Chapter 485 The Clash Of Reality And Imagination
Chapter 485 The Clash Of Reality And Imagination
Guiying let her tears fall on the ground. She looked shriveled up as if somebody had sapped all her vitality from her.
"You want to know more about me? Seriously? Why? There is nothing interesting about me. My life has been nothing but just a never-ending cycle of grief. First by my brother's hands, then by my own stupidity to fall for a man I never even met and then..."
Her eyes lost their color thinking about Ai.
My own insecurities towards the only best friend I had...
"I have been just living a shameful life until now. Begging for a brother's love, a friend's love and then a man's love and somehow I could never get any of them. Oh yeah Ai...Ai loved me. She treated me well. But it was all my fault that I couldn't reciprocate it. I met someone on the internet whose words were so sincere and thoughtful that I always went back to find my comfort in them. Yet, even they turned out to be just lies. It came to be that I was never a part of his story in the first place."
A myriad of complicated emotions gushed within Zixin. There was disappointment and sorrow to know that Guiying had a person she loved so much. That alone felt as if somebody drilled a huge hole in his heart.
But walking further from that, what pained him the most was Guiying's pain. Her blank gaze tore his heart and the thought of somebody betraying her blazed him with rage.
"What did he do?" He asked through his gritted teeth. "How did he betray you?"
Her eyelashes trembled. "By choosing someone else. By confessing his love to someone else. He looked like I was just never there...Why? Is it because I lost the Summit? Did he think I wasn't capable anymore? Ah...that might be it. I had always lacked. I lacked in scoring good marks to make my brother proud of me, I lacked in getting an admission by my own efforts, I lacked in my talent to write too...That's why I was always a step behind..."
She was suddenly forced to look up and face his gaze. "What are you talking about? When did you lack talent? Guiying, you are amazing. You are an amazing person and an amazing writer. If you weren't, then I wouldn't have felt the strong urge to read your novels after meeting you. The more I read your books, the more I wanted to meet you. That's why I suggested the brainstorming idea only because I thought you were so amazing!"
He felt a little breathless. By nature, he was a quiet person and to talk with such vigor actually made his face turn a little reddish.
"Not just you. The 'one' inside you is super amazing too! 'She' protected you with all her might and stepped up to face your brother. That takes courage especially when he was your only family. So, I don't understand why you treat yourself less than anybody else. You are amazing on your own and I...I-"
"If I was so amazing, then why did he choose someone else?" She questioned as she cried. The more her tears fell, the more she felt her heart crumbling. "Why did he have to send me all those cards and letters if he had to discard me one day? Is that treating me as someone amazing?"
"No. That is not treating you with respect," his fingers trembled as he gripped her arm a little tighter. "That is not treating you as someone amazing at all. That's why I want to know who is MrPerfect? Who had the audacity to play with your emotions?"
She chuckled wryly. "And what will you do?"
A glint of malice shone in his eyes. "Punish him. Just like I punished Cai Lingyun."
Her eyes slowly widened. "Bro...What did you do to him?"
"I told 'her' before. 'She' or you don't need to know. The only thing that matters is that anybody making you suffer won't have a good end by my hands," Icy words escaped his tongue.
"B-But he is my brother. I-I cannot abandon him! Tell me, where is he?"
"You cannot abandon him? But he abandoned you long back."
"Just tell me where he is!"
"Then tell me who is MrPerfect? I will tell you about Cai Lingyun if you tell me about MrPerfect," Zixin refused to back down either. "He is an online identity but it seems that you have met him. You know what he looks like. Tell me. Who is MrPerfect?"
She took a deep, quivering breath to calm down. "You don't have to fight my battles. You don't have to punish anybody for my sake."
"I do."
"Why!? Just leave me alone!" She shook him off and pulled back while keeping some distance between them.
"I cannot because I shall forever be your loyal fan."
She froze.
"I adore and respect you a lot as a reader and if there is another reader who has hurt you, then I won't take that lying down," he spoke with his shoulders straight and his gaze resolute.
"You..."
Her feet stumbled back as she stared at him in a daze.
Why does he always speak like MrPerfect?
Her heart pounded furiously. Through MrPerfect's letters, she always felt that he was a very sincere person. Whenever she read his letters, it was as if she could imagine his expression filled with devotion and loyalty. That was the reason why she became so attracted to MrPerfect because she strongly felt the purity in his actions.
Those same feelings now evoked within her as she stared at Zixin. At this moment, a thought flashed across her mind.
If she had to give a face to MrPerfect right now, then she would definitely choose Zixin. If she was asked what MrPerfect would look like to her, then it would be Zixin's image coming to her mind.
It's not...it's impossible...
The reality of Jun being MrPerfect and her imagination of Zixin wanting to be him violently collided.
She always thought how familiar she felt when she talked to Zixin. The peace of mind she got in his presence was very similar to reading MrPerfect's letters.
Guiying looked into his eyes and whispered. "Who...are you? Tell me. Are you MrPerfect?"