The Beast's Virgin Claim

Chapter 177: My Choice - Part?4?

"Just because I do not fuck you?" The way he says it with that tone of his has me freeze in my path to the main door. He knows. He knows what he is doing wrong and yet he continues to do so.

I spin around to meet him my discontentment with his male advancing with each second. "Yes. But also because of many other reasons."

"And what other reasons are they that you have suddenly felt that I am your male no more?"

"You do not love me anymore." My heart clenches painfully at what I utter, never in my life would I have thought that I would be made to feel and say such a thing.

Phobos scoffs as though he finds my words to be ridiculous and laughable. "I do not love you? Love is not always about sex and passion. Sometimes it is the little things that matter and you know this. I have shown you, my love in numerous ways. I was prepared to give up my life if it meant I could find you and you could return safely back home.

I take care and provide for Tadeas and you."

"For me...love is you calling me by all the pet names you created that portray me to you. For me, love is you sleeping with me on our bed. For me, love is cooking together and spending time with one another. For me, love is a cabin filled with warmth and laughter a place I want Tadeas to grow up in. For me, love is having you close to me at all times and of course having sex with you.

For me, love is what we once had but have lost along the way."

Phobos's breath hitches to my truth and I shake my head peering up at the ceiling with bleary eyes willing myself to not spare a single tear for the heartless male of mine. "Everything we once had, everything we have become...I despise comparing them but I seem to harbour no choice. You leave me with no choice. I have had enough of this, Phobos. I just want to be...happy. Are you not sick of this?

This endless push and pull between us? Do you not seek for peace between us?"

"I am at peace and I am happy and will be as long as I have Tadeas and you. You both are the reason I stand in front of you at this moment. The reason I am alive and well."

"But I am not! I have neither and you as my male are denying me this."

"What do you want from me?"

"You! I do not want anything else but just you." I yell loud enough so he can not simply hear me but also feel me.

"You have me, Theia. You will always have me for I am yours. My life is yours. My soul is yours, everything I possess belongs to you." He cradles my face his eyes softening but I move away from him.

"No. You do not know it but I have lost you. Ever since I returned you have had this look in your eyes. This...fake distrusting look and it hurts me." I bang my fist against my chest and allow a sole tear to slip out. "It kills me, Phobos. You kill me."

"Drahá." I gasp studying him with shock and he smiles warmly taking another step forward towards my dying heart.

"What is this? Are you simulating your affection for me? Why would you choose to call me that right when I am breaking apart? So you can build me up strengthen me just so you can single-handedly ruin me again?"

"No, of course not. You have once more mistaken me and I shall-" This male is truly malicious. This time I will not be weak, this time I will not submit to his charms. This time I will be what I was born to be. A queen.

"I had always thought that my entire happiness was you was having you to myself but I was wrong. What I failed to see was that I needed to learn to be happy by myself. I needed to love myself foremost to put myself first above everything else most of all above the one who has my soul. Above you. You do not complete me you do not make whole, Phobos. I, Theia am whole with or without you."

"What does this mean? What are you saying? I do not understand. I will never let you leave me again if this is what you are implying. You belong to me!" He bellows stepping towards me at full speed and I continue to stand there observing his fear of losing me once more surfacing from behind barriers to shackle him.

"Do not worry I will never flee this land again, I will never abandon my duties or my wolves ever again but know this when it comes to you. I can leave you and our matebond even while being in the same cabin together. I do not want to hurt you again but more than that I do not want to be weak and allow myself to get wounded by your inhumane actions."

"Theia." He hooks onto my jaw forcing me to meet his terrified eyes as he endeavours to read me. He is scared, very scared and though it does not fully reveal itself I witness it clearly.

"I will give you a choice Phobos and while I spend my time outside you will sit in here and carefully choose one. I can give you time but I do not wish to for I have given you plenty over the past months."

"What choice do you wish for me to make?"