183 Episode 76: Rainbow On The Ethereal Dome Of Dawn (2)
183 Episode 76: Rainbow On The Ethereal Dome Of Dawn (2)
"- Lilana!"
Scratch the trees and fly through the woods to follow Lilana's back. I'm faster at speed, Lilana smells of dark blood, and her signs are unique.
Most importantly, the signs of other animals were faint as if they were afraid of her, and it was easy to follow Lylana.
Sometimes they perceive the signs I've been catching up with and point me at the chimera, but I'm not even stopping to say it clarity.
Until just now I decided to stop Lylana, although I might have been trying to deal with that if I was going to splurge the chimera. So by analogy, I'm not stopping for Chimera to go to the Al Kuns again.
And on a small high mountain in the woods. So Lilana stopped her leg. That could also be said to be the boundary separating the forest on the side of the Kingdom of Palletia from the forest on the side of the Kingdom of Cambus.
Try to cross that line and we'll look at each other dressed up. Lilana was just zipping her gaze at me.... When I first saw it, I was excited she looked like a monster that was hard to understand.
But now Lilana was just trapped in the quiet air. So much so that if I meditated my eyes on the alien wings of its back, I would likely nod even if I were told to be the Virgin.
"... I wonder why"
Pompous and Lylana leak their voices. Those crimson eyes stare at me like they're cut.
"Why did you come after me? I don't think you're the one who came after me when people you care so much about might get hurt."
"... you don't know me enough to say that you look like me."
"Perhaps so.... So I guess we're another creature. So similar, yet so close, our distances are irresistibly separated"
To Lilana's words. Once, I closed my eyes and put my hand on my chest.
We're another creature, but we're so alike, even our voices can't tell each other to reach.
"... I just said that Lilana wasn't like me, it's really a hit"
As I opened my eyes and faced Lilana directly in front of me, I reaffirmed the words I had just denied.
"But that's why we're different. It wasn't in Lylana, it was in me. Maybe that's just it. Because it's another creature, it doesn't matter why... I grew up in a different environment."
"Environment…"
"Being yourself isn't always the right thing to do. Sometimes you have to do things that aren't you. I know that, and I didn't have to do that to Lilana"
"... you don't understand. What the hell do you think you can do with a life that's not who you are? Are you really satisfied with the results you've achieved?
"In the phase of seeking that answer, Lilana, I feel sorry for you. That's your limit. Because you are alone, you can only find the right answer to being who you are. That's why you have no future."
Only the past, as I affirmed, Lilana can only create an ideal home by sublimating the suffering that is now there. Although that is one form of happiness, if we accept that happiness as the only one, we can no longer go anywhere.
So to Lilana, who thinks she can only save the world with the ideals she believes in, the world can't find a future even if she can. That means it's complete. It's a world where people end up being people.
Lilana can be that receptacle. It also has all that power and vessels. But that's why I give a thought to the way it is.
"... as royalty of the Kingdom of Palettia, I do not think I can help but be hated by you. If you follow through on that idea, you will reach the Kingdom of Palletia. I must accept your thoughts as a royal bearer of my country."
"... hate, maybe not"
Pompous, Lilana threw up like a vain squeal.
"No, I don't have hatred or anything in the first place. What I have is anger. Why are we so incomplete? You deny my ideals, even though you will all be saved if you become complete. While I admit that's right, I still say I can't. Conflict, oh, it's a total contradiction. Where the hell do I get to?"
"... don't you have to get there?
"You don't have to get there...?
"The only end of the journey you can decide for yourself is your share. Maybe he thinks it has to end because he decides on someone else's journey. But if you're alone, you can decide how far you want to go. For example, people's journeys don't end when my journey is over. Until the day when man perishes."
"Until you perish, do you think people perish? Now that you've done something beautiful, who are you?
"Doesn't perish. I won't let it destroy me. I don't believe in the glow of people."
That's why I was able to come after Lilana. Not just to shelter, but to walk with you. I do what I can, what everyone can do. That's how the world goes around. I'm sure there will be more encounters, more separations. Joy, sorrow, only increases for that matter.
There must be a future beyond that. I believe I am. That's why I won't end the world here. I won't let it close.
'Cause this world, even in the sky, just reached out. Even the sea is an untouched realm in a world full of demons. The universe is another dream. But I know. People can put their hands on the realm.
The possibilities of this world are yet to be determined at the end of the journey. Now even with the small possibilities, I believe it should not stop attracting us like a shining star if we look up.
