The Werewolf King's Bride

Chapter 232 : A Killing Innateness And That Man's Words

(From Blue's Perspective)

I had just a bit of everything that Mother brought for me. We chatted a little as well. But something was wrong. I had a feeling that she did not come here just to hang out with me.

"Mother, actually I would like to ask you if you need something from me," I said as I could not take it anymore.

"... Ah, it's nothing much. I actually wanted to ask you about Demetrius. But it's not my main purpose, of course," she said.

"About Demetrius?"

"My son is always wary of me. He doesn't come to meet me and if I come to meet him, he doesn't meet me. I am always worried about him. I just wish to get closer to him. That's why I want to ask for your help. Will you please help me get closer to my son?"

I gritted my teeth. She was the one who abandoned him when he was so little. She was the one who made him feel insecure and ruined his mental health. And now she was saying that she wanted to get closer to her son and he was ignoring her? Did she not know anything?

'I can't believe people can think like this as well. What does she expect him to do? Love her all of a sudden when she did not love her at all? She made him feel miserable. It was one of the reasons for his obsessive nature. He wants to make something his because he never had anything that actually belonged to him.

This is what she made him feel. His father and mother made him like this. And now she is asking for this?'

I was so angry that my hands were trembling and I felt my body heating up from the inside.

Should I just kill her?

"Blue! What's wrong?"

I was forced out of my thoughts the moment Mother touched my hand. I panted and looked around.

What was I thinking? That kind of killing innateness- I had never felt that way before no matter how angry I was.

"Are you alright?"

"Leave..."

"What?"

"Leave right now!"

"Blue, if anything is wrong, please tell me."

"Nothing is wrong. Please leave. I am begging you," I said.

"Ah, alright... Take care of yourself..."

I grabbed the bottle from the coffee table and drank the whole water. I was sweating and my hands were trembling. It was not because I was angry. It was because I was scared, scared of myself.

"Huh..."

I was fine now. But for a moment back then, it was like I had lost myself and my senses were going in a strange direction. I should have felt that it was not normal. But the scariest thing was that time, that kind of innate felt very natural.

I stayed there for a long time. I did not even know when I had fallen asleep. Perhaps I was too exhausted that I fell asleep just like that.

There was a ray of black light. How could light be black? I did not know, but it was like I was seeing it. Perhaps it was just my imagination.

I heard a voice. It was a man and he was saying something. I had heard this voice before, but I still could not recognize it. It was like I had lost my sense of thinking about something.

"It's okay, you know. It's okay to embrace what you are born with. There is nothing wrong with using what you have. You are born for this. So, it is only natural that you will feel like that."

'Who...?'

I wanted to ask who it was and what he meant. Why was he with me? But nothing came out of my throat. Was it a dream? But even if it was a dream, why could I not say anything?

"It's okay. Everything is okay. I will make sure you live for what you are born for. That husband of yours will never be able to make you truly happy. He wants to lock you up. He wants to own you.

More than that, he does not want that your power is fully awakened. Because if that happens, you won't rely on him much and you will be able to leave him whenever you want to. But I want the best for you. I know deep inside you crave freedom. Freedom is more valuable than love. You will understand it sooner or later if only you let your heart open.

Think about what you really want."

'Get out of my head! Stop it!'

"Once your power is fully awakened, you will be able to leave him. You can do even a better thing. If he tries to stop you, you can just get rid of him. You can kill him. It's alright. He is keeping you locked here anyway."

'Shut up!'

'Why can't I speak? I want to yell at him! I want to hit his head! He is messing with me... I can't even see his face! Who is this?

I hate this... I hate everything... Away... I want to go away from this man. I don't know if it's a dream or not. If it is, then I want to wake up.

Please... let me wake up...!'

His words were disgusting. I knew he was wrong. I was trying not to be affected by his words. It was like he was trying to play with my mind and turn me into his puppet, just like Demetrius said.

'Wait... What? Demetrius said... He said this about my father who appeared once in my dream and then another time when I was in the carriage. What if it's him? After all, his words suggest that he is telling me to awaken my power.

And we think that he could awaken my power since I have too much black mana in me... It can be him, the person who appeared in my dream just now. He knows about my birth. He knows that I am the result of an experiment. Isn't it because he is the one who has performed the experiment? He knows about Dem's personality problem as well.

He is now trying to get me against him and make Dem look like the villain here. I know what Dem wants. If he has been hiding it from me, then I would perhaps think about what this man said in my dream. But Dem did not hide it. He told me everything and wants to get better. I know Dem wants to lock me up.

But is this man any different? Doesn't he want to use me as well?'

"Shut it!"

When I finally managed to let out my voice, I found myself waking up and sweating profusely. I was on the couch where I had fallen asleep.

I heard a noise in front of me and I looked straight. It was Sapphire. She had jumped in surprise as I suddenly made a noise like that and a book fell from my table.

"Sapphire... When did you come? No, it doesn't matter. Come here, Sapphy. I want to hold you because... I am scared..."

Sapphire always listened to me well and liked me. She quickly came to me and jumped on my lap. I hugged her tightly and kissed her head.

"Did you have fun with Ava? She likes you and you seem to like her too. I think I should gift her a cat for her birthday. What do you think? You can choose the cat with me?"

"You know I am under a lot of pressure these days. Work is fine, but these dreams... They are freaking me out. Then that man who is supposed to be my father or whatever appeared before me again yesterday. He wears a mask, so I can't see his face... Then a man is saying weird stuff to me in my dream.

He is trying to get me against Dem... And today, I got that dangerous thought of killing someone just because I was angry... I don't know what to do. I am scared. What do you think I should do, Sapphire?"

Sapphire snuggled closer to me and kept on putting her paw on my hand. She was maybe trying to comfort me.

"Thank you... Thank you for comforting me. It's strange how calm I feel when I am with you. Is it because we have a mental connection between us? I guess the connection is stronger than I thought it was."

"Should I walk a bit more now? Thankfully, no one was in this room, so they did not see me in that way... I was being strange, almost like an animal. I don't know if it's a matter to worry about, but I am worried. Anyway, let's just get back to work. I will give you milk then."