Chapter 119: Pregnant?
Chapter 119: Pregnant?
(From Blue's Perspective)
I did not know why Demetrius was behaving like that. I wanted to ask him, but I could not. It was true that my body felt weaker than ever, but he still did not need to react like that. It was as if he was panicking.
The doctor had come to our room. She told Dem to stay outside. Perhaps she had her reasons, so I also gave him a signal that it was alright. I knew he would never listen or else.
"My lady, I checked you up before as well," Emma Reerba, the doctor said. She was the sister of Ezekiel. Because of the incident with Ezekiel, it was kind of awkward to talk to her, at least I felt so. But she did not seem uncomfortable at all, rather she was talking just like before.
"I heard," I said. It was pretty hard for me to talk as well. It was as if something was stuck in my throat, blocking the words.
"Well, please lend me your ear, Your Highness," she said.
"... W-Why?"
"Please, I need to tell you something," she urged.
I nodded and she came near me. I could feel her breath on my ear. She seemed to be getting as close as possible, as if she did not want anyone to know. Since Ruby was in the room and was a werewolf, she still would be perhaps able to hear it. But if Emma was this close, then Dem would not be able to hear it as he was outside the room. I was sure that he was standing as close to the door as possible.
"Your Highness, your sickness is actually because..."
"Because?"
"...because you're pregnant," she said.
"..."
"I thought it would be better if Your Highness heard it first. Well, I know it's not my place to say this, but still, I want Your Highness to know this. Actually, when I was checking Your Highness before, His Highness said that it's fine as long as you're okay and you are not with a child. Since Your Highness was unconscious, you did not hear this.
That's the moment I found out that Your Highness is actually pregnant. I could not tell His Highness about it. I mean, His Highness is not a normal person and I feared that if he found out, he would kill the child."
It was true that Dem did not want a child and even if we had a child, he wanted it to be like me without his features. But how could someone decide how their child would be? It was not like I wanted a child this soon as well, but I could manage even if it was early. I thought it would not be a problem even if I got pregnant someday and he would be supportive.
But after Emma said it, I could not help but worry if he would truly do something like this.
There was a long silence. I did not know what to say or think. But then that question came to my mind.
"But how... I'm a human, right? I heard it's almost impossible for me to get pregnant with his child," I said. "Then how?"
"Your Highness, it's my first time meeting a human and also the first time checking up a human," she said. "It's true that it's almost impossible for humans to get pregnant with a werewolf's child since the bodies aren't quite compatible. I'm also surprised that Your Highness got pregnant this quick. I was worried that there wouldn't be a child in years.
But now I'm worried about a completely different thing."
"Are... are you sure that I'm... I'm pregnant?" I asked.
"Yes, Your Highness. It's absolutely true," she nodded. She was still whispering in my ear while I was whispering as well. "And your body is this weak because of the child."
She inhaled deeply before continuing, "Actually, the problem is not just with His Highness. It's true that His Highness might want to kill the child, but not just because His Highness doesn't want a child. To tell the truth, Your Highness's health is failing because of the child. The child is going to be a werewolf as well.
But it's inside a human's body, that's why it's affecting Your Highness's health. And... if my prediction is right, there is a chance that Your Highness might not be able to stay alive, especially after Your Highness give birth to the child."
"Huh?"
"I'm sorry, Your Highness. I can... I can actually get rid of it if you want to," she said.
"Get rid of it? The child?" I asked, shocked.
"Y-Yes," she said. "I... I actually don't want Your Highness to die. So, if you want to... I don't care even if it's a crime."
"Let... let me think for some time," I mumbled. "I will tell you then."
"Should I tell His Highness?"
"N-No," I shook my head even though it hurt. "I will tell him."
"Yes, Your Highness," she said.
She pulled her face up. That was when I noticed that Ruby was in the room as well. I had completely forgotten about her as I heard something so shocking. Ruby had her palm tightly pressed on her lips as if she was refraining herself from screaming out loud.
It was clear that she was shocked. But so was I. I did not know what to do. But whatever I needed to do, first I needed to think about it with a clear mind. I decided not to tell Dem just yet.
Even if Dem did not kill the child because he did not want a kid, he would surely kill it the moment he found out that I could also die because of it. I did not want to die as well, but I was not okay with the idea of killing it as well. It was a child, something we both made. This face kept turning my thoughts around.
But even though I planned it in my head that I would not tell Dem about it yet, my plan failed as soon as the doctor left and he rushed inside the room. I had completely forgotten the fact that Dem could read minds. And the moment I realized it, it was too late.
"What...," he mumbled. "Get out!" he yelled looking at Ruby.
I knew it was over. He had already found out about it. There was no point in hiding it anymore. His pupils felt darker than ever and his eyes were slightly red.
"Is that true?" he asked calmly. His voice was calmer than usual, but as cold as ice. It was as if he was suppressing from raising his voice.
I nodded slightly and tried to get up. It was hard to move my body. That's why even pulling my body up seemed almost impossible.
He helped me sit and place the pillow behind my back so I could lean against it. He sat on the bed beside me and took my hand in both of his hands and started rubbing it.
"Dem..."
"I don't want to lose you. I won't lose you no matter what," he said. "Even if it means killing it."
"Dem..."
"I don't care! I don't want anyone else! I only want and need you," he said. "So, don't stop me."
"Listen to me, Dem," I said. "Don't think about something so absurd. Think it through, then decide. Emma said that I might die, but there is also a chance that I might live."
"A chance?" he laughed. "Do you think I will relax hearing that you can live while there is a chance that you can die as well?"
"I'm sorry, but even if you hate me, I don't care. I will kill it!" he said.
"Dem! I said don't say this!" I yelled. It was the first time I got angry at him after I came to this world. "Why don't you even listen to me properly? You always just decide everything for yourself! Do you think just because I said I will be with you, you can do whatever you want?"
He looked surprised. But I could not control myself. Sometimes he was sweet, but sometimes he was being too possessive. It was too much. At this moment, it was up to me too what to decide. It was not just him who could decide what to do with it, since it was both of our child.
How could he say something like that just because he wanted me to live?
"This is our child. It means, as much as it's yours, it's mine as well. So, don't go decide everything by yourself. I accepted your previous deeds, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to say anything this time as well," I said.
'Yes, sometimes, even you need to know your place. I might be your wife and accept your negative characteristics as well, but sometimes, you truly need to shut up.'