Pay With Your Heart

Chapter 311 - Life Is Hard

Eun-sun was surprised to see Hei-Ran all dolled up and ready to leave, but she was more surprised by the choatic state of the room. Her eyes trailed over the clothes and shoes strewn all over the floor, and her eyes nearly fell off their sockets.

"Hei-Ran, did an earthquake happen here?" She asked as she picked up the clothes by door, so she wouldn't step on them.

Hei-Ran turned to her with an apologetic look on her face. "I'm so sorry, I was in a hurry." She apologized, while Eun-sun looked at her from head to toe. 

"Going on a date?" She inquired as she sat on the bed which was also covered with clothes. She cocked a brow at her when her answer didn't come immediately.

"Eh..It's not really a date, I'm just going to..." She paused and sighed. "You know what, it's a date." She said as she applied more gloss to her lips. She smiled satisfactorily when she saw her appearance. "How do I look?" She did a quick spin in front of Eun-sun.

"Beautiful." Eun-sun replied.

"I know right." She chirped as she picked up her purse and phone, all ready to leave. 

"Don't wait for me, and also, I made dinner for you, so eat up." She instructed, while Eun-sun nodded.

"Promise me, you'll eat enough." Her voice sounded stern. She had been forcing her to eat daily, but still she barely ate much, hence why the emaciation.

"I'll eat." Eun-sun hissed as she fell back on the bed.

"Did you see him today?" Hei-Ran asked while Eun-sun shook her head. She had told her about his sudden visit to her office just the other day.

Hei-Ran sighed when she saw the sad look on her face. "Are you sure, you don't want me to talk to him?" She had offered to talk to Dan-Han on her behalf, but the stubborn girl had told her not to.

"There's no need for that." She said.

"But-"

"No, Hei-Ran. He needs time. But if he still doesn't forgive me, maybe I'd-" She hesitated and bit her lips.

"You'd what?" Hei-Ran asked.

"Leave." 

"Eun-sun." Hei-Ran snapped. When did she start hatching such a plan. 

Eun-sun let out a low laugh when she saw the frown on Hei-Ran's face. "I'm not leaving for good. But I think he might need the space. It might help us." She said. Hei-Ran walked to the bed and pulled her up when she saw how sad her face had become.

She pulled her up and hugged her. "You don't have to leave. Leaving won't save your relationship, and what about your mother?" She asked. Despite the strained relationship between Eun-sun and her mother, she knew Eun-sun still cared for her. Hasn't she been taking care of her all her life, so was she going to leave her now?

Eun-sun sighed when she heard her. She still hasn't told Hei-Ran about her family issues. She had tried to, but she couldn't bring herself to tell her that her father had returned as a criminal and had told her she wasn't his child. That none of neither of the people she had grown up with as a child were her parents. She felt embarrassed by it. But maybe it was about time she told her.

A wry sigh escaped her lips as she pulled away from Hei-Ran. She looked at her and said, "There's something I'd like tell you." Hei-Ran gazed at her with piqued interest. 

"What is it?" 

"It's about my parents." She said.

"What about them?"

"They're-" She paused. She couldn't bring herself to say it. Not just because she was embarrassed to tell her, but because she felt pain whenever she realized she was a nobody. Someone with no identity, with no real family. 

She bit her nether lips to hold back the tears that threatened to sting her eyes. She looked at Hei-Ran who was patiently waiting for her to say something. "You should go for your date. We'll talk about when you get back."

Hei-Ran narrowed her eyes at her while she observed her countenance. "Are you sure?" She asked while Eun-sun nodded.

"It can wait. Hurry up and leave for your date." She urged her making Hei-Ran sigh deflatedly as she stood to her feet.

"We'll talk about this when I get back, and don't forget to eat or else I'll really pay president Lee a visit." She threatened while Eun-sun nodded, a small smile splitting her face.

"Then I'll see you tomorrow." She kissed Eun-sun on her head before hurrying out of the room. 

Eun-sun watched her as she left and she couldn't help but remember she was supposed to go on a date with Dan-Han before all this issues started. She lolled back on the bed, her eyes bleakly staring at the all-white ceiling. Her life was so messy, and all she wanted was some brief moment of peace. Day by day she was beginning to believe Song-Hee's word. Maybe she was really cursed. 

Song-Hee's marriage had failed because of her, that was what she had said. Mrs Lee might not have died because of her, but Dan-Han was in so much pain because of her. The one person who had shown her true love, protected her and shown her how it was to be happy. Maybe she was cursed to stay unhappy and be alone with no loved one by her side. Even her parents had given her away without giving the time to see or know them.

She rolled and laid on her side as a tear rolled down her cheek. Life was indeed hard. It isn't meant for the weak like her. It should be kind enough to end her life and Maybe she might desire the peace she needs in death.

Eun-sun was still lying on her bed in tears when her phone chimed. She didn't want to see anything, but she lazily reach for it, and she was surprised to see a text from In-Ha. He was requesting to see her tomorrow, and attached to it was the detail of where they should meet.

Eun-sun wasn't sure she wanted to meet him, but she had already given her word.. She wondered what was so important he wanted to talk about.