Will of chaos

Chapter 1125 Cap 1123: Dragon Totem

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I was very tired at the end of the ceremony, but it wasn't physical tiredness, I was mentally and spiritually exhausted. 

I still hadn't digested everything that happened at the ceremony, I needed time to understand all of this before I even started asking questions, but before anything, I needed to rest. 

When I got back I laid down on my bed to sleep, but I wasn't able to, my body was full of energy, I had more energy than I had when I went to the ceremony, what needed to rest was my mind and soul. 

Without having a better solution, all I could do was meditate in the hope that it was enough, with that I spent hours meditating and without realizing it, I fell into a trance state that I only noticed when it was too late. 

When I opened my eyes I was in the same hall of the monuments where I passed through the Ceremony, in the hall hidden below the hall of crystal pillars. 

But there was something different, there was no monument around it, I also couldn't see the Hall of Pillars or the starry sky when I looked up, all I could see was the image of my dreams, a space full of flowing energies and what it looks like a path where I usually walk, but this time I was seeing it from afar. 

It was at that moment that I saw, as if they were dots on the horizon, people walking this path, I couldn't see these people from the incredible distance, but for some reason, I knew who they were, they are all my children and some others connected to me. 

I could see something coming towards me from where they were, it was a red glow, and only when it got closer I realized it was something similar to a line, I say similar because it was some kind of flowing liquid. 

When I could see these supposed lines I realized that they were all going in the direction that would end up in front of me, it was when I stopped looking up and looked forward that something rose from the ground as if coming out of the bottom of a lake to its surface, it was the same monument that formed during my Ceremony. 

When this monument appeared in front of me, cracks formed around it as the Runes around it lit up, soon the pieces fell away revealing an image of me in the form of a complete Dragon, the supposed lines falling down to where I was are attached to the Dragon making him open the eyes. 

Our eyes meet and it was like a door of knowledge opened in my mind, it was like I understood everything that was happening, there was no doubt or answer, it was like I just knew everything related to it. 

That in front of me was a Dragon Totem, the monument is just a physical representation of the Totem, not the real thing. 

The true Totem will always be me, a part of me will always exist for those who carry my Lineage, it will not only be a passing on of potential but knowledge and skills for those compatible. 

A Progenitor Dragon becomes the eternal Totem of those who carry its bloodline, it absorbs the skills, knowledge, and power of its bloodline to pass down to each generation as needed. 

I can be this Totem, but not my physical self but a version of me, the one in front of me is a representation of my will, Aura, Authority, and lineage. 

He has as much intelligence as I do, but he's not sharing his power with me because that's not how it works, he's for me to share my power with others, to be a part of the potential they already have. 

To me, the Dragon Totem is completely useless, but to those tied to my bloodline, it is a leap in both strength and potential, not a power they can consciously seek, but rather a power that will be there to push them when needed. 

The Totem carries a part of me, the reason for my exhaustion is exactly why a bit of my consciousness and Soul were scraped away for the creation of this Dragon Totem, it wasn't something I was forced to do, the power of the Dragon God just told me instinctively how to do it, I made that decision of my own free will without realizing it, now I understand it. 

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When I opened my eyes again in my room there were no doubts or uncertainties, I knew what I had done, I knew what I was from that day on and I knew that I would always be the support of those connected to myself in death or after it. 

I couldn't help but smile from the happiness of knowing that my family's future will always be supported by my power, there is no greater fear for someone who loves family than not being able to support those they love in their most needed moments. 

"Why are you smiling?" (Nix) 

"You're welcome, I'm just happy, but how are you after these days away?" (I) 

Nix was with her father all this time, I hardly had time to see her these days, but I can understand the endless longing her father feels for her. 

Arash will always be happy to spend more time with his daughter, so I didn't interfere with them during this time, I know this is also the will of Nix who misses his family. 

"These last few days have been good…" (Nix) 

"..." (I) 

Nix may have said few words, but her smile counts for more than any words that come out of her mouth, a smile with bright eyes full of emotion, I don't think I've ever seen her so relaxed and happy before. 

"Master, how long are we going to stay here?" (Nix) 

"A little more, Arash is helping me understand my power as a Dragon, I also have someone to help birth." (I) 

"The cocoon?" (Nix) 

"Yes, Karina has been working on creating the Dragon Seal using all the power of the Dragons of Light that Luminus' group killed." (I) 

"This time there were many True Dragons of Light, it seems to be a gift, but I think it was compensation to make me more easily accept to make Magnus my son." (I) 

"Do you plan to hold the cocoon Awakening Ceremony here?" (Nix) 

"I'm definitely going to do this here, I have no idea what's going to come out of the cocoon, and the strong murderous intent, hunger, and cruelty I feel from this thing I can't even tell if it's going to be an ally or just a monster." (I) 

"I thought I would be a Divine Servant, that's what you said." (Nix) 

"That's what I heard, but I'm not a God, at least not yet, I also know that I created this thing through a Curse to torment someone, I'm not sure if anything good will come of it." (I) 

I wasn't lying, I've been worried about this cocoon ever since I left the Gray Elf village, I have no idea what's going to come out of there, so far it doesn't seem to have intelligence acting on pure instinct, I suspect the reason for being friendly with me so far, whether because he was born of my power, he senses the similarities I bear to him. 

I'm just not sure if it will gain intelligence when after the Awakening Ceremony and if it will continue to be obedient when that time comes. 

So I'm thinking of sticking it here long enough to make use of Arash as a Triumph card to destroy the creature if it turns out it can't be controlled or can live with others. 

"Karina seems to be having trouble creating a unique Dragon Seal as I requested, which is why it's taking so long." (I) 

"Why not create several Dragon Seals? Wouldn't that be better?" (Nix) 

"Turns out I have one big flaw, my curiosity." (I) 

I can't help but think about it since the thought crossed my mind, a single Dragon Seal being made with so much power from the Dragons of Light, if I use something like that in the cocoon it might be that a super dragon will emerge, or something, maybe your bond with me is even stronger, maybe the power of light will even help balance the darkness I feel from the cocoon. 

"Master, are you thinking of doing something absurd again?" (Nix) 

"Sadly yes." (I) 

"And you still want to use my Dad to deal with the fallout?" (Nix) 

"That's the biggest reason to stay here longer, if I don't know what's going to happen, I prefer to have some guarantee." (I) 

"..." (Nix) 

"..." (I) 

"..." (Nix) 

Sigh 

"Have you thought about not doing something so risky if you think it's going to be dangerous?" (Nix) 

"I already thought and I'm still thinking..." (I) 

"Then why do you still want to do this?" (Nix) 

"Like I said, I'll never get it out of my head, the curiosity is killing me." (I) 

"This is also a safe place to do it, out of sight of unreliable people and with someone powerful to deal with any unforeseen consequences, so why not give it a go?" (I) 

"..." (Nix) 

"And they say that Lilith and Layla are the insane ones…" (Nix) 

"Come on, it's not that bad..." (I) 

I know I'm wrong, but there are some things that should be tried even though I know the risks, even though I know the dangers I still get the thrill of thinking about the endless possibilities of just trying to do something like this.