Trial Marriage Husband : I Am CEO's Plaything

Chapter 363 - I'm Ready To Be The Father Of Your Child

The sentence that Rangga just said seemed to enter Lisa's ears without being digested properly. The man misunderstood what she meant in the park earlier. Now Lisa's feelings were filled with regret and guilt.

How could she not? She deliberately used Rangga as a shield so that Oscar would not approach her again in the future. Meanwhile, she knew that Rangga loved her with all his heart.

But Lisa doesn't love Rangga as much as he loves her. She felt even more guilty about using this man for her personal gain. Both of her eyes started to water with tears.

Lisa took a deep breath while wiping the tears flowing from the corner of her eyes. Her voice was trembling as if she's shivering with cold. "...Sorry. You misunderstood me. I don't really mean it, I'm just using you as a shield so that bastard won't come to me again. I know, I was really wrong for using you but... I need you to know that the two of us can't be together. I've never loved you. We're childhood friends!"

Her tone was cold and stern. Her expression was no less cold and serious, almost making Rangga feel like he was falling from the sky, hitting the cold sea surface and slowly sinking into the deep.

Lisa's rejection hurt his feelings a lot, making him unable to hold back his deepest emotions any longer. The man grabbed Lisa's palm and knelt in front of her with a pleading face, just like a beggar.

"Lis, I beg you, please. You and Oscar are divorced, so I have the right to chase you again. Think about it, you are currently pregnant, don't think about the fate of your child when they're born? Can you accept it if they're getting bullied in school because they don't have a father? Do you want your child to have no friends because they are the child of a single parent? You don't think about the long-term effects for your child later, huh?"

Sadly, these were all the truth. But Lisa still insists on rejecting his proposal. She doesn't want to marry a man she doesn't love. Besides, Lisa has been tired of her love life since Oscar tricked her just as Aditya did.

"I won't repeat it again. My child is my business, not yours. You don't have the right to control me like this. You don't have to worry about my child, okay? I will take care of them alone. I don't want to bother you and I don't want you to fix all the problems in my life," Lisa replied firmly.

Her words felt like a dagger, stabbing deep into Rangga's heart that it made him hollow. The man was suddenly offended by Lisa's hurtful words. 

"Lisa, you know I can't let you go out there without my protection, right? What if Oscar comes and keeps bothering you again? Your child needs a father figure, let me take the place! I will give the best for your child. Please, accept me..."

"Sorry, I don't want to," Lisa said flatly without expression.

"I don't want to hear the word 'sorry', I want you to consider my proposal. How come you can't feel my love for you? I… " As he hadn't finished with the words, Lisa hurriedly interrupted, "Rangga, sorry, but I can't accept you or anyone else. I'm tired of love."

Lisa realized that the sentence was so painful, but it was better to be honest than to regret lying to her own feelings.

Rangga was silent for a moment. He got up from the sofa where he was sitting and looked at Lisa sharply then said, "I know you still love that bastard, right? You still have feelings for Oscar."

He laughed sarcastically after saying that.

Lisa pulled her skirt with a firm grip, holding back the anger in her heart. "Rangga, I know that you've always loved me, but the truth is I can't lie to myself to love you. And one more thing, I don't have anyone in my heart right now, not even Oscar. I'm done with that bastard."

She wiped her teary left eye then said, "Stop wasting your precious time, I'm not worthy of love." 

"Lisa, you really don't want to give yourself a chance to fall in love with me? Fine! Since you said you would never love someone, I'll wait for you even if it takes forever!" Rangga's voice sounded firm and thundering. This is so unusual, Lisa's whole body trembles at it.

The woman then clasped her fist tightly, trying to stop herself from making a fuss with Rangga. It's time for her to get out of his house, she thought.

"If you are still ignorant, you will never have my heart. I think I'll just move out of your house. Sorry, but I can't live with someone who keeps forcing me to love. Thank you so much for taking care of me in these past 2 months. I'll take care of my stuff, sorry for bothering you."

"What are you talking about!? When did I say you bothered me?" Rangga said in amazement. He was both shocked and surprised, and it was apparent in his furrowed brows when he looked at Lisa.

"Did you not hear? I said I wanted to clean up my things. Thank you for taking care of me these 2 months!" Lisa replied curtly.

She was about to go up to the second floor, but Rangga immediately blocked her steps. "Lisa, I have no intention of expelling you. If you don't want to see me in this house, I'll go. You stay at my house until your health improves, remember that the doctor said you can't be too tired, let alone getting emotional like this. I promise that I will not come back to this house starting today..."

After saying that, Rangga immediately walked to his room to take a jacket and then rushed out of his own house. The man slammed the front door until the sound reached the kitchen.

Lisa was surprised to see Rangga acting so impulsive and unpredictable. She was standing frozen while staring at the front door with a blank look.

Meanwhile, Mrs. Sumiyati came over to Lisa after she heard the sound of the door slamming loudly. "Wait, is Mr. Rangga out again, Miss Lisa?"

Lisa ignored her question. She only turned her body and then rushed to the second floor, saying, "I'll go back to the room first ..."

In the room, Lisa cried incessantly until her eyes were red and swollen. She wiped her teary eyes as she sat huddled by the bed. Her enlarged stomach made it difficult for her to curl up, so she got up and lay down on the bed. She stroked her bulge, lamenting her fate.

Lisa regretted that she made Rangga angry and disappointed. However, she could not pretend to like him just to please him. A bitter taste began to grip her heart, her throat felt  choked and she could not say any more. Lisa stared at her bedroom's window with puffy eyes. Slowly, the rainwater fell down outside. And it gradually became heavy.

Lisa must admit that not all men can do things that Rangga did for Lisa. However, this man's kindness was not a reason for her to accept his love. From the first time she met Oscar, Lisa's heart was only tied to that man.

***

A few days after Rangga's departure, the man didn't show his nose anymore. It felt as if he had been gone for a month even though it had only been a few days.

Today, when Lisa woke up from her nap, she heard heavy footsteps on the ground floor and Mrs. Sumiyati's voice. Usually,  only Mrs. Sumiyati and her are at home, but it looks like Rangga is back. It seems that the man is having a conversation with Mrs. Sumiyati downstairs.

Lisa got out of bed and walked out of the room. She looked at Rangga and Mrs. Sumiyati downstairs talking on the balcony.

Suddenly, the two lifted their heads up and stared at Lisa with a flat expression. Lisa also felt guilty, especially at Rangga, because she had spoken harshly to him. 

Lisa thought she should immediately apologize to him.