CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

Chapter 108 - How Pathetic I Am

Tian Yuan turned around with closed eyes.

'Let it be my hallucination. Let it be my hallucination.'

He murmured inside his heart as he slowly opened his eyes only wishing that he would not see anyone.

However, when had things happened according to his wishes?

There stood tall and mighty CEO Liu in front of him firmly. Even though it was dark, he could see the mocking smirk on Liu Ji Fan's lips.

His eyes moved above and his heart shrank in fear when his eyes met a pair of cold and indifferent eyes.

"Tsk…Tian Yuan, what will you do now?"

He heard Liu Ji Fan's mocking words..

'Indeed, what will he do now?'

Should he pretend to be sleepwalking?

It would be a foolish thing to do at this moment.

But, Tian Yuan actually closed his eyes and walked around a little bit. Anything that could save his body from this devil was not foolish.

However, he felt his waist being suddenly grabbed and the next moment he felt his world turning upside down.

He was about to scream but covered his mouth and bit on his hand.

With opened eyes, he found that he was hanging on Liu Ji Fan's shoulder like a sack.

Ughh…

He almost groaned in pain feeling Liu Ji fan hard shoulders stabbing his stomach.

The man had a body made of stones. However, he could do nothing except silently tolerating everything.

Because he was sleepwalking.   

So he closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep as Liu Ji fan walked around with him.

A few moments later, he felt the soft and comfy bed under himself but with that he also felt a heavy weight on his body.

"So you want to pretend now."

His heartbeat sped up when he heard Liu Ji Fan's cold voice. 

Tian Yuan still didn't open his eyes. There was a moment of silence inside the room. He couldn't see what Liu Ji Fan was doing.

Did he sleep? He thought as he could no longer feel the heavyweight of Liu Ji Fan's body on himself.

Tian Yuan relaxed and decided to sleep peacefully now.

However, he couldn't do so, because the next moment he heard an ear pricking sound of being ripped something.

He opened his eyes abruptly only to see Liu Ji Fan's hand on his shirt which was now torn in two pieces.

"You b…"

His words came to an abrupt halt when he saw Li Ji Fan's red and cold eyes as if he wanted to swallow him alive.

"Ji Fan…"

Tian Yuan was afraid. He couldn't stop his body from moving backward. He just wanted to go away from Liu Ji Fan.

This kind of Liu Ji Fan was very scary.

However, before he could even move out of his hold, Liu Ji Fan grabbed his ankle and dragged him back under his body.

He effortlessly moved away Tian Yuan's torn shirt and uncovered his upper body.

With the same torn shirt, he tied his hands above his head.

"W.w.what are you doing?"

Tian Yuan whispered

Liu Ji Fan didn't answer his question.

His silence scared Tian Yuan at this moment.

"Stop"

But Liu Ji Fan didn't stop.

When his hand touched Tian Yuan's trousers, Tian Yuan said nervously.

"I'm still tired from yesterday."

Sure enough, his method worked again as Liu Ji Fan stopped again. He saw him leaning closer to his face. There was a smile on Liu Ji Fan's lips but Tian Yuan didn't like it.

It was cold….very cold.

He still wanted to get away from Liu Ji Fan.

"Tired? I don't think so. Since you have enough energy to think of running away from me, you are not tired at all."

Tian Yuan's body stilled. His eyes were filled with panic as he saw Liu Ji Fan leaning away and tearing his trousers very easily.

"Hey…stop."

He thrashed his legs when he felt him going for the last piece of cloth on his body. However, Liu Ji Fan easily caught his legs and pressed down them with one hand.

"I don't want to do it. You can't force me, Ji Fan."

He said firmly.

Liu Ji Fan sat down between Tian Yuan's legs and looked at the beautiful face in front of him. A cold smirk appeared on his lips and he said

"Why can't I? Why should I care for you when you don't care about me?"

(**Warning- The chapter ahead contains the mature content. Readers who don't to wish read such content can skip the part till the next dotted lines.)

With these last words, he ripped Tian Yuan's last piece of clothing and threw it away.

"No…"

Tian Yuan shouted. His body was now trembling with fear because Liu Ji Fan looked very cold and furious. 

He struggled to free his hands but was unsuccessful.

"I'm feeling very afraid Ji Fan..stop."

Liu Ji Fan leaned down to look at Tian Yuan's face again. For a moment, Tian Yuan thought that he saw the softness in those cold eyes.

