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Chapter 292 - 292:I Don’t Want to See You Again
Chapter 292 - 292:I Don’t Want to See You Again
Chapter 292:I Don’t Want to See You Again
Translator: Dragon Boat Translation Editor: Dragon Boat Translation
If Lu Zhiyuan didn’t confess, Gu Ci would never have had the courage to ask when the Third Young Master would return. She missed him terribly.
“I don’t know,” Lu Zhiyuan replied, not wanting to give her unrealistic hope. Once unrealistic hope took hold, it would torment her. “It might be half a year, a year, or he might never come back. I’ve told you before, I am the dominant personality. I’ve been in control of this body all along. I am the true owner, and maybe he has disappeared forever.”
“Liar!” Gu Ci’s voice trembled slightly, and her body quivered lightly. She asked in despair, “Then why did you pretend to be him?”
“Before he left, he asked me not to hurt you.” Lu Zhiyuan looked at Gu Ci with great pity. “Gu Ci, he truly loves you more than anyone else.”
Without the Third Young Master, Lu Zhiyuan had no desire to deceive Gu Ci.
“His thoughts and feelings are all yours,” Lu Zhiyuan continued. “I understand that you can’t accept his departure right now, but you can’t dwell in the pain of losing him forever. You have a bright future ahead of you.”
“Since you were pretending, why didn’t you continue pretending?” Gu Ci looked at him with teary eyes. “Why did you see through me living in a dream and insist on shattering my dream? Couldn’t we continue acting together until he returns? Wouldn’t that be better?”
Lu Zhiyuan, for the first time, experienced the excruciating pain of rejection by someone he loved. Indeed, he now understood what it felt like to be rejected by the one you cared for. In her eyes, there had always been the Third Young Master. She had given up thinking about who was the Third Master and who was the Third Young Master. Even if her acting skills were subpar, she had never exposed the truth because she had believed it herself.
No wonder Gu Ci sought out the Third Young Master for every matter, no matter how trivial.
She had once declared that the Third Master and the Third Young Master were the same person to her. She had passionately professed her love for them to the entire world, and he could see the fervent affection of a young girl in her eyes. She had held her heart in her hands in front of him, asking if he wanted it.
He had rejected her!
Now, he finally understood the kind of heart-wrenching pain that came from being rejected by someone you loved.
Insatiable desires lead to greater suffering.
“Why should I continue acting with you?” Lu Zhiyuan gritted his teeth, suppressing the pain in his heart. His gaze was clear. “The person you love is him. The person you seek is also him. I’m tired, 1 don’t want to act anymore.” “Did Ziyu approach you?” Gu Ci asked, wiping away her tears.
“What does that have to do with Ziyu?” Lu Zhiyuan furrowed his brows, his voice turning cold and flat. “I’m tired of it, Gu Ci. You are fixated on the love of the Third Young Master and searching for his shadow in me. 1 played along with you because 1 promised the Third Young Master not to harm you. But what have you done to me? Three assassination attempts, nearly costing me my life. 1 can’t bear to hurt you, so I acted with you. You’ve repaid kindness with enmity, like the farmer and the snake. You are that snake. Why should I keep you around to bite me in return?”
Lu Zhiyuan’s words hit Gu Ci’s heart like a heavy hammer.
He knew!
He knew that she was the new master of the dark web, and she also knew that she had sent people to assassinate him!
“Do you hate me?” Gu Ci’s eyes were filled with redness, but there were no more tears left. She desperately tried to grasp onto something, but what she held onto felt like quicksand, slipping through her fingers the tighter she held.
“I can’t hate you,” Lu Zhiyuan knew he had to emphasize his words, severing Gu Ci’s delusions. “Gu Ci, you’ve treated me as a substitute, acting all along. Why should 1 be the substitute for the Third Young Master? He’s dead, and he can never return in this lifetime. I am the master of this body, and 1 don’t want to continue acting with you. I’ve had enough of this charade of false emotions. You need to wake up!”
“Shut up!” Gu Ci shouted, her eyes streaming with tears. Every word from Lu Zhiyuan seemed to touch a nerve within her, and memories flooded back, overwhelming her. She desperately covered her ears, but she couldn’t block out the images in her mind.
Lu Zhiyuan’s two car accidents replayed in front of her, over and over, like a relentless fate.
She was destined to lose him, no matter how many times she went through it!
Gu Ci bent over in pain, even though she hadn’t suffered any physical blows. She was in so much pain that she felt like she might faint. Lu Zhiyuan saw Gu Ci having a breakdown for the first time, his face turning pale. He was about to go to her aid, but he restrained himself.
Long-term suffering was worse than short-term pain. Ziyu was right, he couldn’t indulge Gu Ci.
He absentmindedly sipped his tea, detached and cold, much like the first time Gu Ci had met the Third Master. With red eyes, Gu Ci asked in a hoarse voice, “Is he really never coming back?”
“He won’t come back,” Lu Zhiyuan said, even though he wasn’t entirely sure whether the Third Young Master would return. But facing Gu Ci, he uttered the most heartless words, “So, Gu Ci, don’t hope for me to continue acting with you. In the future, 1 don’t want to see you either.”
Gu Ci suddenly burst into laughter, as if she had gone mad, laughing loudly with her hair disheveled, looking like a lunatic who had lost her sanity. “Do you know why 1 saw through that you weren’t him, yet I still wanted to act with you? Because I had anticipated that as soon as you found out, you would immediately withdraw and no longer act with me. Then 1 would truly never see him again. You have superpowers, you can avoid me, not want to see me. How can 1 ever see you again? Do 1 have to jump off a building every time I want to see you? Third Master, you’re ruthless enough. During this time we’ve acted together, did you ever… like me even a little?”
“No!”
Lu Zhiyuan replied and heard how ice his tone was.
Once this blow was delivered, there was no room for hesitation. It had to be a clean cut. For Gu Ci, the endless torment was worse than a swift end.
Gu Ci’s tears seemed to have dried up. She laughed, her demeanor slightly neurotic, simultaneously sweet and eerie. “Such a pity.”
“Gu Ci, insatiable desires lead to greater suffering. Stop having fantasies,” Lu Zhiyuan’s heart was breaking. He didn’t want to hurt Gu Ci more than anyone else, but sometimes, a wounded heart needed the medicine of the truth. “Even if the Third Young Master never returns, your future is still bright. You have a son, friends. Don’t get involved in Jiang Junlin’s affairs anymore. Focus on your studies, become a doctor who saves lives. Don’t walk down the old path again.” “How do you know?” Gu Ci wiped away her tears. “Did Ziyu tell you?”
“After 1 found out he was my son, I met with him once privately. He briefly mentioned things from our previous life,” Lu Zhiyuan said. “In your life, there shouldn’t have been me. Forget about the Third Young Master, forget about me, and start your new life.”
Gu Ci laughed, her voice trembling as she did. It was not a normal laugh; it sounded like the laughter of someone who had gone through immense pain. “Without experiencing others’ suffering, don’t try to advise them to let go. Lu Zhiyuan, you have no idea what I’ve been through. What right do you have to tell me to let go, to forget? I remember all the happiness, and 1 can’t forget the despair I once endured. Lu Zhiyuan, take it as my begging you to give me some hope.. Is he really never coming back?”