Will of chaos

Chapter 764 Cap 762: Admitting Mistakes

"How could I forget that!?" (I)

"(Because you're such an idiot master, I thought that was clear.)" (Layla)

"That was a rhetorical question, you annoying Fairy." (I)

"(Annoying you for letting me die!)" (Layla)

"I didn't let you die, I controlled everyone's body at the same time, but you were the only idiot who resisted." (I)

"(You started controlling my body out of nowhere, I was confused.)" (Layla)

"If you were fine, then why didn't you speak up sooner? Why did you let me do all that?" (I)

"(I had just died, so my Soul was dormant for a period of time, normally it was for a Fairy to return to the Fairy world to create a new body before being summoned again by her Contractor.)" (Layla)

"(But my bond with you is stronger you idiot, so my Soul returns to you where I will absorb your mana to recreate my body, idiot master.)" (Layla)

"(I only woke up when I felt the curse that a certain idiot master threw on himself, but I was a little confused when I started to wake up.)" (Layla)

"(When I realized what was happening, you were in the middle of a fun battle, which by the way I must commend, rip off an arm and have the enemy devoured from the inside? It was an amazing show!)" (Layla)

"You're a devil!?" (I)

I was lying completely still on the ship that had been partially repaired by Sakura, the truth is that my state after the attack was much worse than I imagined and it became even worse after putting so much pressure on my body in that totally unnecessary combat.

My injuries weren't just physical, my biggest damage had been to my Soul which was injured when I forcefully controlled all of my Familiars at the same time to save others from the attack on the ship.

To make this damage to the Soul even worse, I even used two curses on myself to be able to fight that Siren, not to mention the damage I caused to my body with so many unnecessary improvements.

When Érica found me floating in the Ocean, I was so weak that I can't escape her scolding speech, some people still haven't woken up like Ibuki and Nix, it seems Ibuki had a big mental shock to see me in that state due after the attack and Nix needs me to help with recovery, something I can't do at the moment.

I still can't believe I forgot that Fairies and hired Spirits don't die permanently, that's something I already knew, I even remember being a reason for happiness knowing that Layla and Nix would always be safe as long as I was alive.

I was an idiot, I thought I was thinking rationally and controlling my rage, but it was the opposite, I was so furious that I had stopped thinking, I couldn't control myself and had to look for the worst way to do things.

"Is more calm?" (Kira)

"I think so, to be honest, I'm not sure anymore." (I)

Kira walks into the room, I have no vision of the door I'm in and am unable to move my neck at the moment, I already consider it very lucky to be able to move my eyes and mouth.

"You got everyone worried this time." (Kira)

"I know, I wasn't as in control of my emotions as I thought." (I)

"Everyone noticed that your Aura was worse than that of the monsters, you know?" (Kira)

"..." (I)

"Can you call Freya for me?" (I)

"You're really finished this time, she's after you taking care of Ibuki." (Kira)

"Wait... since when are you here Freya?" (I)

"I was already here when Érica brought you here." (Freya)

I hadn't noticed her, I'm not able to use my Aura at the moment and my vision when Érica brought me in was horrible due to exhaustion, I hadn't even thought if there was anyone else in the room besides me.

"I'm sorry Freya, I yelled at you when everything you said was for my own good." (I)

"I know you weren't well at that moment, I didn't think for a moment that those words were true." (Freya)

"I was filled with anger and fury, I ended up taking it out on you for being the first one to try to stop me, I apologize." (I)

"Just rest." (Freya)

"Unfortunately I can't, if I sleep in the state I'm in now, I'll evolve, the growth barrier I created for myself collapsed during my previous rage." (I)

"But if you evolve now..." (Kira)

"I can't say what could happen as my body is very weak and my Soul is injured, not to mention the energy density here is too low for anything above the Lower Catastrophe Grade." (I)

"Can't you remake this growth barrier?" (Freya)

"In the state, he's in, it would be impossible." (Kira)

"Exactly, the most I can do is stay awake to stop the process of natural evolution." (I)

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It took me days to get back on my feet and the first thing I did was find Nix who had spent all this time sleeping in her Dragon form on the ship's deck.

Healing her was relatively easy as I only needed to feed her with my mana, when she got up I made her revert to her Human form and open the Dungeon on the lower floors of the ship again.

Ibuki also woke up during this time, since getting up she has been like Hinata always clinging to me, she spent a whole day crying when she woke up, and it took a long time for her to calm down.

Diana seems to have been very affected by what happened, she spends her days quietly training her Aura with Ragnar's help, Sophia on the other hand has been talking a lot with Freya in secret and everyone has been acting strange.

It was only after talking to Irius that I understood what happened, they were blaming themselves for what happened to me, everyone thinks that if they had noticed the attack like me they could have acted faster so I wouldn't have to save them.

Only Ragnar and I realized how silly this is, my Aura and senses are special due to an accumulation of factors impossible to replicate, and for that reason, I had to train a lot to be able to process all the information that my Aura and senses pour into the my mind.

Knowing this, I made everyone attend a meeting to try to exile it, but it was like talking to a wall, when I realized this, I passed specific training plans for each one, they were training plans that I had thought of before, but I never showed why I thought to be better each follow their own training path.

I realized that everyone always trains to improve their strengths, so I did training methods for their weaknesses, the same type of training I always try to do.

I have a lot of strengths because of the large number of skills that I have, because of that I know that I will never become an expert in all these skills, so I focused on acquiring the ability to use these skills freely to fight using my creativity, in addition to I do trainings to cover my flaws.

In other words, I will never win against a mage with magic or against a swordsman in combat, but using my creativity and the large number of skills I have, I can adapt to any kind of situation easier and better than anyone else, was so I managed to beat that siren so fast and even that was with a lot of preparation while I was running out of energy like a broken dam.