"If the only thing in the sky is the moon... isn't the night sky so lonely? Lilana."
"... no, the stars are in my arms, even if I end up in the moon-only night sky"
To my begging words, Lilana put her hand on her chest with a resolute expression.
There was a crazy obsession there. But I feel it has turned into something more sharp than madness. It also beats madness - the light of will.
"We wish people happiness, and we are so far apart from being able to empathize. It's just something different that I admired, maybe that's all the difference. But it's keeping us apart by the time we're hopeless"
"Lilana......"
"I can't admit an endless journey. Maybe you believe in people's possibilities. But I know how weak people are. Not everyone can stand that prayer. Maybe the world I want is closed, as you say. Compared to you, I finally decided on the form of my wish."
"... what is your wish?
To my inquiry, Lilana grinned. With the grin of the Virgin, who included kindness like the Mother of Mercy, she uttered a wish that she could not comprehend with me by the time she was cruel.
"I'll put the world to sleep. Let us not grieve any more, that it may be death to those who live now, as you say, but let us invite everything to the shaking cage of the fine sleep of happiness so that we may not be hurt by the world that continues to move forward."
"... really?
"Can you give up the sky?
"... I can't."
"Yes, I can't"
Our shapes are similar as they sound so much alike, but the place across from us is the opposite.
"... for example, if people get tired of walking, can't we walk together if it's such a temporary dream that only then gives us a break?
"You are a possibility, so I guess you can say that. And I'm impossible, so I guess I can only give it back to you like this. - I'm not going to forgive the suffering of this world."
"You can't compromise."
"I'm not accommodating. That's what life and death are for, isn't it?
I'm the living one, and Lilana's the dead one. She laughed and distinguished our relationship.
If you live, something could change tomorrow. That's a possibility left.
If you die, you won't have to be afraid tomorrow. Such an absolute wait for me.
"I think I've killed a lot of people."
"... Lylana?
"I found out because you were there. You're happy, and I'm happy. There's nothing I can do about that. We should let people choose. That's why what I did is a lonely wagamama, as you say."
"Then -!"
"- No, I still don't think it's a mistake. If you continue to live and suffer, let it end. Fortunately, I will give you eternity. Even if that is a dream of unprecedented decadence, let me try to fulfill my eternal painless sleep instead of depriving myself of the possibility. That is my redemption for the lodgings that follow from my ancestors, who could only provide answers by pursuing eternity".
"That redemption will not end! You will always be unacceptable just because there will continue to be more sins and corpses taking away the possibilities!
"Yeah, that's right. So it's nice to be forever. If someone is happily fine-sleeping just because I sin and keep making amends - I'm good with that"
"... this, I don't know!!"
If you've decided to be that ready, my words won't go through anymore. There was a chance that we could walk together, even if it was only about as likely as a grain of sand.
Lilana buried the possibility of it of her own free will. She's like a grave guard. Fill the world with grave markers and it won't end until you see death. Unable to admit raw, she increases her corpses and sins forever.
It's absurd that the end of a vampire who wanted eternal life wants death for eternity. That wish, you can throw it away. Even though there are ways to make amends, I wish the world could never end.
If you can't get that wish anymore - we can only face each other by being hostile.
"You told me to surrender."
"... you can't beat me. It's not just the regenerative power of vampires."
"- Did you think vampires were the only advantage of being monsters?
As Lilana waves her finger like a conductor, the residual light of light draws its tail from her finger.
And that light draws more and more light into the magic formation. I opened my eyes when I saw that magic formation spun to turn into a light sphere.
"No way, that's - heh!
"" Spirit manifestation, you were brilliant. The boulder is the ultimate in the righteous path to be reached by the wizard. We vampires have been corrupted by that measure. That is what expands the power of the demonic stones that feed the Spirit and elevates ourselves to the natural enemies of the Spirit. But it was pointless for you not to rely on the Spirit. Then let's go back to the right path. Even if that path is a path that is not a King's Road! You showed me the way too! "Demon Stone" and "Magic" merge!
The light sphere cracks and distorted aliens emerge from inside. A multi-headed giant serpent whose serpent is formed in a dark moya, illuminated by the moonlight but swallowing even its light.
Only the head as a snake maintains a solid contour, its eyes shaking like vampire eyes suspiciously red light like flames.
"Shall I take it from the Spirit Expression and call it the Demonic Expression? Now, let me give you a name. You are my servant, the great serpent who devours the world, whose name is Jormungand. - Swallow the hope of this world!