The Devil who devoured Snow White

Chapter 236 - 1 + 1 = 1

Lu Mengjie had never left Yong Liwei's side while he was unconscious, she would only leave him for a moment whenever Spider came in the room. As far as she knew, the only people she could trust were the people that Yong Liwei trusted. 

"Do you blame Yizhou?" He suddenly asked while he watched her preheat the food that she took out from the refrigerator.

She paused from closing the microwave. She turned to him, blinking a few times in confusion. "Blame him for what?"

"Not risking his life for you," he continued.

"Ah…" she smiled a bit. She closed the microwave's door then pressed a button. "Well, I don't blame him at all."

"Why?"

"That's because he has the right to live. I'm not going to ask him to die for me. I will never ask you to sacrifice your life for me, that's because I would rather live with you both," she replied with a small smile.

"Don't you feel betrayed by him?" 

"No, not at all. If I'm the one to choose, I won't be able to choose as well. I want to live to see our son grow. I want to grow old with the man I love. I think the best answer one could give when they are in a situation where they have to choose between two important people is… to be quiet." She took out the food container from the microwave after the timer ended.

Yong Liwei became quiet as he watched her approach him. She set the food on the table that was attached to the bed. 

"But if I was, to be honest… I was disappointed to see how he gave up so easily." She sighed. "But I shouldn't blame him… he was just trying to protect us… if he tried to fight back, we might have been killed off before he could even finish them off." She looked at him and smiled a bit as she continued, "so please tell Yizhou that I'm not mad and that I don't blame him at all."

He stared at her for a moment. He could feel a familiar warm sensation tingling in his chest. She truly was someone who he didn't deserve to have. A kind-hearted woman like her with that kind of mindset deserves someone better. She deserved a good man who would protect that light inside her and yet… he was a selfish man who only wanted her for himself. He has the urge to hide from everyone but at the same time, he knew that she wouldn't want that. 

"I know that I'm the kindest person on earth but don't stare at me too much and make it so obvious," she said jokingly as she tried to lighten up the mood. He was staring too much at her that somehow caused her cheeks to heat up.

Yong Liwei's gaze softened. She deserved to know that he would never be able to switch back to Han Yizhou anymore. "Mengjie…" 

"What? Are you falling for me again?" She chuckled.

He stretched out his arm to hold her hand. He carefully massaged her knuckles with his thumb. He didn't know how he should say it to her but… he probably knew what Han Yizhou would say if he switched to him. He lowered his head, averting his sight from her. "You're the best thing that ever happened to me, Mengjie."

Lu Mengjie's body became stiff the moment she heard his words.

"I'm glad that I was able to meet you. You are the only good thing that came to my life after walking in the dark for so long."

"Yizhou?" She chuckled a bit. "Why are you suddenly saying this?"

Yong Liwei slowly raised his head to look at her. A small, gentle smile appeared on his lips. All he could do at that moment was to act like his other self as he continued, "I want to continue smiling by your side…"

She was looking at him in confusion. Despite the words he was saying, why did she feel uncomfortable by what he was saying?

"Thank you for coming into my life. Let me vow to cherish and protect you as long as this heart continues to beat…"

"Y-Yizhou…" Her sight became blurry because of the tears that welled in them. "I… I don't think I understand you… why are you saying those things?"

"Don't cry…" He reached out to gently touch her cheek. Even when he was acting as Han Yizhou, he still ended up making her cry. He felt a pang in his chest as it slowly tightened. His other self should be the one to take his place while he was supposed to be the one to integrate into him and yet… the opposite happened. He tried his best to suppress the tears that wanted to come out. "I'll still be here… I'll be living as Yong Liwei from now on… I know that you are not on good terms with him but…" He paused and was rather hesitant to continue since he would be confessing his to her for real this time. It was not going to be his own words from then on.

"You want me to get along with him?" Tears rolled down her eyes. "Cause you'll be leaving me in his hands, is that it?"

He didn't want to see more of her tears so he hung his head low. He knew that she preferred to have Han Yizhou more than him. He knew that she loved his other self more. He shouldn't be feeling jealous and yet? What was this scorching tingle he could feel in his chest? He hid his breath between pursed lips, bracing himself for the next things she'd say.

"If that's what you want then… It's alright. I have always seen you as one. Yizhou or Liwei, it doesn't matter as long as the man I love won't be going anywhere... Liwei and Yizhou… are two sides of the same coin. They are what makes the man I love... whole." She squeezed his hand in comfort. Her lips were trembling, she wanted to say more but she couldn't bring herself to do it as she ended up sobbing in front of her.