Chapter 861: The second marriage
Chapter 861: The second marriage
Gu Rong didn't decide that he would raise Yating but that also came with its own set of apprehensions. He didn't doubt his ability to raise him financially since he was well-settled now. But that didn't mean that there wasn't a need for a mother in Yating's life.
The more he thought in that direction, the more he felt drowned in an endless sea of concern.
Yating needed a mother too. At this point, he was too young to understand the absence of a mother. But he was sure that a day would come when he would ask questions about it and when he might feel that wished he had a mother too.
That question also spiraled him in another line of thinking -
What if Yating ever learned the truth of him killing Luo Liuxian?
Butler Mo often tried his best to convince him. "Master, it wasn't your fault. You were only trying to protect young master."
He vigorously shook his head. "No, no! Now that I think about it calmly, I lost my cool over there. I could have handled the situation differently. I didn't need to kill Liuxian. I could have…thought of something else!"
He wallowed in that guilt and fear. That's why it became even more necessary for him to find a mother for Yating. With that in mind, he decided he would remarry but only for Yating's sake. He had no interest nor the intention to have his own family.
It was simply getting into a contract for him.
The woman would take all the responsibilities of a mother and take care of Yating and in exchange, Gu Rong would take care of all her needs.
Butler Mo did try to talk with him if this approach would really work. Give and take when it came to a mother's affection was complicated. He wondered if the deal would really work out.
But Gu Rong was adamant. He wanted to give Yating the love of both a mother and a father. He wanted to fill that gap as soon as possible and settle that unnerving feeling gripping him.
And so along the way, he met Duan Ren. She didn't come from a family as wealthy as Gu Rong's but it was more than enough from an average man's perspective.
Duan Ren was more than happy to enter into a contract with him and so was her family. She too, at first, showed genuine interest in taking care of Yating and she had hit it off with him when Gu Rong arranged for them to meet.
Thus Gu Rong got married for the second time.
Things went well for the first few years where Duan Ren, though lacking in a few areas, did care for Yating the best she could. But as Yating began to grow older, her time and attention slowly began to shift towards the things she had missed out on formative years.
Duan Ren parties and social gatherings and she started attending them more frequently. Yating, who was seven at that time, could feel the growing gap between them.
This started to get on Gu Rong's notice as well which threw him into displeasure. And so the arguments began.
"Yating is old enough to look after himself," she rolled her eyes. "What's the problem if I step out for sometime?"
Gu Rong glared at her. "It's not a problem if you party or go out but the frequency is worrying me. You are hardly there for Yating anymore! He is not that old enough either. He is only seven. Don't forget the contract Ren!
I am willing to give whatever you want but not at the cost of you neglecting my son!"
"You…! I always did my best this whole time and this is what you say to me?"
"You doing your best as a mother is a part of the contract Ren. Just like how I provide for you whatever you want. Neither you nor I can back out from our promises and if I see that Yating is suffering even though you should have been there for him, then I won't hesitate to break the contract!"
Fights like these started to happen often. One day, Yating poked his head in Gu Rong's room. The latter brightened and patted on his thigh.
Yating merrily sat on his lap. Gu Rong ruffled his head and smiled. "What do you want?"
Yating stared at his father and pursed his lips. He rubbed his hands together. "Don't…fight with Mom because of me."
He stiffened.
"I don't mind Mom going out. I love reading books," his bright eyes sparkled. "You have brought me so many books to read! So…so you don't have to worry about me."
Gu Rong felt as if a boulder just crashed on top of him. He could see it in his eyes that he was just acting to look tough and strong only to maintain peace in the house. But somewhere in his heart, he did miss Duan Ren's presence.
Gu Rong pinched his cheeks. "Don't be silly, Yating. We are not fighting because of you. We are husband and wife and every couple has arguments now and then," he laughed. "It's nothing serious. So you don't stress about it.
You just play and read and do whatever you want."
That conversation with Yating was the final straw for Gu Rong and he gave an ultimatum to Duan Ren that if she didn't change her ways, then he would be forced to end the contract himself.
"Nothing ever works out for me Jiahao…"
Gu Rong said one evening, holding a glass of whisky in his hands. His face was slightly flushed with intoxication.
"Liuxian didn't get the life she wanted from me so I thought…that if I give everything to a woman that Liuxian ever wanted then, there shouldn't be any problem, right? Why are things always so difficult? I am…not able to do anything for Yating. Why do I always keep failing…?"
Butler Mo softly said, "I did say before Master. Give and take in any relationship can only go as far. And especially parents' love cannot be based on a contract."
Gu Rong wryly laughed. "Then what is it based on? Blood? Because if that was the case then Liuxian wouldn't have hated her son so much to the point…that I had to kill her."
Suddenly a gasp echoed from behind the door. Gu Rong froze and ran to open it only to find Duan Ren stumbled back. She stared at him in horror.
"Wh-What did I just hear…? Y-You killed your first wife? But didn't you say at the time of our marriage that she died in an accident?"