Will of chaos

Chapter 1200 Cap 1198: A Pit From Which There Is No Escape

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I didn't know what happened, I didn't know who I was, I didn't know where I was, I didn't know anything but the eternal silence that dominated me, even now that these thoughts arise in me, the light that appeared in front of me was divided. 

I felt as if everything came back to me, my thoughts were first followed by my emotions, then came the sensations of a body that I didn't take from having, that's when I realized that light came from an opening that I touched, what happened next was my eyes open while lifting my body. 

As soon as I lifted my upper body I realized that I was surrounded by a red liquid, but I ignored that as I looked at my hand, I didn't immediately recognize my own hand. 

It took me a few seconds before I remembered about my own body and even then I couldn't remember anything about myself until the moment I looked around noticing the statue right where I was. 

I felt ashamed of the Statue that I thought was beautiful at first, but every second I spent looking at the statue more feelings arose and with them, memories came together, when the first memory came it was like pulling one that guided me through the darkness of a maze to the exit. 

A flood of memories came to me all at once, I was momentarily confused before I remembered who I was and where I was, and then clarity came through my mind allowing me to recall my last memory. 

"(For me to be here means we escaped, the plan worked...)" (I) 

"Glad to see you're awake." (Elizabeth) 

Suddenly I heard a neighbor and turned my eyes away from my statue, that's where I found Elizabeth looking at me, she was walking over the surface of the pool of blood, she was standing while I was half lying and not considering that she is much taller than me. 

But it wasn't having to look up that was bothering me talking to my sister, it was the coldness in her eyes, as soon as I saw those eyes every part of my body was screaming to run as my mind surrendered knowing I can't run from her. 

Even her pressure seemed to surround me as I listened to her heart beat as hard as the drums of a war I knew I had done something wrong, the only thing that came to mind was the event of my last memory of that technique I planned never use for finding fault, it made me think of others who were with me at the time. 

"Sister, are the others okay? They made it out..." (I) 

"Everyone is alive, managed to run with Zoe's help." (Elizabeth) 

"You know if..." (I) 

Before I could say anything she put a finger to her mouth, even without saying it out loud I already knew she wants me to be silent, I had never seen her in this state before and I must admit I had a chill running down my back. 

"Do you feel anything in your body?" (Elizabeth) 

"..." (I) 

I knew she didn't want to let me talk, so I shook my head at her question. 

"Does your mind seem strange in any way like mental confusion, holes in your memories, or does it seem sluggish in any way with difficulty focusing on something?" (Elizabeth) 

"..." (I) 

I once again respond by nodding my head in denial but I sensed something was wrong with her eyes becoming scarier with each question being asked. 

"Last question, do you have any idea what you've done?" (Elizabeth) 

"..." (I) 

I knew my condition must have been very serious, I knew something like this could happen, so I declared this a forbidden technique that I planned to never use, but I couldn't think of anything else to get us out of there, so I shook my head in affirmation, I knew from the start that I was doing something wrong and so I nodded in confirmation. 

Boommm!!! 

As soon as I nodded in confirmation I got a kick in the jaw without having a chance to react, I felt my body pass through several walls before making an arc as I fell now outside the city. 

When I tried to spread my wings to land I was interrupted by a Paralyzing pain in my whole body, I could feel every piece of flesh in my body vibrating, my bones were cold to the point of freezing the inside of my body and my blood seemed to have a mind of its own while ran wild in my veins. 

"You have no idea what you've done, you idiot." (Elizabeth) 

While I was distracted by the sudden pain, a hand appears grabbing my body by the neck to raise it up to the height of her eyes, still as cold as before. 

"It's one thing to do something reckless where only you are in danger or for something worthwhile." (Elizabeth) 

"But you had other cards to use, you have a Saint of our Mother and 3 Champions by your side, if you had used them you could have resolved the situation better." (Elizabeth) 

"..." (I) 

I had no answers for what she said, I even thought about asking Ivan, Diana, and Layla for help while I was thinking, but I was afraid not for myself but for them, I didn't know how they would be when facing the Divine Beast of Light, for so I preferred to resort to a plan where only I would be in danger. 

"I heard from others what you did, congratulations, you really surprised me this time by your level of naivety, did you think that was the level of power you could control?" (Elizabeth) 

"Looks like you have no idea what you've done, so let me make this clear for even an idiot to understand." (Elizabeth) 

She was really furious, she alerts my neck and I feel the bones break, nothing that was too serious for me, but my sister by her look didn't care about my injuries as she pulled me inches from her face, her eyes locked with mine. 

"Zoe told me everything, I don't know how she did it, but superimposing Blessings of Gods is more than bad, a Blessing of a God comes from something called Divine Power, something only a God can control." (Elizabeth) 

"You somehow merged together different Blessings from various Gods, it created a spark of raw Divine Power, thanks to which a Moon became pieces and you almost ceased to exist in both body and Soul." (Elizabeth) 

"If Zoe weren't around you could be dead, even Natasha wasn't able to heal you on her own, it took Zoe's help and the cooperation of your Familiars along with your Divine Servants to heal you enough to begin the true healing." (Elizabeth) 

"His Soul was cracked barely able to contain that spark of power far beyond what you can conceive of, his body kept trying to unravel itself endlessly, no matter how hard we tried to heal, nothing worked for more than 1 month, only Holy Power had A slight effect can adapt your body, but it was very slow." (Elizabeth) 

"If it wasn't for Zoe there, everyone would be dead." (Elizabeth) 

She throws me to the ground like trash, her eyes softening after venting her anger, then blood pools behind her taking the shape of a throne she sits on as it crystallizes. 

"You need to understand that certain actions lead to consequences, what you did had serious consequences for you." (Elizabeth) 

"You lost all the Blessings you had, but that wasn't all, it was the destruction of those Blessings that caused that spark of Divine Power to momentarily exist." (Elizabeth) 

"Right now you can't use your Aura, Holy Power or Authority all because the fragments of those Blessings are still attached to you, they were used to heal your Soul by the Saint of Life 2 weeks ago." (Elizabeth) 

As she spoke I was paying attention to what had happened before, my neck was healing very hard, even after a few minutes it was healing more slowly than I remember. 

It seems that this time I did something more idiotic than planned, my body is more than weird. 

"Your Soul is different from what it was before, this has influenced things more connected to your Soul's essence like your Aura, Authority and Holy Power." (Elizabeth) 

"You must also feel your body, this is because of the change in your Soul, now your body is reacting to your Soul, which is leading your body to destruction." (Elizabeth) 

"The worst of all will be..." (Elizabeth) 

Elizabeth stops for a moment looking up, there I see my Familiars, Divine Servants, and my Wives, everyone was standing still looking at Elizabeth, but meanwhile, I saw a red comet fall on top of me, it was Natasha who started punching me continuously at the same time that healed the wounds she was inflicting herself. 

"Let's see how you'll do another crazy thing like that in the future, you little one..." (Natasha) 

Before she finished there were already people around her, those were Diana, Kira, Érica, and Ibuki. 

Everyone was pointing their guns at Natasha to immobilize her in an attempt to stop hitting me, but honestly, the damage she was causing me didn't even come close to the pain I was feeling all over my body. 

"We have to go back..." (Ibuki) 

Ibuki was the first to notice, so she forced me back to the Communal Temple where I felt Holy Power fill my body easing the pain to a minimum that I was barely able to notice. 

"What should I do now..." (I)