Chapter 39.1
Chapter 39.1
Chapter 39.1
So-young stared at Taekyung with a ridiculous gaze and reluctantly nodded.
I didn't say that, but if you want to rephrase my words I'm trying to convey most adequately, yes. Yes.
"If you can have an only casual relationship. Your taste is weird.
With Taekyung's bitter sarcastic remarks, Soyoung stared at him like an immature child. So far, she has never seen Taekyung with such eyes. No matter how arbitrary he was, it was possible because she basically respected and trusted Tae-kyung.
So-young, who used to be, is now looking at Tae-kyung with a clearly childish gaze. Taekyung's self-esteem was further damaged by that fact.
Well, if she thinks about it, So-young broke Taekyung's pride too easily. With just one glance and gesture, she easily degenerated him making him look ridiculous.
Still, the fact that he didn't want to give up on So-young and that he couldn't control his desire to monopolize her somehow drove Tae-kyung crazy.
"Don't talk like that. To be honest, you understand what my thoughts are."
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"I thought that the team leader was a fundamentally realistic person, even if you're bold in strange parts."
Soyoung naturally spoke out what Taekyung wanted to say. Did we think the same towards each other? Taekyung felt a little confused. So-young added a word as if she had put a wedge in his guess.
"Like me."
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"But still I was happy to hear what you said today. Really."
So-young smiled shyly. It was too pretty of a smile for a person who gave a cold rejection. Taekyung's heart was filled with lingering feelings.
Taekyung wanted to ask Soyoung to think about it again. He wanted to persuade her not to be too tied up in the future that hasn't happened. However, he nodded silently with a calm look. He knew that if he held on, it would only be lame.
"I understand what you're saying."
For the time being.
Taekyung gently accepted, pretending to be expressionless. So-young, who was not aware of his gloomy heart, quietly lowered her gaze. There was an unprecedented silence between the two.
Taekyung really became curious about Soyoung's mind. He wanted to know what she was thinking that she always over exceeded his expectations in this way.
So-young frustrated Taekyung more easily than anyone he had ever experienced. It felt ridiculous that the only opponent to who he gave his heart made him weak without limit.
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Taekyung didn't even take off his coat and lay flat on the hotel bed. It was because he, who did not expect such an ending, was excited and reserved a suite room.
His first confession ended in a broken heart. It was also the rejection he received from the partner with who he had wild sex whenever they had a chance. Taekyung, who suffered a sudden blow from that fact, burst into laughter.
After Taekyung drove Soyoung home, he dared to return to the hotel in the opposite direction of her house. It was because his confusion had not subsided and he had to somehow change his mood.
It was a very foolish choice.
Taekyung put an unlit cigarette into his mouth. He didn't know why the bed was so wide and the night view outside the window was so beautiful. It felt like he was in a terrible mess alone, only making him feel more of a lump in his throat.
Taekyung got up and drank whiskey. As the alcohol went down his esophagus, his heart quickly became warm. He nervously rubbed his face and chewed only the cigarette.
[I don't think I can go out with you.]
She said that she could not give her heart no matter how much sex they had. It was not an old-fashioned drama from the 80s, and he could not understand why the logic was the way it was. It was difficult for him to understand why she was acting so defensively.
Of course, he knew what So-young was worried about. It wasn't that he couldn't understand why they had to end their relationship. It was a worry that he didn't do enough.
If it wasn't for this relationship, Taekyung would have actively persuaded Soyoung. He was eloquently accustomed to negotiating, and he was confident in leading people in the direction he wanted. He couldn't, knowing that he hadn't shown her anything that would demand her trust
Being overly faithful to his duties as a sex partner was a failure.
As a man, Taekyung could easily imagine how their relationship would get if he continued to persuade her. So it was right to respect Soyoung's will for now.
But the problem is.
He said he had no intention of giving up as it is.
As So-young said, the relationship began for the purpose of sex. That's why Taekyung's mind was in a blur for a long time. He wasn't really confident at first about what affection he could have for a relationship that started without any sincerity.