Proud senior schoolgirl was tender and sweet, we fell in love

Chapter 89 Am I an Insider?

Xie Xiao was a bit panicked and reached out to touch her eyes, which seemed ready to release tears, but he could only touch the cold screen.

He took a deep breath and said softly, "I'm sorry, I wasn't ignoring you. I really didn't notice the message. Don't be sad…"

His voice was very soft, "If you keep this up, I'll have to come and see you…"

"Don't come over, look at the time…" Luo Yanran hurriedly stopped him, blinking her eyes, "I'm not crying."

Yet, with her reddened eyes and aggrieved tone, her words lacked any convincing power.

Xie Xiao regretted that he hadn't explained himself, which must be why she felt so insecure.

Usually so proud, yet she had become insecure because of her feelings for him...

"Ranran, I'm sorry," Xie Xiao said softly. "It won't happen again. I'll never ignore you."

Luo Yanran still felt uncomfortable. In the half-hour Xie Xiao hadn't replied, she thought about a lot, including how they ended up together unexpectedly.

Did Xie Xiao really like her?

It came without any warning, suddenly he liked her.

Luo Yanran even doubted if this all was her own fantasy, and that Xie Xiao actually didn't like her at all...

Now, seeing his gentle demeanor, Luo Yanran still asked, "Xie Xiao, what do you like about me?"

Xie Xiao was stunned, then sighed, "Do you realize this question feels like, if I don't answer well, I might be dumped the next second?"

"Of course not!" Luo Yanran replied instantly and earnestly, "If you can't say, it might mean I'm not good enough yet, not appealing enough to attract you. But we are already together, aren't we? So you'll just have to try liking me, and I will try to become better…"

Her tone grew softer, and she looked away from the screen, "Anyway, I won't agree to break up."

I like you so much, have for so long, and it was not easy for us to start being together; I won't agree to break up.

Xie Xiao felt a sweet swelling among his guilt at that moment.

Although he always knew Luo Yanran liked him, he didn't realize she loved him this much by now.

It must be true, or else she wouldn't have stayed by his paralyzed self for so long.

That's a lot of affection.

Xie Xiao suddenly felt his own affection was too insubstantial, unable even to provide her with the most basic sense of security.

Xie Xiao exhaled, "Ranran, let's talk about Zhou Mianmian. I actually thought of discussing this when we meet, and Li Hua even taught me how to console you... But if you are willing, let's talk about it now?"

Luo Yanran's eyelashes quivered, then she turned to look at Xie Xiao.

Her lips were tightly pursed, turning somewhat pale, her eyes conflicted, making her look pitiful.

She didn't immediately reply but asked instead, "Xie Xiao, you still haven't told me what you like about me."

"I like your sincerity and bravery, and the sparkle in your eyes when you look at me," Xie Xiao said softly, unconsciously touching his head and exhaling with embarrassment, "I'm still not quite used to saying these things, but I like everything about you, more than you might think."

Looking at him, Luo Yanran suddenly asked, "More than you liked Zhou Mianmian?"

"Of course, my liking for her was tinted with one-sided wishfulness," Xie Xiao said earnestly. "But with you, it's mutual joy."

Xie Xiao sighed, "Speaking of which, you were the one who gave me that filter for Zhou Mianmian..."

Luo Yanran was stunned when the topic naturally turned to Zhou Mianmian, "Why do you say that?"

"I first noticed Zhou Mianmian when I saw her feeding the cats, right at the place you often go..." Xie Xiao said with a resigned tone, "I think it was a misunderstanding. But, I cannot deny that at that time I really thought she was kind and lovely..."

Xie Xiao's tone was serious, and he didn't casually deny these feelings.

Luo Yanran felt a bit of sourness in her heart, but surprisingly, it eased due to his candid attitude.

Xie Xiao was like this; he wouldn't lie and tell himself that he had never liked her.

Actually, Luo Yanran was afraid he would say that, which would probably lead her to be disappointed in Xie Xiao.

Xie Xiao spoke seriously and calmly about the scene a young man unintentionally came across, a sudden flutter of the heart.

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The compassion he felt for her difficult life.

"It's true that I liked her, but I've never been with her," Xie Xiao looked at Luo Yanran, "I can't claim to be very affectionate, because through repeated rejections, I too harbored thoughts of despair and retreat."

He reached out and touched the girl's face on the screen, "But from the beginning, you were different from her. It wasn't because Zhou Mianmian stopped liking me that I started being with you. You both are independent and entirely different individuals."

"Ranran, you are outstanding, better than most people, not just in terms of your looks and family status, but because you yourself were shining from the start."

Xie Xiao's tone became tender, "If the person I met feeding the cats had been you at the start, perhaps the story would have been different."

That was a scene that should rightfully belong to Luo Yanran alone.

Luo Yanran didn't speak, but just looked at him.

"After liking her for so long, can I replace her?" she asked softly, her voice uncertain.

"You don't need to replace anyone, you are already unique," Xie Xiao said helplessly, "Ranran, you don't understand, before I was with you, my heart was empty, and if it had anyone, it was only you. Zhou Mianmian is a part of the past that has nothing to do with me anymore, even less with us."

"If there are any conflicts between us in the future, it'd only be our issue, not related to outsiders in any way."

Xie Xiao's voice was firm but also a bit helpless, "I don't know if you can understand what I'm trying to say, it feels a bit messy..."

"I can," Luo Yanran interrupted him, "I understand."

Because Xie Xiao mentioned an outsider, she felt a sudden sense of relief.

Did Xie Xiao really differentiate outsiders from those close to him?

What position did she hold in his heart?

Deep down, she already knew the answer.

Yet, she couldn't help wanting confirmation, "Xie Xiao, Zhou Mianmian is an outsider, right?"

"In matters of love, everyone but you and me are outsiders," Xie Xiao said, looking into her eyes, finally with a smile, feeling greatly relieved.

Actually, while he understood what he had said, he wasn't sure if Luo Yanran would.

Now, it seemed she did understand.

The feeling of being understood was very pleasing.

He said helplessly, "I wanted to tell you this in person, so I could explain it better, but I couldn't bear seeing you too upset..."

Before he could finish, Luo Yanran interrupted him, "Then, am I an insider?"