He blinked and looked carefully again but he couldn't do so.

"Ahhh…"

His back arched up as he panted harshly feeling the hot hand on his most sensitive body part.

Looking at his seductive face, Liu Ji Fan continued moving his hand up and down while with others he caressed Tian Yuan's cheek.

"You're afraid, Tian Yuan?"

Tian Yuan opened his eyes when he heard his question.

Liu Ji Fan looked in his eyes coldly and whispered

"I was also afraid …"

"Five years ago, I was also very afraid when you suddenly left me."

Pausing for a moment, he chuckled coldly and fastened his movement down there making Tian Yuan moan out loud.

"S…low  down"

But he didn't.

Staring at the man in his arms, he said

"I still am. I am afraid that I will move my eyes away and the next moment you'll not be there…with me. I can do nothing except hold you tightly."

A tear slipped out of Liu Ji Fan's eyes which Tian Yuan could never see as he leaned back and put Tian Yuan's legs on his shoulder.

Tian Yuan's eyes were wide. He tried to free his legs from Liu Ji Fan's hold but Liu Ji Fan held them firmly in one place.

His hold was never painful.

"If you think that I will let you go this time, then you are very wrong, Tian Yuan."

Without moving his eyes away from Tian Yuan's wide eyes he entered his body.

"Ahhhh…."

Tian Yuan screamed loudly at the invasion. Tears streamed down from his eyes.

"Pain…"

He whispered. He felt cold and hot lips kissing his tears away which only brought out a new wave of tears from his eyes.

He should be angry and disgusted because he was being forced.

But why is it that he still feels loved when Liu Ji Fan touches him?

'I was also afraid when you left me.'

Words rang in his ears.

Why is there so much pain in this love, Ji Fan?

I want to love you, be loved by you but….I can't."

"Be good. I'll be gentle."

A soft whisper fell in his ear.

So he submitted again. He knew he shouldn't but he did it.

What else he could do?

Liu Ji Fan will not leave him. His heart will not leave Liu Ji Fan.

What could he do?

"Ji Fan…"

He sobbed feeling the pleasure and pain of his heart. Two arms surrounded his body instantly and caressed his back as he was lifted from the bed.

The movement continued making his mind blank.

"Yuan…"

"Ha…Ji Fan…I wish I have… never met you."

Tian Yuan whispered as he laid his head on Liu Ji Fan's shoulder breathing heavily.

Liu Ji fan felt like someone had stabbed his heart with the knife again and again when he heard those words.

Tightly holding Tian Yuan against his body, he rocked his hips at a fast pace making Tian Yuan scream out aloud.

"I will still wish to see you.."

  A soft whisper was lost in the harsh sounds of heavy breathing and panting. 

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The small room was filled with someone's screams but he couldn't hear them.

Black eyes filled with pain glanced at him. He stood there unmoving staring at her.

There seemed to be a faint ache inside his chest. 

A moment later, he walked forward slowly towards her.

When he was finally near her, he looked down at the girl lying on the floor calmly.

'Are you in pain now?'

'Do you regret whatever you did to me?'

He wanted to ask but couldn't open his mouth.

Somehow he felt that by saying these words, he will only increase her pain at this moment.

He doesn't want to do it.

'How pathetic I am.' He mocked himself inside his heart.

But the next moment all of his thoughts seemed to be ceased. She closed her eyes slowly while murmuring something.

'Hospital…'

He frowned when he heard the word which disappeared soon.

There was blood. Red Blood. He could see it soaking the floor completely.

And it was coming from under her body.

His face went pale at the sight.

'No…'

He whispered and leaned down. Blue eyes full of panic fell on her beautiful face.

'Wake up.'

He whispered again. His hands trembled as he patted her cheek gently.

But she didn't wake up.

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"Ha…."

The sound of harsh breathing was the only thing that could be heard inside the dim lightened room.

Sitting on his bed, He Jian stared at the wall in front of him while breathing heavily. Beads of sweat were rolling down from his forehead.

His blue eyes were filled with confusion as he placed his hand on his chest.

His heart was beating fast but he could feel the pain.

It was faint…very faint …as if it was never there.

What was it? What did he saw?

He doesn't remember anything.

A few moments later, he calmed down. After all, it was not the first time he had experienced this. Almost every night was like this for him.

He glanced at the watch and then got down from the bed.

He knew that sleep would be far away from him now.

So he exited the room and went to work in his study.