathan's word. He's been with Selena for as long as he can remember and he knows her more than anyone.

He loves her but, he knows he can't stay around and watch her with Kirby because it will only kill him so he decided.

He decided to leave but, before that, he will do the last thing she wanted him to do. And that is the confess to the person he loves.

He drank the remaining vodka in the bottle and dialed her number. He knows that her phone was out of battery, therefore he decided to leave her a voicemail.

When the beep sound ended, he parted his lips to confess his feeling.

"Selena, you told me to confess so here I am" he started and chuckled nervously.

"I love you and I know it's selfish for me to say this because you're with Kirby now. I just want to tell you that I am leaving and it's not because of you." he sighed.

Finally, he was able to confess his feeling. In everything he does or everywhere he goes, Selena was always in his mind. And now, that he will never have a chance to be with her, he felt the pain like someone was stabbing his chest.

"I don't really know when I started feeling this. It might be during those weeks and months we were together. I haven't noticed that I was falling down too fast and now it's too late." he chuckled as he remembered the days they spent abroad. Every time he saw her or had an eye contact there weren't butterflies in his stomach, there was a whole zoo.

"You're the best part of my everyday. I am going to miss you but, I know this is for the best. If I could go back in time when you asked me to be your fake boyfriend. I should have confessed my feelings and made it real, I'd probably make us so much better."

He felt as if he lost something, and he can't figure out if it's his ego, heart or perhaps their friendship.

The voicemail ended but, he was not done. Therefore, he dialed her number once again.

"I want to go back to the way we used to be. All the long drives we had at 2 am, or when we sit in the park just to make fun of all the people passing by, especially our little pranks in the cinema where we throw popcorn at the other customers" he laughed as he recollected those days.

When he saw the excitement in her eyes after telling him about Kirby, he felt as if his whole world was crumbling down, the happiness he saw in her eyes has been depleted. At that moment, he felt as if he lost an important part of himself.

"I hope we can do it again but, we can't. I need to leave and you need to be with Kirby. So, Selena take care of yourself and don't forget your ID because I will not be around to get it for you"

He finds himself constantly close to tears while struggling to hold it together. He wouldn't be able to explain himself if someone finds him crying in the garden.

Anders looked at his phone and saw the minutes he spent on talking. Before he ended the call, he bit on his lower lips and sighed.

There's a lot of things to do, a lot of clothes to pack and a ticket to London that need to be bought. Since he cannot stay anymore, he decided to visit his sister and probably starts a new life.