Playboy CEO Has a Baby

Chapter 534 I Won't

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CHAPTER 534

They do say if you love someone so much, you also trust them. You trust them enough to know they would not do certain things that will hurt you.

But what if you do trust yet your heart is too hurt to continue having that trust?

This was how Bai Renxiang was feeling. It was her first time being caught in a situation like this. But her heart has experienced this type of pain.

The one she wished never to feel. It was the pain when Fu Bolin broke up with her.

But this was a different case, no? However she could not. Their relationship was still growing and their love was still blooming to become string and beautiful.

Then this happened. How sad.

"Why did you let her? Why did you let do whatever she wants?" Bai Renxiang asked.

She was now standing and facing him with her tear-stained face and her pain written all over her.

"I-I did not let her do anything, I swear. Please believe me," Li Fengjin pleaded. His own eyes were getting moist and his chest was tightening up.

"Then how so you explain that kiss?" Bai Renxiang wasted out at him.

"Kiss? What kiss?" Li Fengjin was confused.

"Oh, please don't play confused. Just because I seemed focus on the dance does not mean that I did not have my eyes on the both of you."

Li Fengjin thoughts replayed all that happened when he and Yue Jing were left on that table. They did not kiss. Even when she tried to he– oh.

"Remember now?" Bai Renxiang voice brought him back.

"That was not hat you think. Nothing happened."

"What do you think I think? How can you say nothing happened when... I can't do this anymore," she shook her head and walked away from him.

Li Fengjin panicked. He quickly blocked her. He was not letting her go anywhere with those things on her mind. His mother said communication was the key to a happy relationship.

So he had to try more. They barely had a proper conversation.

"My love please listen to me. I would never do anything to hurt you. Please. Yes, she wanted to kiss me but I did not let her. Please believe me," he tried his best to explain.

"That is what I can't do. Believing is what I can bring myself to even if I want to, Jin. I am too hurt, goddammit. I just can't."

Li Fengjin found himself shocked and... pissed? Yes. He was getting angry.

"Why can't you believe me when I did the same for you?"

His sudden question made Bai Renxiang whip her head toward him. It was then she saw it. The anger in his cold blue eyes.

"What is difference between now and that scandal you had in the past? I believed you either way."

"You... This is different because you of all people know that it was not true. But this... I became a witness," she said with her index finger pointing toward herself.

"Well, there were pictures of yours too."

A lone tear slid down Bai Renxiang's left eye. She wiped it off and looked away. Nodding her head, she turned her eyes back to him.

"Very well then. If you don't believe me for something you took, then fine. You are not the first person who chose pictures over truth anyway."

Saying that, Bai Renxiang did not waste any more time as she ran back. Staying there and looking at him only pained her more.

Meanwhile, Li Fengjin cursed himself for saying all those things to her- bringing bCk her painful past into it. He raked his hand through his hair and kicked the sand.

"Argh! I hate this. I hate this."

••••••

The festival lasted till late into the night before they began to return to their various residences. Li Fengjin walked back to the his car to drive to the hotel.

His brows furrowed when he still met his car in the same spot. He had thought she would drive.

SMACK

He faceoalmed himself. How would she drive when the key was with him? Sighing, he dejectedly got into the car and started it. He drove slowly down the streets as he wanted his thoughts to be cleared.

He knew he blew it because he was angry. He could not just help it. However, he should not have brought back the past. She was right.

He knew that scandal was a lie because he was her first.

'And yet you just had to say it to hurt her more,' a voice spoke in his head. It was the little cute angel Li Fengjin.

'I did not do it on purpose. It just slipped out and I was angry that she did not trust me,' he countered.

'It is the first time you guys are having this kind of issue. What do you expect? She is a woman. Her emotions are not as strong as your, Fengjin.'

'But I am hurt too.' He argued back.

'Sigh. You are right on some level though. You both are still new to these type of things. Try to make it okay.'

By the time he arrived the hotel, in their room, Bai Renxiang was already lying down with her back facing the entrance.

'She must have been too tired to take a bath and change out of her clothes,' Li Fengjin thought.

He sighed and went to the bathroom. He felt disgusted with his body since Yue Jing touched him. Plus, her scent was on him. Though it was faint, he could still perceive it.

As soon as he left, Bai Renxiang's eyes opened. She was not asleep. She did not just want to continue their fight. Who knows what other things he might say to her.

She remained awake, with tears running down her eyes every once in a while. But her eyes closed quickly when she heard the bathroom door open.

She waited and waited to feel a little movement on the bed but nothing happened. I stead she heard his footstep fading. She turned to the directions only to see him walking to with a pillow and a blanket in hand.

"So you don't want to sleep on the bed because I am on it?" Bai Renxiang blurted out before she could even stop herself.

Li Fengjin stopped in his tracks. He turned and opened his mouth to say something but she beat him to it.

"I'm so stupid for even asking when it's obvious why. Never mind. You would not want to stay with a woman who had a scandal," she said before laying back on the bed and covering herself with the sheets.

"That's not–"

"Good night," she put an end to his words whatever it may be. She did not want to hear it.

Li Fengjin let out a defeated and frustrated sigh. How was he supposed to make things okay when she is behaving that way?

His parents never had this kind of issues... At least not in front of him. Kisses, hugs and cuddles will not work now. Besides, he does not want it to seem as if that is all he knows how to do.

So with nothing in mind yet, he went to sleep on the long sofa. There is no way he would be able to control his hands from pulling her to himself, if he slept on the bed.

They did not sleep for hours but there bodies were tired. They eventually drifted off for the few hours to dawn. The moon was not happy though.

One of its' favourite couples stayed apart. There was no sweetness for it to be a witness off.

~The next morning~

The cloud became bright as usual and the people of the island went about thier daily activities.

Bai Renxiang blinked open her swollen eyes as she had cried herself to sleep. There was nothing left anymore and get stomach protested in hunger.

She barely had enough of the barbecue and drink last night at the festival. She turned on the bed to greet her partner like usual, but she was met with the empty and cold side.

It was then it dawned on her that they had a fight and he did not sleep in the bed. With a sigh, she got out of bed, went to the bathroom to wash her face and teeth before stepping out.

Bai Renxiang made her way to the sofa. Her pained her softened on seeing how Li Fengjin's body tried to adjust to the size of the furniture. He was taller and broader so he had to sleep on his side.

'It must have been uncomfortable for him,' she thought.

Not having the guts to let him be, she patted his shoulder to wake him up.

*pat pat pat*

"Jin, wake up... It's uncomfortable here. Go and sleep on the bed," she said while patting.

Li Fengjin steered and groaned until he woke up. Bai Renxiang stepped back to give him space as he sat up.

"I'm going out so you can use the bed," she informed him.

Just as she was about to leave, Li Fengjin caught her right wrist and pulled her back to him. He made sure to be gentle so as not to physically hurt her.

"What are you..." Get words got stucked in her throat as Li Fengjin suddenly hugged her waist, his head buried in her stomach.

"Let go," she said.

Li Fengjin shook his head. He was going to be stubborn. "I won't. I'm not letting you go. I won't let you go anywhere."

"It's not your decision to make."