CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

Chapter 106 - Roulan Was Her Light In The Darkness

Tian Yuan couldn't do anything as he watched Liu Ji Fan tearing his clothes away. When he was left only in his undergarments, his eyes were full of panic.

"No…"

He screamed as he held his underwear with his hands as if that would stop Liu Ji Fan's intense stare at his body.

His mind ran fast as he watched Liu Ji Fan's hand that was about to push his hands away.

"I'm tired, Ji Fan."

He said in a raised voice and Liu Ji Fan's hand stopped.

It encouraged him to speak more. With a very pleading tone, he whispered

"I am sore down there.. My legs are still aching."

His face was red as he uttered those words but he had no other way. This was his last option.

And somewhere it was true. Although Liu JI Fan was very gentle with him last night, he ran here and there and didn't rest much. His emotional changes had also been on a very high level the whole day.

The whole day, his heart was filled with nervousness and fear so at this moment he was really feeling very tired and his legs were also paining a little.

Liu Ji Fan heard his words and all the lust and desire from his eyes immediately faded. The indifferent eyes flickered with distress and softness for a moment and then went back to their indifference.

  He leaned down and held Tian Yuan's chin.

"Why didn't you say this before?"

He asked coldly.

Tian Yuan almost wished to throw him away from the bed hearing his cold question but he knew that he needs to be careful with his actions and mouth for now or else he will just trigger Liu Ji Fan's anger.

He thought for a moment and then whispered with lowered head.

"I was shy."

He almost vomited out everything while saying these embarrassing words but seeing how Liu Ji Fan seemed to have believed him, he patted himself on his back in his own imagination.

'Smooth play, Tian Yuan.'

Liu Ji Fan took a deep breath and then came down from Tian Yuan's body and lied on the bed.

As he hugged Tian Yuan's thin frame from his behind, Tian Yuan froze suddenly.

He could feel the hard thing poking his butt.

'Why was he suddenly feeling so guilty?'

Feeling uncomfortable he tried to move forward when his eyes widened suddenly.

Patting his butt sideways, Liu Ji Fan tightly held him in his arms making him feel his hardness.

"You…what are you doing?"

Tian Yuan stuttered out almost wanted to run away because of the fear, excitement, and nervousness.

Liu Ji fan bit his small earlobe that had turned red and whispered

"Sleep quietly. If you tried to move even an inch away, then I can assure you that you will not like the consequences."

Because he was aroused, Liu Ji Fan's voice was hoarse and huskier. A shiver ran down Tian Yuan's spine when he heard his voice and he instantly closed his eyes.

A moment later, he thought of something and his heart was again filled with anger.

The b****d have spanked him quite a many times. The first time that day outside the restaurant and the second time, now.

Under his closed eyes, Tian Yuan swore that he would surely avenge himself one day.

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Mo Roulan leaned on her chair as a heavy sigh escaped from her lips.

"Youlin, why don't you want to study? I am ready to help you if you are facing any difficulty but even I can't do anything if you don't want to study at all."

She said while pressing her temples.

Before going to Cheng family Mansion, Mo Roulan had given a test paper to Shen Youlin and asked her to honestly answer every question.

Her motive was to find out Shen Youlin's level.

However, she was quite disappointed when she saw the blank sheet. Shen Youlin couldn't even answer the most basic questions. 

She still encouraged herself and started to teach Shen Youlin but it was proving to be more difficult than she had thought. 

For the past one hour, she is trying to teach Shen Youlin but Shen Youlin would always look lost somewhere. 

Seeing her exhausted face, Shen Youlin's heart was filled with immense guilt.

Actually, she was trying to concentrate but every time her gaze would rest on Mo Roulan's face she couldn't move her eyes away, and then she was lost in her own La La land.

Her eyebrows knitted to form a frown and she said

"You shouldn't waste your time on me. I will be alright even if I don't study. Also, what will I get from studying? It is not like my pocket money will be stopped from the next month."

She seemed very casual as she said those words but only she knew how her heart was filled with bitterness as she said those words. 

She was not like this in her childhood.

She used to be one of the studious and hard-working students in her class.

Her mother liked it when her children got good marks. Every semester her mother would gift only that child of her who used to get the most marks among her and her siblings.

Since Shen Weisheng used to live with her maternal grandparents, she and her elder sister would become the victim of her mother's competitive nature.

Every semester she and her sister would work hard to get more marks than the other, however, she would always be left behind by her sister by one or two marks.

Standing in a corner with her mark sheet in her hand that used to show the first position in the class, she used to watch as her mother would gift whatever her sister had demanded that year. Her sister would be kissed and hugged by her mother.

She would also take her sister to her office and they would spend the whole day together.

She…she used to get nothing.

It was only once when she finally succeeded in getting two marks more than her elder sister.

Only she knows how happy she had been that day. She had jumped around in her room with happiness after she got to know about this.

Her sister's defeat became her happiness just like her defeat used to become her sister's happiness.

With a bright smile, Shen Youlin took her report card to her mother as soon as she came back from her office that day.

However, the result was ….

Her mother brought toys and dolls for her sister only. Even after getting the highest marks, she got nothing that semester. 

She shouted at her mother only to get slapped heavily.

'How can you be so insensible and selfish, Youlin? Yiling was ill and she still gave her exams. It is only because her health was not better that you could get two marks more than her. Ha…even then you only got two marks more than her.'

Only two marks…her mother said.

Those two marks were her whole happiness a few moments ago.

With red and swollen cheek, she looked at her sister who was playing with her doll with a bright smile.

She didn't see remember in which exams her sister was actually ill, however, since her mother said it must be true.

'But still, wasn't her mother a bit harsh towards her? Or was it really her who insensible and selfish?'

Lost in these thoughts, she had walked back to her room holding her slapped cheek.

A moment later, she had come back to say 'sorry' to her mother but she couldn't move forward when she saw her mother hugging and kissing her elder sister happily.

She stood in the same corner for a long time that day.

When she went back to her room, she tore her mark sheet.

'There was no benefit in studying. Her mother, in the end, would love her sister more than her.'

After that day, she didn't waste her time in studying. Instead, she would just play games and do whatever used to make her heart happy.

It was not late that her brother also came back to Shen Mansion.

Now Shen Youlin found out that her elder sister couldn't win against her brother. Her mother loved her brother but also loved her sister.

It was only she who was left alone. She would hear scolding after every parent-teacher meeting, after every semester result.

But she didn't care. 

She made new friends. She didn't care if they were friends with her because of her money only; she just wanted someone's company.

Someone with her, for whom she really mattered.   

It didn't matter if that person was selfish because she was also selfish. She wanted that person to love only her.

However, she also lost that hope as she saw the friends coming and going from her life.

No one had a permanent stay in her life. Those who had, they didn't love her.

Then came the time when she realized that she was a lesbian. It was You Youxin who found about her truth first because she had helped her to find it out when she was confused about her sexuality. 

The revelation made her feel more alone and drugs became the only source to forget that loneliness.

However, meeting Mo Roulan was never within her expectation.

A girl who saved her without any selfishness…how could her heart not move. After seeing so much selfishness, Mo Roulan's selflessness was very precious to her.

Mo Roulan was the light she found in her dark life and she wanted to hold onto that light.