Second Marriage: My Strongest Bodyguard

Chapter 379 - The Meaning Of Love And Obsession

"Kareen ..." Dean touched Kareen's shoulder patiently. "Tell me, what do you feel when you are with me like this ... I want to know how much you love me," he exclaimed.

"I love you so much, Dean. even I would do anything for you, to get you," replied Kareen sadly.

"Then, how do you feel when you are with me? Are you comfortable?" asked Dean again.

Kareen was silent for a while as if digesting Dean's question. "I… I feel like having you… I'm afraid you will stay away from me and love your wife more. My heart hurts because you didn't choose me," replied Kareen, crying again when she remembered when Dean was making out with Bryana.

Dean sighed, thinking how to make the woman in front of him stop wanting him. "Kareen ... try to understand. I can't love you back not because Bryana is richer or prettier. If that love was meant for you, maybe I already felt that love when you gave me attention."

"What you feel for me is not love, but a feeling of always wanting to have, to get attention, and you will forever be like that if you don't try to throw away that feeling even though I have done what you want. You have to accept this fact, I love Bryana ....she is my wife, mother of my child. I can't just leave it for you who don't love me. I will not be happy with you nor will you continue to be afraid." Dean talked a lot, trying to make Kareen understand the meaning of love.

"I love you, Dean!" Karen confirmed.

"What you feel is not love, but an obsession," Dean said seriously, his gaze so intense on Kareen who was crying, then he wiped the tears with a tissue that Dany brought.

"Love makes our hearts comfortable, not fear. Love means being happy together, not alone."

.."I think I love you, Dean. I have a dream to live happily with you," said Kareen sobbing.

"Kareen. Even being together won't make you happy because I can't force my heart to love you... Think about it now...I already have a family, I will never be able to leave my family for you who only want to have me without understanding whether I will be happy or not." Dean grabbed Kareen's right hand and held it. "Please. Forget wanting to own me….I can't be yours because I belong to my wife and children."

Karen shook her head. "I can't... I'm also in torment because I always wanted to have you!"

Dean sighed, looking sadly at Kareen who was trapped. "You can do it...I'm sure you'll be able to forget that wish."

"Can you tell me how I can't stop thinking about you, Dean!" Kareen slapped Dean's hand in annoyance, even wanting to push him but Dany immediately stopped him.

"Kareen, control yourself!" Dany exclaimed with a sharp look holding Kareen's hand.

"All right, Dany ... let her go. I'm fine," Dean said with a reassuring look.

Dany let go of her grip on Kareen's, then stood next to Dean again but more alert because Kareen was crazy.

"How can you call you loving me but you always want to hurt me because I disobeyed you?" asked Dean in frustration.

"I don't know... I hate you but I want to have you!" replied Kareen curtly.

Dean took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly. silent for a moment staring at Kareen who is now silent with a blank stare. He felt pity because the woman seemed to be imprisoned because of her obsession.

"Kareen... don't you remember... you wasted time in your life just thinking about me who never thought of you? doesn't that just make your life more unclear? look at you now ... you are so pathetic ... away from family, friends .. you have no more freedom." Dean spoke again, then rose to his feet using his cane.

Kareen was silent, glancing at Dean, who was standing alone and was having a hard time."Even if you try to make me die, I'm still safe and can live freely, happily, because of the love... the love that Bryana gave me, because God was fair to me, because I passed the test give it!" Dean was starting to get annoyed that Kareen was just standing there like a rock that was hard to break. "If you would try to accept the fact that I can't be yours, then accept a new love, live a happy life with your friends, people who care about you, you will surely be as happy as I am!"

"Look... even though my feet hurt a lot, but my heart is calm because I have a life partner who makes me happy..you can also feel that by opening your heart to other men.. you are still young ...for sure there will be a man who loves you sincerely and you will love him, you live happily like me and Bryana, like Raymond and Monica!" Dean continued to speak for a long time, but those he spoke to remained silent in contemplation.

"I'm no good to you, Kareen. Hate me, remember that I hurt your heart, ignored you, didn't appreciate all the good you've ever done to me..keep thinking that I don't deserve you to chase to be yours, then you will be able to open your heart to other men," Dean exclaimed with a gasp because he was very annoyed. He turned to look at Dany. "Let's go home now. .there is no point in talking to boulders, even boulders can change because of the water droplets that keep hitting them. Somehow I should call it… she's tougher than anything!"

Dany nodded then helped Dean walk out of the park without saying goodbye to Kareen who was still silent.

"She's not responding," Dean muttered irritably. "She's the most stubborn woman I've ever met!"

"But what you said was enough to make her understand what love and obsession are," said Dany, leading Dean. They walked straight to the parking lot located not far from the park.

"I hope so." Dean kept walking but turned once and just as Kareen looked at him from a distance looked so pathetic. "I want her to change, stop thinking about me and start a new life with people who care about her... She deserves to be happy just as much as we do, Dany."

"I also think so. Hopefully she can return to normal," said Dany, continuing to lead. Dean approached the parking lot where there were several cars and motorbikes lined up neatly.

Kareen looked sadly at Dean who was getting out of sight. she cried profusely feeling a deep pain in her heart over what Dean had said...

"You're right ... you are mean and never think about my feelings! I hate you, Dean ... I hate!" Kareen continued to cry even to the point of hysterical and several nurses approached her, tried to calm her down by taking her to a special room. Hmm, I hope that hate can make the feeling of wanting to have Dean disappear....